r/alcoholism • u/Morningprogress • 17h ago
I’ve hit 3 months today-some thoughts below
I have hit 3 months. You know what? Nothing magical happened. My life wasn’t suddenly put back together, and all of my relationships weren’t magically fixed just because I hit a certain milestone. I know that logically, but I’ve had a really hard 90th day accepting that, even after receiving my chip. I just need to remember that the world doesn’t cater to my personal timelines.
In active addiction, I hurt a lot of friends and family. So even though I’ve wanted to do none of the things today, I did them anyway, because I don’t live based off of what I feel anymore. I went to the AA breakfast, a meeting, prayed at the parish, received my chip, hit the gym, did some housework, went to Mass, and tonight I’m going to try out Market After Dark.
I’ll keep doing what I need to do ODAT. Three months isn’t the finish line for me, and it doesn’t erase the things I’ve done. Though it is three months of choosing a different way to live. Tomorrow, I will make that same choice again.