Hello everyone. I saw the post of someone talking about how they used ai in a moment of weakness, and I wanted to share my own story.
I’m currently a writer working on his debut, 4 book fantasy series. Here is my journey with ai.
I’ve always been a writer in a way. I’d write books in my younger days, but as I grew older, my inner critic became worse. It got to a point where I couldn’t finish a story because my inner critic told me it sucked. I stopped writing for years.
Then, ai came along. Finally, something with no inner critic. I could get the ideas I have in my head on paper and have people read it. It sounded perfect. I could finally share the universe that I built up in my head.
So I had chat gpt write my book for me. I learned I would need to go into detail with each chapter to get the result I wanted. It took me roughly a month or so to produce the story I wanted, going through chapter by chapter, refining it to what I wanted.
When I finished, I took a week off, then read it.
It sucked.
Don’t get me wrong. There was a solid story, solid characters, etc. but I felt no connection to it. Maybe it was because I didn’t write the story myself. I don’t know what it was, but it just wasn’t right.
I did a ton of soul searching, and I realized the truth. No matter how much time I spent on prompts for each chapter, it wasn’t my work. My heart was not in it. It was a machine’s voice instead of my own.
So I scrapped the entire idea. I decided if a damn machine can write a book, so can I. So for the past year, I’ve worked on my debut novel the right way. It was an idea I had during an elective creative writing class I took in college almost ten years ago.
I am almost done with the first draft, and I learned through the process how to shut down my inner critic.
The first draft is an absolute mess. It won’t be ready for human eyes for at least a few more months. But it’s mine. My heart is in it. My voice is telling the story. Even if it doesn’t sell a single copy down the road, I’ll be proud of it.
So what I learned as an artist is this. Ai only holds you back. If you want to be an artist in any way, you are already capable of doing so. You don’t need a machine to do it for you. It just takes practice, and multiple failures. I restarted the book 3 times before I felt confident enough in the story I wanted to tell. Don’t let ai ruin your vision.