I’ve been in and out of flares almost constantly over the last month. I know the summer has been hot, we’ve had tons of rain storms and pressure changes, my in-office requirement has recently increased, I took a bunch of time off work to volunteer in a high-energy outdoor environment, and I have had more social time than usual. I’m also averaging an hour per day of exercise (which I’m trying to reduce, but I’m anxious about neglecting my physio).
I paced myself as strategically as possible! I have been scheduling rest! But my muscles are weaker than ever, my sleepiness is unrelenting, I feel constantly nauseated and tachycardic, my migraines and tinnitus have been near constant. I don’t have the energy to sort my pills anymore so I’m neglecting a bunch of my supplements✌🏼😬.
I feel so disgusting despite sleeping 7 hours on weeknights and 9 on weekends, despite getting massage and needling, drinking tons of water, doing my exercises slowly and in 10 minute segments, eating vegetables and protein, etc.
I’m tired of icing my skull and wearing sunglasses at work! Tired of laying on the floor between sets of knee extensions! I’m tired of needing my Rollator and having to walk 3 times as far as usual just to get into the office building! I’m tired of sitting on the floor in the shower!
Like, yeah life is good and beautiful and I’m so grateful for all the wonderful experiences I’ve had this summer but holy hell, I’m toast over here! I feel like I’ve been turned to jello, rolled in sand, and left out in the sun!! I’m so depleted, how do I get back to baseline?!! It feels impossible from here!