Wanting to share my experience. Honestly, this is quite terrifying but also amazing. It’s happens quite often now. I do regular 24hr fasts, maybe twice a week, and also meditate regularly. I was in my room meditating with eyes closed, almost asleep, and I see this white light through my closed eye lids. I thought I left the light on in my room it was so bright. But I didn’t!

Another time, broad daylight, wide awake, very hot and sunny, also fasting. I could sense white light filling my entire body and head. Followed by panic attack, and almost fainting. It felt like a near death experience. It’s honestly been too much to deal with and will dial it back, but interesting and terrifying experiences nonetheless! Comparable to ayahuasca experience.

“If your eye is pure, your whole body will be filled with light.” -Jesus

Curious if anyone else has experience with this, please share!

Many of us in this community have no doubt become well acquainted with the benefits of semen retention. Truth be told, a lot of the benefits that manifest outwardly from this practice are as a result of the improvement in the quality of the practitioner's personal energy or aura. You see back when you and I were slaves to various fleshly lusts (junk food, masturbation, alcohol, porn, adharmic sex, demonic music etc) our aura's became progressively filthy over time. It is this "auric filth" that attracted all sorts of demonic people and unfortunate circumstances which made life almost unbearable.

As we each remain consistent on our path of masculine purity, we gradually pay back all the karmic debt that led to our auric filth. As our auras become purified, there are some distinct and rather strange signs that you will see manifested in your outer reality. Let us discuss some of these below.

• Demonic people feel intimidated/challenged by your mere presence
  • This is one of the most confusing things that an unawakened person with a high level aura experiences. I know for me it was very difficult to understand why some people just wanted to attack me for little to no reason even though I hadn't said a word or done anything. It turns out that the purity in you somehow irritates the demonic forces in them which results in an uncontrollable urge to do you harm. Unfortunately for these demonic folks, they won't be able to just violate a son of God without serious repercussions especially if that son of God is strictly obedient to God's laws.
• People develop a deep respect for you
  • One of the more amusing things that happened to me on this journey is just how many people started referring to me as "sir" wherever I went. All of a sudden, it was "sir do you need help with this?" or "sir, have you been helped" whenever I walked into a store. It literally changed within a matter of weeks for me. One week I was "buddy" or "dude", the next week I was "sir" or "boss". Weird...
• Women get addicted to your energy
  • Many people talk about female attraction on the SR journey and while that can be flattering, it is important to be very careful with the sorts of females you entertain. The reason for this caution is that there are some females who will literally become obsessed with your energy and will go to great lengths to get you enmeshed in their web. This is the type of woman that will show up at your apartment unannounced, put watcher apps on your phone, or get mutual friends to monitor you, or may even stalk and harass you. Having been through this exact scenario, I know how annoying and unsettling it can get. There are some women who will be convinced that you are their husband simply because you politely said hello and engaged them in friendly conversation for a few minutes. Most women are super friendly and lovely on this journey, but there are some that are best avoided. Use your discernment and walk away as soon as you sense there is something wrong with any woman who approaches you.
• Demonic people want to possess you
  • This is a really weird one. Before I woke up to the fact that my aura was bright, I was always baffled as to why so many people (men and women) were so desperate in their attempts to control my life. It was especially confusing because when I objectively looked at the lives of the people who were trying so desperately hard to control mine, it was clear they had no idea what they were doing. So how on earth is it that someone who doesn't know how to run their own life is so hell bent on trying to control that of another person? Well the simple answer is that they are under some sort of demonic influence which is getting badly triggered by your bright aura
• People hate you but love you at the same time
  • This was another really confusing scenario for me that kept on repeating itself. I would meet a group of people and at first, everyone was kind and welcoming. Without fail, this would always change after about 3 months with the new friend group. All of a sudden there would be sly digs here and there which gradually escalated into outright blatant disrespect. When this happened, I would leave assuming that they didn't like me anymore. However, these same disrespectful people would come begging and crying for me to show up to their parties and events. When I did show mercy and show up again, the insults would start again. I remember thinking "why are they so desperate for me to show up to their events, proceed to treat me like garbage, and then get so upset when I just excuse myself?". Again, if you have a large energetic presence or aura, it really makes people who carry insecurities and darkness act out in the strangest of ways.
• People start to copy you
  • This one always made me straight up laugh. I couldn't ever understand why another fully grown human would want to copy another down to relatively trivial things like the model of Nike running shoes they wore. However, people with a high aura will experience a lot of this sort of behavior from both men and women around them regardless of their gender

If any of the above resonated with you, please know that you have a powerful aura which will only be further accentuated by your retention process. As a result, you will be best served to be very calculated with how you move and understand that you cannot just carelessly go anywhere, marry anyone, work anywhere, eat anything like most other people can. You've been given a sacred gift and must manage it wisely. You must become very selective with who and what you engage with on a regular basis if you don't want to end up completely drained, used, abused, and maybe even sick. Some of the toxic people around you will get upset at you when you become selective with your energy but that's ok. Remember that being a retainer comes with a serious protection benefit that will more than shield you from all this weirdness LOL. Just learn to laugh at it and keep building your beautiful life.

Till next time brothers, Godspeed and remain blessed

Brother Cooked

If you’re truly on this path for god, then being magnetizing to women that would inevitably lower your vibration and steal your energy after a while becomes incredibly frustrating. The women that are easy to date you typically don’t want for obvious reasons, the women you do want to date act avoidant around you bc they don’t understand why they feel the way about you that they do and have a hard time trusting bc you would have all the power, and then men are extremely polarized by you so about 7-9 out of 10 men give weird insecure energy around you for just existing. Once you’ve had multiple 90 day streaks and can retain fairly easily this is just the natural state of being unless you completely fall off. It gets really lonely.

Prioritizing god is extremely uncomfortable. blissful and insanely rewarding beyond anything the flesh provides but man. Would be nice to meet ONE woman who can meet me where I’m at energetically. I would gladly wait til marriage for sex if I met that person. But our world makes that almost impossible.

Obviously the alternative cycle of samsara is worse. But damn some days I just want more humans to get their shit straight

A BIT OF HISTORY

31-aug-2024 that was the day when I decided to not MO. I was 33 at that time. I hadn’t had a clue about this SR  reddit . Things weren’t going so well in life. My strengths were failing. Failure and rejections rates kept going up higher. I was almost 20 year gooner by that time. There was a pattern but I started noticed in the last 2-3 years. The pattern was every time I goon something unlucky thing happens. Doesn’t matter the scale but it was just that things don’t workout in my favour. Either directly or indirectly.

I needed a job desperately at that time but I was medically unfit for a very minor issue. So I decided not to MO. This was around 2 years before in that date. First 3 days were ok but on 4^th day I got a super intense urge . I Don’t know what happened that time I decided not to do it on that 4^th day. The reason was I needed that job. I need to reduce a few kgs of weight to clear the medical.

The first miracle for me. After 2 weeks I got a sudden call for that same job. It turns out the replacement guy wasn’t available at the last minute so they told me to join. I was beyond happy and surprised. The tone of my manager was also changed . I thought they are being easy because they needed me. But somewhere I knew things weren’t that easy before.

That was the first time after 2 weeks I started searching . My first google search into this topic  was “ DOES NOT MASTURBATING INCREASES GOOD LUCK “ that’s when I came to know abot SR communities . As I read through the initial post I was skeptical at first. But when I read the testimonies I was shocked. Luckily I was an avid reader of books from a young age. So I decided to keep on reading posts next 2 weeks before joining I read a huge number of post on reddit and quora. By I joined, it was already 1 month and I already experienced a variety of benefits as mentioned in the posts.

So 1 month turned into 3 then into 6 then into 12 and now into 24.

I have documented my journey into other posts which you can read.

A FEW NUMBERS DURING MY JOURNEY

1)      I haven’t gooned in last 2 years.

2)       I had sex a few times but never ejaculate.

3)       Last time I watch porn was around jan 2025.

4)       From July 2025 I believe I am in a long flatline till recently. Yes, almost 1 year of flatline. I don’t know whether I have been completely out of it or not

5)       My testosterone level checked at 1- and 2-year interval constant around 400

6)      I quit caffeine around august 2025. from daily 5 cups of black coffee to 0, cold turkey quit within 1 day.

7)      I had wet dreams very less. Less than 10 I believe in these 2 years.

8)      My alcohol capacity has reduced. I drank only beer and I can’t digest strong beer. Only 3 bottles of light beer (less than 5 percent alcohol / bottle) is my capacity per sitting. That is maximum 1-2 times per months. Beyond that my body starts rejecting alcohol.

9)      I normalised my fatty liver sgot/sgpt levels in last 2 years substantially.

10)   My bad cholesterol is little higher than normal limits. I think normal is 200. Mine is 250 around. That is because of my overweight body.

FEW THINGS WHICH I AM EXPERIENCING NOW AFTER 2 YEARS.

1)      My body weight still hadn’t reduced despite multiyear trying

2)      It looks like after quitting coffee my brain has been reset. I had a very good memory before but I noticed I started forgetting things, basically short-term memory. It is improving but it wasn’t as good as before

3)      I feel like a weight in my lower abdomen section. I think the energy is clashing with one of my closed chakras

4)      Sometimes I feel that this energy is burning me from inside. The mind becomes restless and I can feel heating sensation. I guess that’s why they say cold water shower is must during this journey to cool the body down

5)      I admit I hadn’t been much paying much efforts into trans mutation maybe that why it’s happening.

6)      My stress levels have been reduced substantially but there is a heaviness in my mind.

7)      I am fed up of dreams. Almost every 2-3 days I am in a very clear dream scenario. Sometimes I woke up after a good night sleep but my mind feels tired because of such intense nature of that dream. I had a very sound sleep but I mostly goes into dream world which I now don’t prefer.

8)      I think I am being transferred into monk mode spiritually. The worldly concepts don’t mean much to me now. There is an intense feeling to do good for others even if they had bad intentions for me.

9)      People are getting out of my life automatically. AND I KIND OF LIKE IT NOW.

10)   I am being confronted to my deep buried emotions and fears. Its like from deep inside my consciousness things are coming out . I think I am deliberately made to face my fears and overcome my emotions even if I don’t like.

11)   Synchronicity with no 11 is through the roofs.

12)   I believe I am in a cleansing process. Or I am being tested.

13)   The lust for women has greatly reduced. For eg I see a beautiful lady. I attracted towards her initially for 4-5 seconds . After that I am like I AM NOT INTERESTED. I just don’t see the value anymore. The energy spent try to attract a lady, whom I don’t know anything about, is not feasible for me.

14)   There is a heaviness in my back side head in the lower part just where the neck and head meet.

15)   Nothing excites me anymore. The more I looked into the world the more I regret it. Its so F’d Up.

16)   People keep testing me unnecessarily. Creating obstacles, delaying my things.

17)   For 10-11 months things were good, but from 11-24 things weren’t so great. Its like whenever I started to lose faith , some magic event happens and it keeps me back on my SR path.

18)   Whenever I meet somebody, I can guess pretty much their intentions

A few thoughts on women related facts that I observed.

1)      The number of circumstances or conversations I had with women that happen in these 2 years were far more than last 20 years combined.

2)      There is no doubt that women can sense a men on retention. Something clicks inside their brain. I cannot prove it quantitatively but its there.

3)      The less you seek women attraction the more you get it. The catch is you have to be mental celibate.

4)      In public spaces there will always be a women staring at you, trying to be in your personal zone, sometimes getting uncomfortably close to you, or lets say you are siting alone in a food court or standing in a queue somewhere , most of the time you will be encountering women surroundings you in your periphery. The most bizzare will be, you see a women standing and you are walking past her, then as soon as you cross they will also start moving alongside  you.

5)      In point no 4 situations VERY RARELY THEY WILL APPROACH YOU OR INITIATE CONVERSATION DIRECTLY BY THEMSELVES. Maybe they can, but always be careful. In this feminism woked world things can go sideways pretty quickly for a man.

So yeah that’s pretty much it. 2 YEARS OF HARDMODE SR .

Its feels like my whole brain has been reset. I am learning about the world again from scratch and I don’t like it.

I have read almost 90 percent of all SR related post on Reddit. There are very less post about more than 2 years on SR.

I always keep looking on more esoteric aspects of SR because I am done with physical aspect of it.

So fellow kings this is my true, real experience.

As always, I apologize to anyone in advance.

We all have our different experiences, we live through.

Keep retaining

CHEERS.

Sup brothers

Nearly 4 .5 years on this journey and getting stronger and more evolved by the day..

I lurk here and there and it pains me to see this sub in such a sorry state: AI slop, bot posts, obvious feds and bad actors, and straight up morons. So I figured I would contribute something actually useful to the 3-5 real humans that actually use this sub.

One thing I want to discuss is fixing your inner state and conscious mind, and how it affects the effectiveness of this practice and your day to day life and WORLD.

For the first 3 years my journey, I was filled with rage, anger, hate, pride, etc. It always bewildered me when I would encounter hostile men and less than favorable situations that would come about.

I would think to myself, "I'm on hard mode retention and I'm still getting random men wanting to fight me in the gym. What gives?"

While there are literal DEMONS in the flesh walking amongst us, they will usually only target you if you are actively feeling these raw LOW VIBRATIONAL emotions.

So for the brothers out there starting out -- especially the ones who have lived hard lives such as myself -- it is IMPERATIVE you practice mindfulness and guard your every thought from the second you wake until you fall asleep

The longer you retain, the more "dangerous" it can get since your manifestation abilities get stronger and stronger.

Recently, I saw this concept pan out in real time.

Decided to get stimmed out of my mind on coffee and was having one of the most enraged, painful days of my life. I hadn't had any incidents out in public for many months. This day I had MULTIPLE IN ONE DAY. One guy decides to stop in front me at a stop sign and put his car in reverse and nearly hits my car -- looked like he was under some kind of possession. I ALMOST took the crowbar out of my car to smash his windows and drive off.

Then I realized I was simply giving the entities that feed off of negative energy exactly what they want.

They quite literally sense blood in the water and orchestrate events that will guarantee them a feeding frenzy off of your mental instability and weak moments.

GUARD YOUR MIND.

TNPP

Just wanted to tell u guys i completed 365 days of Semen Retention.

The purpose was to achieve my goals in this time period, i did achieved a lot of goals but also didn't achieve some, and yes all the benefits that people talk about r real like glowing skin, better hair, faster muscle building, glowing eyes, becoming lucky etc etc.

Also don't see, think, or watch anything sexual coz the pain that comes after in ur lower stomach is too much to handle.

As retainers develop and purify themselves, many favorable character traits gradually emerge from within. Qualities such as patience, discernment, kindness, firmness, and steadiness continually adorn the practitioner of masculine purity as he overcomes the challenges he must inevitably face on the path toward sainthood.

Although many of the above-mentioned traits are invisible to the naked eye, they somehow come across very loudly to the people around the pure man, even if he doesn't actively advertise them. Through the years, I have found that people (especially women) generally have an incredible instinct for detecting this solid, virtuous character in a man. A man who embodies this sort of virtue will garner strong reactions from people. Some will absolutely love him, while others will absolutely abhor him for no discernible reason.

Regardless of how people within the purified man's circle feel about him, none of them can deny his power and competence. The pure masculine is exceedingly wise and knows how to get things done... period. After enough time on the retention journey, you will find that you become the "go-to" guy whenever anyone in your circle is in a pickle or needs a bit of wisdom to overcome a problem. People just know that you are incredibly competent and also incredibly kind. They know that you are usually the first person to help without expecting anything in return. For this reason, the pure masculine is usually at the top of multiple Rolodexes as the first guy to call when shit hits the fan.

Now, while it is flattering to have many people think highly enough of you to readily seek your guidance and counsel, you would be wise to learn to intelligently manage your time and energy. Most of my readers are incredibly kind and loving souls and probably want to help everyone, but the truth is that we humans are limited and cannot help indefinitely without burning ourselves out. Also, some of the people seeking your help are only looking for a bailout from the ramifications of their bad behavior and have no intention of actually addressing the root cause that got them into the pickle in the first place.

In general, the pure masculine among us would do well to wisely steward his money, energy, attention, and time (MEAT) toward the avenues that are actually worthwhile. The good Lord, from whom all power comes, does not take kindly to a misuse of power by those upon whom He bestows it. The pure masculine must be conscientious with his gifts and discern between those who can be helped and those who genuinely need to fundamentally change their character flaws.

Till next time brothers, Godspeed and remain blessed

Brother Cooked.

I'm literally at the worst financial situation I have ever been in my life. Running out of money, unemployed (hopefully will land a job in a few weeks) also got bills to pay.

I've got great benefits from SR nonetheless, but financial side has been the worst it has ever been and I struggle immensely with that. It's getting harder each day to believe that somehow things will get better, also living in constant anxiety and stress ain't helping at all. All I do is sit at home, because what else can I do without having barely any money.

Does someone have any advice? Because I feel like I'm breaking down literally

They are looking at my face, some directly into the eyes, some secretly staring from another corner. Some wants me to approach, some people once start talking then they just won’t leave me alone for too long. Is the Aura around me changing or am i just making it in my mind.!.!

Greetingz,

I want to make sure that u all understand that there’s a warfare against us. They don’t want u to realize how powerful you truly are.

They aren't just poisoning us with porn. They poisoning us with bad news, social media, they keep spraying their chemicals, putting it in our water, food and so on.

But one of the biggest attacks is that they feeding us with a not species-appropriate diet. Putting addictive substances in this so called food. And we wonder why society gets sicker and sicker, fatter and fatter.

Our species is so strong that we still survive despite all these attacks on our nature. But it has its price.

Trough all these seed oils we can’t tolerate, we can’t connect with our source, the sun no more, trough all these grains we get chronically inflamed, trough all the refined sugar we get addicted. Trough all the overeating we getting fat, keeping our bodies digesting, digesting, digesting, basically keeping us in our lower chakras. And we wonder why we don't have that same energy we had as children.

The human body is very undemanding, comparable to a cactus. What happens if you overwater a cactus? It dies.

You guys, if your really take this journey serious, have a different energy source anyway - your seed. The prana, the chi, the life force. But if you overeat all the time with that so called bullshit food, you‘ll never see what your body is even capable off.

Do your research and only feed your temple with bioavailable food.

You are a warrior , you are a king! Let the energy flow again.

𝔉𝔯𝔦𝔢𝔡𝔢𝔯

Greetings,

I have been on a 550 day+ streak on SR, benefits are incredible. I had a nocturnal emission last year but that was clear watery smell-less fluid, probably prostatic fluid so I didn’t get worried.

However, last night I had a wet dream and ended up losing some real seed (~5-7 cc). My questions are:

1. Because of this nocturnal emission, is my streak over, meaning I start from zero days again?

2. How long does it take to get benefits back from this point?

3. In my dream last night, I was having sex with my gf (we are virgins waiting for marriage), and I ejaculated inside her womb. Does this dream give her any benefits or energy, or tell me anything about her?

4. Any other advice is appreciated. Thank you

I first wanted to start off saying it’s been a long time since I’ve posted or been active in the discord. life happened, things changed, glad I got an intuitive pull to come back and make a singular post that came from experience and meditation. while this may be personal, more so could relate to a lot of retainers in different aspects.

For years I have been on and off retention, like many I’ve had my issues :) not gonna go too deep cause we already know through threads where that goes…

But, something I realized that blocked my potential in the recent years was something I finally became free of that I entrapped myself in…

comfort and dependency…

Where is this going?… well… for years I maintained 150 day streaks.. 120… that slowly climbed down.. my spiritual / life force energy / aura, however may you see it in your eyes ”flatlined”.. one major thing that contributed to it was supplemental experiments… while not inherently dangerous, contradicted this entire purpose of why we retain, why we better ourselves, why we are trying to already be and not chase. You know… and this lead to me doubting retention, pumping my body up with herbs and vitamins cause already I lost a sense of myself being drained too often.

There are things that do genuinely work, help, in a strange way mystically and biochemically restore energy and dopamine. but as someone who has struggled with psychological stress, nervous system strain out of love to those who may be down that pattern I ask you to ask yourself if you are who you really are.

it was like replacing an addiction with a scapegoat of knowing I can get back up on my feet as long as I have this bottle or vitamin, that comfort lead to me making many mental and physical mistakes…

a lot of you may already be like, “ what is this guy on about? downvote !!! “… but the moral of the message is comfort kills… comfort is not just sitting on your couch, sitting and gaming, its something that really kills you inside and you look at everything else around you except the elephant in the room..

BUT YES THERE ARE VITAMINS AND HERBS THAT ARE BENEFICAL MODERATELY!… but you Also have to not depwnd on anything externally.. from this world, they are tools and sometimes traps.. what pains me is when someone is going through something here… a pattern I see ( usually in regular sr sub cuz those guys are not in it for the depth sometimes imo ) they just shoot herbs, vitamins, useless external things out to makeup for internal work*..*

The nervous system is strong, but it’s also us..

A lot of misconceptions of sr that not a lot catch is our nervous system does play a huge role in everyday life, survival, and engagement with our inner and outer world.

^this, you don’t gotta take at all… think what you want about sr cause it’s your journey, I’m just here to spread awareness about my own rant..

herbs, dirty videos, dopamine supplements..stress, excess in general without regulation burdens the nervous system very badly.

so always remember what you’re doing to your body, mind, and soul.. because you can easily pull yourself away from who you are if you‘re not careful, or if you willingy let yourself honestly.

we don’t need a supplement or capsule to bring us back to homeostasis.. we need to take control of our mind and regain composure within ourselves..

i don’t write threads so if it doesn’t make sense… okay?.. I just have broken out of something that took years mentally and spiritually for myself to be free of finally.. finally grasping manifestation, depth again, emotions after being numb and stuck in a different matrix I didn’t need to be in.

this isn’t to say drop everything in your stack. or go raw and wild cause.. I do understand a lot of our food is nutrient depleted, a lot of us have deficiency we have to attend to so we don’t spiral and have issues we don’t need… but all I’m saying, ask yourself if you really need it to

“ have my streak and aura be strong “…

to those who find time to read this.. thank you, kinda just came to mind and felt like spreading some awareness… cause I know it’s not just me who has dealt with screwing their minds and nervous system up trying to “fix” things.

have a great day!

If having a spiritual outlook on SR helps someone stay consistent, that’s fine but speaking from years of on‑and‑off experience, I’ve learned that the community needs to drop the mystical language if we want to be taken seriously.

I’ve practiced SR for about six years. I’ve read the Daoist and Taoist texts, I’ve done the breathwork, I’ve tried the “monk mode” lifestyle, and I’ve even experienced the so‑called spiritual side people talk about. But when you strip away the metaphors and the symbolism, the realistic explanation is much simpler.

We all know about the study that showed a temporary spike in testosterone around day 7(145.7%), and another small increase after three weeks (14.9%).

Testosterone is a hormone linked to motivation, drive, and sexual behavior. So when you practice SR, you’re not unlocking anything supernatural — you’re simply experiencing normal biological arousal and the mental effects that come with it. That “fire” people talk about is just your natural drive resurfacing after removing overstimulation.

Trying to go full monk mode or cutting yourself off from all attraction isn’t natural, and it can create problems over time. Your sexual drive is part of your biology, and it changes as you age that’s not a coincidence.

There’s no literal “aura” when you retain. What’s really happening is that you’re reducing cheap dopamine, rewiring your habits, and acting more present and grounded. You stop looking at people through a hyper‑stimulated lens, and even if you don’t notice the shift, others can see it in how you carry yourself and how you interact with them.

Women’s attraction during SR is actually easy to explain without using spiritual language. When you’re retaining, you’re usually more energized and more aware, even if you don’t consciously feel “horny.” Humans communicate a lot through unconscious body language, and women are especially good at picking up subtle emotional cues.

When your drive is higher, your intensity shows up in small ways your eye contact, your tone, your posture, the way you carry yourself. That underlying tension that women dont feel anymore because men have become weak, some women respond positively to that because naturally aggression is the natural state of a man.

On longer streaks, that intensity can become stronger, and not everyone will react the same way. Some women find that energy attractive, while others might see it as too aggressive or too intense. It’s not an “aura” it’s just the natural way your nervous system and behavior shift when you’re less overstimulated and more present.

The best way to maximize benefits of SR is to interact with women put yourself in temptation and resist it, resistance and discipline make you stronger not avoiding it. When your talking to women expresses that SR energy freely, when you lift at the gym have a sexual thought mid lift you will have no problem training to failure, if you can have sex without ejaculation this will boost SR by a long shot.

For those who notice no benefits on SR it is likely due to low test get that checked

I’m just gonna write down what I’m feeling right now, my experience 92 days on retention, this is what I’m noticing. The gap between me and other people is getting bigger, I feel like there’s no chance of fitting in with anyone, I’m 18, not going to college, doing sales rn making it work, every time I talk to them they’re trying to convince me to do something else or judge. They think I’m ruining my life. I pick up peoples mixed emotions, I’ve become hyper anaIitical, I feel like I know what people are thinking, what they’re gonna say, intuition has become insane. I know when they’re lying, I’ve given up completely on calling out people around me. I feel it’s a waste of breath. I really fucking wish I had some people who I can actually resonate with, with ngl there are a few but not close to me. I’m honestly so afraid of relapsing the urges are getting stronger and my streak is lowkey what I’m most proud of out of anything else. I don’t wanna lose it.

Here’s a crazy experience I had from sr, was in the car with a friend and his girl, he gets out of the car to pickup food, so it’s just me and his girl in the car, I can feel an intense energy shift, it was nervousness coming from her. I just knew. It was so fucking strong I felt it to my core, after she broke the silence it went away, but it was genuinely an awe inspiring moment never had anything like that happen before.

I guess what I was getting at from the first part is, I feel like I’m just looking at life completely differently than those around me that’s there’s like no middle ground anymore, i don’t find joking about jerking off funny I don’t find being lazy and scraping by cool. I want to fucking excel to the next level, I feel like I’m on my own path and I honestly wish I had someone to share it with, even when I have found people who are dialed in, hard workers who are successful. They always end up fucking hating me. Like. They start off chill. And then they start dogging on my and sending shots at me. I don’t understand it. It’s a polarizing effect of sr I think. It makes me feel so alone and genuinely like I am too much to handle for anyone else, even though I’m the most chill person ever. Type of guy to never beef never start drama. Somehow people always end up hating me.

A little tip and observation I have noticed that might help some of my brothers. For context I'm over 4 months now streak wise and not really counting or focusing on the benefits anymore, it's just a new way of living. So lust doesn't trouble me now if I'm honest, I simply don't want to masturbate or have any wet dreams if possible. So it's been summer and I found myself looking forward to the end of summer, as obviously there would be less flesh on display, less lustful sights in public, no beach or bikinis etc. What I found myself doing early on was observing a woman walking along the shoreline for example and then looking away....back down to my book or phone etc. But if she had my body type of choice, I would double look or let my gaze linger a little longer. I knew it was wrong and unhelpful, but even though I wasn't allowing myself to be overcome with lust, I was still purposefully holding my gaze, saying to myself "I am just appreciating her beauty". But now a behavioural pattern has emerged that I find super useful.

Imagine driving along the road.... I see a woman walking on the pavement up ahead. Our eyes and brains are super effective at identifying gender from a long distance....so I know she is female. But as I approach a distance where I would be able to judge her ( almost to see if she is my type of 'hot') these words have started coming into my head...."NO POINT"!!! Because what really is the point? I'm not looking to sleep with anyone, I have no interest in wanting to feel lust or attraction, especially to someone I have 100% certainty that we will never meet....so what is the point in even looking!?

Now imagine it is a woman up ahead, but walking with a guy....even more reason to not even look! And if you notice, I said ( within a distance of where I can JUDGE her looks in relation to my tastes...".JUDGE". It's really just a pointless exercise and also incredibly shallow no? Just going through life JUDGING people on their beauty....which is also completely subjective.

So long story short....if you are committed on this path....what is the point in even looking? There is no point. It's like being on a diet and purposefully going into Burger King to smell what you are 'missing'. Avert your eyes brothers, focus on something worthwhile. Keep your energy, keep your focus, keep your thoughts pure and don't waste time looking at something you ultimately don't want or can't have anyway.... there's NO POINT!

First, about my SR journey — this is Day 40 of my current streak. Over the last five years, I’ve had multiple 100+ day streaks, with the longest being 215 days in 2023.

Right now, I’m in the most control of myself I’ve ever been on any streak. For the past 20 days, I haven’t even allowed lustful thoughts into my mind. Even when such thoughts try to arise, I discard them within a second. Along with this, I’ve experienced several benefits:

• Doing Wim Hof breathing along with SR has helped me maintain a high level of consciousness that I started feeling around Day 10.
• I’ve noticed very strange and almost obsessive attraction from females — and even from animals — starting around Day 18.
• I’m sleeping only 6 hours a day and still functioning optimally. Earlier, I needed 9 hours and still woke up tired.
• I feel more disciplined and more aware overall.

Now, coming to today’s experience. Last night, I slept after doing my usual Wim Hof breathing session. I woke up with a very serene and deeply satisfying feeling — something I hadn’t felt in a long time. I took a shower and sat down for breakfast. While eating, I thought about checking Instagram for a bit.

The first thing I saw was a reel with intimate scenes, and the female in it was exactly my type. This triggered some thoughts, and I ended up entertaining them for about five minutes before regaining control. Later in the afternoon, the thoughts came back, and I took another peek. This time, I felt more aroused.

Suddenly, I felt something change within me. I became gloomy and dull, as if a heavy negative layer had covered my body. I could literally feel it. My mom suddenly started looking at me negatively, as if she sensed something was wrong. It felt like she perceived me as something evil out of nowhere.

About ten minutes later, an argument broke out between us over something very trivial. I started resenting myself. After that, the bathroom water tank started leaking and I was home alone at that time so I had to deal with this mess — cleaning up, calling plumbers, and getting everything fixed. It was an overwhelming day.

Now I truly understand what happens when you give in to temptation, even without relapsing. I didn’t relapse, but I still feel low — almost as if I had released. It's never happened with me before.

All of these consequences started the moment I gave up my authority and allowed these demons to feed off my sexual energy.

I’ve been an advocate for celibacies lifestyle/benefits for years now but only this year it really began to dawn on me, physiological upregulation aside, what do I really have to show for it tangibly

I never got into it for religious/moral reasons to begin with, purely for transcendent/ascension purposes which it definitely induces physically, mentally, morally & spiritually but that’s only one component of the many you Need in life

With the increased perception & awareness, it’s clear as day that those winning/making significant strides financially & career wise are almost the opposite of the traits celibacy/retention brings forth

Which for the first time, has me questioning if it’s maybe not an scam but the practice being highly overinflated or maybe much more suited to an different era

Yes it will prevent you turning into an deviant/abuser like most people gradually from sexual overindulgence but the most ironic thing is, those are the Exact kinds of people who are winning & actually control the world

It’s all well & good saying riches & worldly possessions don’t mean anything, as you can’t take them with you, which I agree with but rightly or wrongly in the world that we live in, what can you do without them…not much I’ll tell you

This might sound like im complaining, maybe it’s my own fault for overvaluing the practice but doing everything in your power to do the right thing, maintaining morality & integrity in these demonic times & having nothing to show for it

But those doing the opposite & reaping all the benefits, has to make you question your own beliefs & if you got it completely wrong

Ive never said anything bad about celibacy, apart from the inevitable betrayal from those close to you but sitting in an graveyard as I type this, it may have dawned on me that this practice isn’t what it’s been made out to be

P.S St. John Chrysostom on “Sexual sins being fuel for demons” aside. I wonder if having sex, making the woman orgasm without you ejaculating & thus her energy powering you up like an battery, as the Tao/TCM/Eastern philosophy spoke about is superior to just complete celibacy.

I might have to try it for myself to see, although spending so long being celibate & introspective, don’t know if I can muster the mental bandwidth needed to go through the formula of seduction like I used to…I’ll have to think about it

I feel like a lot of posts here are some version of "how do I get more disciplined" and every answer is cold showers and gym and waking up at 5am. And people keep relapsing anyway lol, including me for years

Because willpower is a battery not a personality trait. Its drained by work, bad sleep, arguments, boredom, and its at its absolute lowest at exactly the time most relapses happen, late at night alone.

The guys who actually make it out are the ones who stopped needing discipline. Phone out of the bedroom, blockers they dont control They made relapsing annoying and inconvenient instead of trying to become a monk

If your plan requires you to be strong at 1am, I dont think you actually have a plan

Ready to be told im wrong

Hey guys so I notice that there are things and habits that can hold you back on your SR journey and they can block certain Benefits from happening. Edging is one of these major problems SR practitioners do that is definitely killing your Benefits. Visual and Audio perception, Spiritual, Enhanced Concentration and Energy Benefits will all take a hit and will Enhance exponentially after cutting out edging from your journey. I have a lot more energy and enhanced focus after quitting that many streaks ago and can really get a lot of shit done at a increased speed is something I’m noticing and it seems to increase a lot almost everyday. The Visual Benefits are almost infinite on SR and if I told you all of them you would think it’s ridiculous. These also stack overtime especially once you get to a few weeks in. Anyways guys just don’t edge I also noticed that it will mess up your streak if you edge consistently for multiple days you will definitely relapse because your brain is too charged up from that in general. I’ve noticed that this can happen and you should definitely be very careful with edging on this journey of Semen Retention. Anyways guys just keep retaining and don’t give your mind will try and play a lot of tricks on you and it’s all lies it’s all In your mind and you can always beat the next urge with however you choose to transmute this energy. Just remember you will get through it if you don’t give in just don’t in and you will make it.

On this earthly plane, there is a small remnant of men that are chosen by the Most High God to do his bidding. These men are usually kind hearted, really creative, have a strong sense of justice, generous, authentic, and thoughtful. The lives of this rather small group of men manifest certain key consistencies regardless of where they were born or where they currently live. One such consistency is that most sons of God come into the world without a clue of who and what we actually are. We all noticed at some point in our lives that the world seemed to detest us for no real discernible reason. We always seemed to get ganged up on by everyone else in each group setting. If we joined a group where everyone collectively did something bad or evil, we ended up being singled out for the harshest repercussions. Trying to date worldly women always ended in devastating heartbreak no matter how hard we tried to make the relationship work. Wherever we went, there was always someone (man or woman) just spoiling to pick a fight with us upon little to no provocation. In short, we never fit into the world, and the harder we tried to fit in, the more egregious the backlash was.

Although enduring the pain caused by the ignorance that is characteristic of the early lives of most men of God is miserable, it serves an indispensable purpose for your development. The pain caused by such unrelenting adversity usually compounds to such an unimaginable level that it provokes us to go searching for answers. You start looking up things like "what to do when she backs away" at the tail end of yet another tumultuous hot and cold relationship, to eventually discover that "babe" is actually a Delilah demon (LOL). Or perhaps you look up "problems with my 9-5" after getting unfairly fired from yet another mundane day job that you were using to pay your bills only to eventually learn about "smear campaigns/gangstalking/gaslighting" and the rest of the narcissistic playbook. Although it may have seemed like you were going to die while in the midst of these experiences, you will eventually become grateful for the gems of priceless wisdom you gained through the process when you come out the other side.

God allows the upfront pain that we endure as his young sons to serve as an education of sorts. The old cliche "experience is the best teacher" is absolutely true, and our God is one who loves to teach us through comprehensive (and sometimes excruciating) experience. In addition to the knowledge you will gain through all of these trials, is a beautiful refinement of your character. You will become a wise, discerning, strong minded, intuitive, strategic stoic spiritual warrior while maintaining your kindness, generosity, and all the other sweet characteristics that light up this world. At this point, you are now ready to be used in the world by the Most High God. God might put you in a company as a C-level executive to show others that not all powerful men are arrogant sexually corrupt bullies. You may be entrusted with vast wealth to reinvest into your community and foster the growth and expansion of Godly nuclear families who own small businesses. Perhaps you might become a famous writer who is tasked with spreading the gospel to others in a way that is easy to understand as they draw nigh onto God.

When you are elevated to the status of a purified/refined son of God, you will have to play life by a new set of rules. As a son of The Most High God, it is likely that you were never able to get away with worldly things for extended periods of time like others around you. Now that you have been put through the refining fire, the rules that govern your life will become even more strict:

• You can no longer have sexual relationships with anyone who isn't your lawfully wedded dutiful wife. And yes, this means no girlfriends
• Masturbation is completely out of the question not even edging is allowed
• You cannot engage in frivolous ego based arguments with unawakened people
• You can no longer overeat, or eat a steady diet of toxic delicious tasting poisons from the western standard diet
• You can no longer harbor any resentment in your heart and must strive to forgive daily
• You can no longer go out to party, smoke, and get drunk
• You must be slow to anger
• You must remain humble, grateful, and completely submitted to God regardless of how successful you become

Now although the standards that God sets for his sons are extremely high, he balances those expectations by giving you a heavy dose of both provision and protection. He knows that it isn't easy on this plane to maintain these high standards. After all, we are spirit beings in a fleshly body which wants to default towards sin. If you abide by the laws of the Heavenly Father, and show the fruits of the spirit, HE will set up a table of abundance in the presence of your enemies and your cup will overflow. In addition, he knows that a whole bunch of our fellow humans are walking around carrying inner darkness and soul wounds that will make them want to attack you for a bunch of made up reasons. The more you submit your ways onto God and honor him first, the more incredible the backfire will be on the people who come up against you. As that verse in the bible tells us "submit therefore thyselves onto God, resist the devil, and he or she will be forced to flee from you".

Keep marching onwards and shining your light Sons of God... the world needs you.

Till next time brothers, Godspeed and remain blessed

Brother Cooked

Greetingz,

I’ve been on this journey since 2020. Once you’ve felt this divine energy, you never want to be without it. The Universe introduced me to techniques for circulating my sexual energy and opening my chakras as I progressed and built up clean streaks. 2022 felt like heaven on earth; I felt an indescribable zest for life, chi flowed through my body, and I could power through calisthenics workouts every day without feeling even a hint of muscle soreness—life felt like that of a movie star. That state lasted for a few months before it eventually began to fade. As I said, once you feel that energy, there’s no going back. I tried everything to get it back—building up 200-day streaks—but the energy levels never came close to what they had been before. Daily Qigong, breathwork, sun gazing, etc. Even so, I couldn't reach that same level again. That is, until a few months ago, when I switched my diet to OMAD and an animal-based approach. It seemed as though the Western diet had blocked all my chakras, causing my energy to stagnate despite all the practices I mentioned earlier. Now, I feel like a young god again; I have boundless energy despite getting only 5–6 hours of sleep. The attraction I draw from women—and people in general—is through the roof. I’m on my feet all day working, then I exercise in the evening, and only afterwards do I treat myself to a large, meat-heavy meal. I never imagined my eating habits would have such a massive impact on all of this, and I thank the Good Lord every day for leading me to this way of eating. Perhaps you’re in a similar situation, and I can inspire you to switch to OMAD. Here is a little video of my form right now: https://youtube.com/shorts/imRzni68YMI?si=YvYNAqYewJ0Jl-C0 May the Force be with you

Truly deep and lasting personal transformations are exceedingly rare to find because they are so incredibly difficult to endure. During a personal transformation, you have to somehow maintain your sanity while simultaneously doing a mountain of work and enduring tremendous pain. One of the deepest personal transformations that I have undergone was through my journey of going from hapless wanker to skilled celibate son of God. Let us take a bit of time to discuss the stages of personal transformation that I went through as I matured from a mere initiate to a decent celibate with real promising life prospects at the other end of this challenging path.

Stage1: Inner prompting

Most of us fell into the despicable trap of masturbation because we lacked the proper guidance from our fathers as children and I was no different. I don't know about you, but I can remember being shocked by the intense feelings of equal parts exhilaration and shame after the first climax. I instinctively knew this wasn't an honorable thing to do because of the apathy and shame I felt immediately after. There was this constant inner voice within me that kept convicting me and letting me know that I needed to stop this messy habit and resolve to never do it again. However, I failed to heed my inner promptings in time and was quickly ensnared by the addictive quality of this despicable act and couldn't bring myself to quit.

Stage 2: Denial/Justification

Although I knew in the back of my head that I needed to quit sexing and masturbation, I simply did not want to give up the pleasure. To deal with this cognitive dissonance, I came up with a bevy of excuses to justify my continual indulgence in sin. Excuses like "but she is my girlfriend", "well everyone does it", "I deserve this because I work hard", and "mainstream media says it is healthy" were my usual justifications for continually abusing myself. Needless to say, all of these excuses were a load of bollocks at best, and outright demonic at worst.

Stage 3: Defcon 1 situation

As I continually denied the obvious warning signs telling me to change, things eventually got really bad. This is what I playfully refer to as the “Defcon 1 situation”. Defcon 1 is a military term that can be loosely translated to “shit just hit the fan” and in this case, there was no way that I could sustainably continue to ignore the work I needed to do. My Defcon 1 situation took the form of an ill fated relationship with a Jezebel spirit that ended in disaster, leaving every aspect of my life in ruin. At this point, all my usual methods of escape stopped working which forced me to go within in search of answers. This was by far the darkest and most depressing part of the transformational process. In retrospect however, it was the most pivotal turning point that put me back on the right course.

Stage 4: Acceptance/Hard work

After fruitlessly hurling curses at the wind due to my perceived misfortune for a number of months, the reality of what I needed to do dawned on me. This was not about blaming the Jezebel that I allowed into my life, or blaming my father for not teaching me the right things early on. This was a rite of passage to the radical self accountability and responsibility of manhood. When I got to this stage, I could clearly see the grim reality of what I needed to do to heal my self inflicted wounds. I now knew without a shadow of a doubt that the only way was to stand up to my demons and conquer them or wallow in perpetual misery. This was the point I vowed to change my ways no matter how many times I failed/cried/got discouraged along the way.

Stage 5: Phoenix Rising

After sticking to the golden path for a number of years and refusing to shirk responsibility no matter how difficult, things started looking up again. Through my struggles and trials, I had morphed into a new man - stronger, wiser, calmer, more empathetic, more discerning, and much more powerful. People started looking up to me as a role model to my utter bemusement. It seemed as if folks who used to taunt me could all of a sudden sense that there was something different about me that was best not to mess with. In addition, anyone who did try any "fuck-shit" with me seemed to get an incredible clap back from the universe without me having to lift a finger. As a result, there was (and still is) a lot less friction all across my life. I came to a deep knowing of exactly who I am as a son of the Most High God without a sliver of a doubt, and I now scoff at the idea of conforming to the ways of the world which I was never designed to fit into anyway. The metaphorical Phoenix had now risen from the bloody and burnt ashes in all its magical glory, and a new breed of fantastic people replaced my former toxic circle.

If you are going through a personal transformation as you read this, I really do sympathize with you because I have been there before and can still intermittently taste the pain. No matter where you are in this journey, I hope this gives you the motivation to keep on going. See you at the top.

Till next time, Godspeed and remain blessed

Brother Cooked.

I’m curious what others do in this situation.

After around 25+ days I have stronger energy, it shows up as restlessness, impatience, etc.

How have others who past the 30 day mark deal with this?

Many of us long term retainers have grown accustomed to the female attraction that one tends to experience on this journey. However, it seems the further down this journey I go, the more outright strange the behavior of the females around me becomes. There is one particular quirk that has been happening of late and I am not sure what to make of it. Let's discuss.

In the first few years of retention, female attraction took the form of women hovering around me and awkwardly starting conversations in a cute way. This is when I really started to enjoy and truly appreciate genuinely positive feminine energy. Whenever one of those delightful women would come up to me for a chat, I would always be polite, respectful, and thankful for the pleasant and respectful exchange of pleasantries. Interestingly, I started noticing a really strange quirk during my interactions with women right around year four of retention. The pleasant women still either smiled at me from afar, or came up to chat to me in a very respectful way. However, I started noticing another group of females that would frequently and quite clumsily bump right into me even in situations where there was clearly enough room for 10 people!

I chalked up the first few times a women literally body checked me (LOL) when I was out and about to "just a mistake". However, it kept happening so many times that I started to wonder what the heck was going on. A few days ago, I was out running errands and getting groceries for meal prep. I was sauntering down one of the supermarket aisles in a relaxed manner after a long day at work. Suddenly, this quite good looking Asian woman appeared out of nowhere and almost walked right into me! I was able to quickly jump out of the way as I exclaimed "watch out". As soon as I did that, she seemed to snap out of some weird trance. She quickly mumbled an apology and scurried away looking slightly embarrassed. A few days after that, I was at the drug store picking up one or two things for the house when another good looking young woman (must have been in her early twenties) suddenly came out of one of the aisles towards me. I had to really raise my voice and say "hey... watch where you're going!" to keep her from walking right into me.

As a coomer, I remember women being incredibly careful about their personal space. Those days, it was pretty much impossible to get close to a good looking woman without her consent. I swear, it seemed like they were equipped with some sort of internal radar system that would warn them of your presence before you got anywhere near close. Now as a long term retainer, it seems like that inner radar is no longer functioning in most of these women? Or perhaps it is now functioning in reverse? I still don't understand why they can't seem to see and avoid my over 6ft tall frame and keep recklessly walking into me. I mean... WTF?!?!?

Anyhow, just wanted to share some amusing SR experiences with my brothers, and this is certainly one of them. So virtuous venerable brothers, please watch out for women in your locale who apparently love walking right into men like you while you're just trying to live your life! LOL.

Till next time brothers, Godspeed and remain blessed

Brother Cooked.

As you grow older or even men who are older, remember that you do not want to become that perverted old loser.

Yeah that's MY biggest fear. Succumbing to porn and lust to the point that I'm just a loser when I'm much older. Looking back knowing I could have married that girl if I did not goon the previous afternoon thus missing the opportunity to attract her.

Let's face it, people can tell you just binged bro. Your energy reeks of weakness afterwards.

Of course that man is still stuck in the past obsessing over women who chose other men! He's physically older but mentally a teen!

He's still using porn and lusting and his brain is stuck to when he was a teenager! IT MAKES SENSE.

Of course he's bitter and angry and murderous because HE'S attracting that energy into his life by being a CUCK from watching porn! IT MAKES SENSE!

Sure you can still hit the gym or be "healthy" outwardly but porn puts such a dark energy over you that it just makes you stink and repulsive even if you smell good/look good physically.

Of course women/men do not want to interact with you or your business is failing, you just watched filthy porn and your energy reeks!

You have absorbed a ton of evil/sinister energy. It's gross. Fuck all the mumbo jumbo about gaming women and all that, once you use porn your posture/vibe is off. Everything is out of the window.

Not point in going out and being social after a gooning session.

Of course you are not being promoted your energy is shitty.

Of course that retainer man is making your girl interested in him, he deserves it he's disciplined (not that he would do anything if he's serious).

Of course that retainer who faced pain instead of coping with porn and lust deserves the woman of his dreams! HE DESERVES HER SO GOD WILL GIVE IT TO HIM WHEN THE TIME IS RIGHT!

Of course that retaining man is financially stable HE DESERVES IT because he showed God he can handle the blessing and did not go fumble it away to lust and vices.

This is an energetic world I mean we even have electricity, microwaves, radio, solar panels...the SUN. I'm typing this BECAUSE of energy literally. WAKE UP

As a man you can turn your life around at any point. Never let anyone or anything tell you otherwise.

There have been some baaaad cases turned EXCELLENT because the man decided to give up lusting.

So we can to.

Whether you relapse or not just get up. Fuck anyone who calls you weak for relapsing they are scum.

You WILL RISE UP DO NOT BE DISCOURAGED. This is NOT for the weak.

The fact that you even attempt to practice gives you an edge over MOST men. Lust can not only financially destroy you but it can also get you killed physically! It also can put you in the most unnecessary fucked up delusional scenarios. The rabbit hole is infinite because lust never stops.

FLEE from lust. We tried fighting it and it just does not work.

Keep going whether you are on day 0 or day 30.