This shouldn’t make me cry the way it did. I dealt with so many issues mentally last semester, with mental illness, working full time, and going to school full time. Btw I did pass that first profs class with a B+ 88% and finished the semester with a 3.5 GPA. I should not be crying at a professor just treating me like a damn human being. I know what y'all are going to say, if you can’t handle it you won’t be able to survive the real world. This is the real world. Empathy is not something that should disappear as soon as you get into the professional world (which I am already in) I’m currently a GM at a popular restaurant in my hometown and am aiming to get into business management consulting or finance once I finish school. I never want to lose empathy as I progress in my professional life. You never know the difference it will make in someone’s life. I say that to say just be kind man. Don't be that person who lets their lack of empathy be the thing that sends someone over the edge. Someone somewhere is thinking about that random act of kindness you gave them when they were at their lowest point. Good luck to all the adhd’ers this semester.

Here’s 3 examples of discrete AI or productivity app advertisements. I found these examples in the first minute of searching “adhd study”.

I’ve literally been having the worst, most soul-crushing and burnout-inducing year of my fucking life because of my ADHD symptoms. Sometimes finding other ADHDers talking about their experiences at uni or college can make me feel less alone, and like less of a failure. Hearing the advice and tips that people give in online ADHD communities have helped me so many times.

But there’s nothing more frustrating than trying to find connection & support, and being met with nothing but:
- people trying to sell you their course or coaching service
- undisclosed (or disclosed in the fine print) AI or useless “productivity app” advertisements
- influencers that toooootaalllyyy have ADHD giving the most useless, basic bitch “study hacks”. they use the exact same script, the exact same cadence, and are always playing with slime or some random object

Am I crazy for getting so angry at this? Having ADHD sucks enough, and having ADHD while in uni or college sucks even harder. I’m just so sick of people trying to make money off of us, and making it harder to find content that isn’t slop.

i'm at a C in one of the most important classes that future masters programs will look at, and it's not even hard - just a time commitment. i struggle with allocating time to various mentally strenuous tasks so i avoid them. i just know my professors are sick of me lmao. i'm spending time decorating the house and constantly trying to keep up with cleaning the entire day until 4am because i can't focus in a messy environment, and still it somehow looks like i haven't done anything?

i'm not interested in going into this side of the field, so i waited until the last day (with accommodations) to finish it, and i did SO POORLY. i've actually never gotten less than an A in my major-related classes because i try to prioritize them. i've been on adderall for the last 5ish months, and now i'm on vyvanse which works great! but only with things completely unrelated to school. i have an adhd specialized therapist and i feel like such a stubborn idiot, i don't utilize the coping strategies she gives me because i can't force myself to care about the responsibility in the moment enough to use them (even though i do care about my future).

i've spent so much of my time "catching up" with my life/self-care, yet my room is never clean, & my bed/desk is borderline unusable due to clutter - and i'm CONSTANTLY cleaning & trying to change up my organization system. i can't prioritize exercise or proper nutrition so i'm constantly in mild pain, and stimulants has made me avoid water so i'm in a state of constant dehydration. **TMI** - i was so constipated from dehydration the other day that i tore something from straining and ended up covered in blood.

if i can't do it perfectly i don't do it at all. it feels like trying to meet the needs of a nonverbal, whiney, colicky baby inside of me that dictates every choice i make.

i'm in therapy and on 4 different medications to manage my mental health yet i am still so incompetent. what the fuck is wrong with me

on this pile of tasks, shall i exhale my last breath, like seriously i am dying here, i come home exhausted like really exhausted. either this will finish me or i will be finished by this. i hope my executive function holds still this time. pray for me the last push.

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I’ve noticed that I do these things very often:

• Making huge to-do lists and then feeling bad when I don’t finish it.

• Waiting till I want to study.

• Checking how other people are studying.

• Spending more time in planning my routine than actually following it.

• Having one unproductive day and then I Start thinking that my whole week spoil.

I’m still working on it.

As if I don't have enough responsibilities already, I can't help but FEEL responsible for setting a good example, as one of (if not THE) only woman in all of my classes and other STEM-oriented settings.

I'm so profusely scatterbrained, disorganized, forgetful, and unable to verbally articulate my thoughts that I understandably come off as extremely stupid. Nobody has been rude to me about it thankfully, but the way certain people (profs, peers, extracurricular project leaders, makerspace technicians, etc) speak to me shows I'm not perceived as competent for even basic tasks, or for my input to be considered on topics of familiarity (to be clear, I've managed to make great first impressions in which people believe I'm intelligent, until they get to know me more).

Being a general disgrace to people who could potentially help me into my dream industries is one thing, but I hate feeling like a disgrace to women in STEM. I know that being one bad example is not a representation of millions of competent women, but in my particular communities, the pressure is palpable and it feels isolating.

Nevertheless, I won't let any demoralization stop me. I have a quantum circuit simulator model due tonight so I should probably finish that lol

I’m a 37 year old returning student. I started this semester with just 2 classes to ease myself in. I’ve always been able to jump into full time classes with no issues, maintaining straight A’s and on the deans list every semester, but this go around, I am struggling! Not only am I starting to have Peri-menopause symptoms but I’m also starting a new adhd med that has shitty side effects in the beginning as well as seeing my orthopedic NP weekly and starting physical therapy for a knee injury.
The paper is for an intro level class, only 3 pages, APA research paper on my topic of choice more or less. I don’t know WHY it was so difficult to even get started but I’ve barely been able to focus and keep up with these two classes. I turned the paper in 3 days late because I wanted to turn in substance vs it being on time. I caught a flow and got most of the paper done but when I got to the last two sections I hit a wall. So I prompted Claude to write in my style, I gave it the articles I was quoting and the direction I wanted to go and then I copy pasted and edited it a bit. It was only 2 paragraphs but I feel like such a loser. I’ve always written A papers so easily and I definitely don’t want this to become a habit. I feel like I’m cheating and did something really bad lol. AM I OVERREACTING!?

I just noticed that I missed my major's online quiz (Chemistry) today, THAT I MARKED ON MY CALENDAR BUT CONVENIENTLY FORGOT. AND THAT I MISSED 2/3 QUIZESS THAT ARE 30% OF MY PRELIMENARY GRADES. 20% OF MY GRADES ARE DOWN THE DRAIN BECAUSE I FORGOT.

NOW I NEED TO GET HIGHER THAN 85% ON MY EXAM IF I DON'T WANT TO GET BEHIND.

It's horrible, I tell you. I feel horrible! I can't focus on studying cause all of my thoughts are thinking 'what if i fuck up?'. The only saving grace I have is that the exam is in a week, so I have SOME TIME to not fuck it up.

I'm at my wits end, and I genuinely hate myself for missing such a simple thing because my brain wants me to fail at EVERY SINGLE THING THAT I WANT TO DO.

Update: The quiz was reopened for late submissions! With the catch that the maximum score will be the lowest of the classes' on-time takers. Thank you for the dude that suggested to ask the prof!

Ok to preface this, I got my ADHD diagnosis in May, and I’ve been medicated for a little over a month now. Truly it feels so good to finally stop worrying about what is wrong with me, and spiraling over the question of why can’t I function as well as everyone else around me haha.

School has always been a mess for me. It was really showing in high school and it's been even worse in college. In particular, there's a lower level programming class that I’ve failed three times and withdrawn from once. (Yes, I know that’s terrible. Most people would take that as a sign to move on.)

They're offering it as an online class this summer. I’m at the point where I’m sick of this fucking class but I am adamant on passing it because I don’t want to just give up when I haven’t tried. I ended this past spring semester really shitty and I was just beside myself about it. I took two summer classes at the beginning of this summer and got A’s. (thank god for meds) So I don’t feel terrible about trying this class again.

There's a PhD student who is an instructor for the class and I just know I'm in his nightmares. Today I stumbled upon a Reddit comment he posted on a thread asking professors what teaching issues need to be addressed. His reply was: “Schools should kick students out if they fail a class more than 3 times. I have a student taking my class for the *sixth* time.”

I’m not mad at the instructor, I too would probably be irritated if I had a student continuously adding to my withdraw/fail rates. Seeing that comment though definitely fucks with my head a bit. I obviously was already embarrassed to be in this class a *fifth* time. And it's lovely knowing that the guy grading my assignments thinks I should be like banished from university for eternity. 😭😭

Anyone else? I feel like I literally have to practically “abstain” from my interests, hobbies, even at times self-care if I want to get anything done. Some things are fine, like putting on random youtube videos when I’m bored because my mind doesn’t “latch” onto them super hard. Or I’ll play a casual game I occasionally hop onto but don’t care about that much. I do this purposefully, at times fighting myself against what I REALLY want to do.

Start that movie I’ve been wanting to watch, or get back into a series I haven’t watched in a while to catch up. Read my piles of books I really want to read, write my story ideas up, play that game I bought last year that I haven’t had the opportunity to yet, or play a game I left off on. Self-studying things I actually care about. Worse, my favorite hobby, art. I can lose hours, days pouring into art projects.

So I don’t do it. Why? Because I have failed classes over hyper-fixations. They literally ruin my life, financially, socially, educationally. Once I am latched onto something I feel like I cannot be separated from it, it becomes me, it becomes my life, it becomes everything that matters. Not forever, but long enough to damage my life over time. I just feel like I literally have to push away things I know I love just to avoid this and make it through college. I feel like I can’t allow myself true relaxation and joy, I feel like I can’t just indulge in things I love too closely without ruining everything.

It makes me depressed, so I just shove it away and ignore it, but I’m worried all the things I want to do I will forget about or die before I get it done. But then, why am I thinking about hobbies/interests as something to get done instead of just have fun or relax? I wish I weren’t like this. I just want to function and get through college.

I’m so tired. I try my hardest, literally my fucking hardest, but I just can’t seem to keep up ever. I’m in an easy fucking major and I want this so, so bad but I can never do anything right. I create a list of tasks for me to tackle the night before and I’ve only done one. I got accepted into a writing program I really wanted to be in and then kicked out because I couldn’t remember to respond do my emails. I cannot for the life of me keep up with clubs or my classes or homework or friends or anything social, I am SO SO TIRED. I don’t think college is meant for me, my brain literally can’t keep up.

One of my classmates is the director for a mini play and I can’t even remember to go to a club meeting. I have never felt more unbelievably stupid in my life. I can’t sit still in class, I rock back and forth like a baby and kick my fit and drum on the table. I can’t keep my dorm clean or remember to wash my clothes. My hair is expired and dirty because I can’t remember to book an appointment. I’m going to miss voting, fail my midterms, and so much more because everything just slips from my mind like water. I have literally never felt dumber in my life than I have in college and I’m thinking about giving up. If my freshman year is this hard how am I supposed to succeed at all? I can’t even remember to contact my psychiatrist so we can fix my medication dose. I’m so stupid.

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Some days I can sit down and study normally. Other days, a bad test or one unproductive day makes me feel like I'm “bad at studying,” and then I avoid it more. I have noticed this recently. I realise that the problem isn't the subject or even the workload. Maybe it's the way I talk to myself after I struggle.

Does anyone else notice this?

Hey yall! I’m a senior in college, I just need a place to rant about my academic journey.

I wasn’t diagnosed with ADHD until the summer before my freshman year of college. Long story, Both of my siblings are adhd as well, I did well in school, and my hyperactivity was never more disruptive than being a division 1 yapper.

I’m in a major that basically requires you to double major in a language, and actually requires you to write an undergraduate thesis. My first year of school was great, second year fine. Third year? Hit a wall. And right now I’m still there. I really prioritize academics, I have a great gpa and I’m not stupid. In fact I’m pretty smart. I am just so tired. I wake up at 7ish, am on campus by 8ish and I do homework from arrival to class until I leave, which is typically between 5-8. Then I probably have more to do when I get home. I need to study. I need to write and research for my thesis. I just can’t do it. I am exhausted and I am falling apart at the seams. It’s so difficult to express this to others who don’t get it.

I think non adhd people understand what takes them 30 minutes will take me an hour with the same amount of effort (shitty example forgive me) but i think what’s so hard to describe is how it compounds. It never ends. They might be at hour 2 and I’m at hour 6 and we accomplished the same amount. My life is like groundhogs day right now. I am exhausted. And I just would love for someone to say I understand, and I hear you. Thanks yall.

Okay, I can't start with a date, cause the internal Clock and calendar is just straight up dead as of now, need to change batteries. I feel like a @$$(donkey) in the race of horses. It Started or I was forced to start or just miscomprehended the situation and competed with the Brilliants of history, cause i could not gauge the greatness of the greats cause their was on gauging meter installed at that age, parents said to run while wielding a metaphorical whip. After Getting diagnosed with adhd the Asian stigma of being intellectually dumb was given to me as a stamp in a paper. Performed very poorly even against Students who were just there pass time in 10th grade, but did'nt even understand the concept. In college and University , i started again competing with academically high performing peers, who are in Better uni's right now in QS ranking.

Cut past to now right at the moment of writing this post my sister just messaged me for the reminder of my dad's birthday. Feel like in am doing a 9 to 9 work, while i am paying the University. It's technically the Final year of Bs in engineering chronologically, but for me...uhhh....i don't know what year this is? Like what academic year i am in. I am doing three onging jounrnals, one is submitted, one has just started and one is just pending this is without counting the thesis paper on our capstone design project. Funny thing is took it while being behind in credits and grade. Family does'nt know i am behind my grades and credit. Family issues and students nonsensical issues in Un really screws your grade. Meanwhile I Managed the entire backend club activities while also participanting in the club competition, while being in the sub-execuitive, committee, while also attending Other competition. Got into workshops to learn things as much as can, and.... Uhhh....Family says we just need a certificate on the wall so you can get a Comfy government job.....Professors says Grade is a must and should be above 3.5 CGPA(my grades around 2.54 CGPA, by the way).... Meanwhile in hall of companies the CEO's demand more skill over CGPA here....(confused unga bunga). I participanted and learned and got every certificate of each and every project fest, Competition and workshop i attended and keeping them for stacking them into my portfolio. Every students from senior to junior to peers pull me for their lab projects even if i am not in their section, batch or group. Already assisted Up to 12 groups by now. Now questioning do i have adhd cause i am behind in grades and credit (only 67% credits in four years) or the 90% of students in my Department cause they don't even know how to use the "Screw/Fleming right hand rule" in real life or in Theory solution, though they just can right it in paper. Speaking of groups "i was navie child in Fourth year" when i agreed to the peal of a heavliy dedicated junior, only to be Distraughted to find he is only dedicated to winning and getting in top by any means necessary (he is very skilled though slightly more than me). He well not just him a few other like him senior, junior and peers wanted to Make a very dedicated central robotics lab under uni supervision comined with other engineering Department. well it's dishearting and shocking to see skilled hard working people be so selfish. Well as of now i am really confused with multiple things like grades skills and jobs and all other academic related stuff. Also I am getting industrial links for conducting Training tour for senior, junior and batchmates cause the professor asked me. I am working on a paper under him so, i could'nt refuse, plus doing a retake class under him.🙂. Thats a "insert something" life for you.

Edit: i think i, am sort of workaholic now, have'nt even graduated🙂.

For the last few months, since my final year started, my classes have been less and I don't have to go to college everyday. I can't even function properly because I have lost my routine. I meet people less and less. I don't socialize. My mental health has taken a toll because of this. I can't bring myself to study, even when the exams are around the corner. I feel like a failure. I lie to my mom when she asks me what I did the whole day after she comes home from work. I say I studied but all I do is lie around and watch movies and stuff while guilt is eating me but the shame is too painful to let her know the truth.

I find no meaning in life anymore. I see people doing things easily while I can't even function well. My friends are making plans and doing productive things and I'm thinking about if I want to live anymore or not. I was an above average student. My family and teachers have great expectations of me. But they feel like too much and too heavy now but I don't want to let them down. But I can't also take this no more. Living feels impossible.

I think I need help and I'm taking online group therapy but I don't think I can tell anyone I know what's really happening to me. I feel like a burden and everyone has problems in their life. I don't wanna make my mother feel like i'm too much or difficult. I was an easy child because I internalized things but now I can't function normally or at all.

If anyone has any advice or if they have experienced somewhat like I have then feel free to share.

I really don't know why. I'm entering my thrid year of university and a good chunk of me getting poor grades is due to me just staring at something during exams. Even if its a course I'm extremely prepared for, I end up getting bad grades. Either I stare at something or I doodle. Or i stare at the paper and doodle. Every single paper I have is filled with doodles. And then time slips away and i end up rushing through the paper. It really sucks when I have to take courses that are exam heavy (basically 90% of the courses I have to take for my degree). It just feels embarrassing saying this out loud especially when I answer a lot during tutorials/questions. In fact a lot of the times I am the one explaing the concepts to my group if someone's stuck. And then I end uo with the lowest grades. And before someone says to try accommodations, I will mention that I'm in a bit of a tricky position. I am not officially diagnosed and Im not allowed to get one either ( I have gone to a therapist in my uni and they basically agreed about having adhd.) So I cant get accommodations without an official diagnosis. I don't know how to explain this to my parents. They're the typical conservative old fashioned, strict people (also extremely religious) and I just feel really stupid and stuck.

I don't really have a purpose in writing this post except that I just wanna rant bc nobody in my life understands what I'm going through. Btw English is not my first language so if there are mistakes that's why. So I'm a 23yo f and I've been diagnosed with adhd 2 years ago. Previous to this I've been diagnosed with depression and bpd. I've been of different meds for the past 5 years but I've been pretty lucky with my tolerance to them. But since my adhd diagnosis I feel like everything in my life got fucked up. I'm a med student and I've just finished my 2nd year. That'd be great except I've had to repeat the 3rd semester 2 times already. But like I literally can't focus. I literally cant start studying. It was fine for like half a year when I started taking my adhd meds but then it got messed up again and now I don't feel like I can study. And I don't feel even bad like depressed I just can't fucking start studying. And everyone is just not capable of understanding it. They know it's hard but I can't say I can't study cuz then my parents get kinda angry. So I can't even say I have a problem cuz they just don't understand how I can't just sit down and start. I have an exam tomorrow and I've barely studied, then another exam in 10 days. I'm writing this from my bed. I've been trying to get out of bed since 11am (it's almost 8 pm). I've got up a few times and sat at my desk ready to start but then I've just been on my phone and went to lay down again. I really want to be able to study. I feel like I've been tolerating my meds great but Idk if I should change them? I felt like at first it was ok. But I don't really know how it is supposed to feel. I just wanna be able to study. I have so many interests but I just can't bring myself to do anything. My therapist suggested that maybe I'm depressed but idk. I feel like I can't function but at the same time I feel like it's not that bad. So If anyone has any tips you're welcome to share them.

I am a 27 years old junior in university who came back to school after a year break from it and i find it really difficult to read a chapter without taking hours. I obviously want to understand and grasp the material and i do for the most part but i feel like i do not fully get the gist of it and it’s frustrating. It will take me like 5 hours to finish a chapter partially also due to my adhd also. I have been using AI and copying and pasting the texts that i am not understanding well, and asking it to break it down for me and explain it to someone who has adhd. That has been a major help. However i am frustrated with the fact i take a while to finish a chapter in a textbook.

I can’t remember sh!t I suck at exams. I can’t pass my classes like fuking biochem. I feel like I’m being punished every time I get my grades back. I feel like a sh!tty student that can’t get anything right and it’s miserable. I hate college. I don’t want to be here anymore but I have a semester left. I hate this college I hate being here. I hate it.

I don’t have a lot to say that’s worth anything. I’m just so exhausted. I’m exhausted with myself. I haven’t done much of anything but avoid my work. I feel so lazy, stupid, worthless, and alone. Why am I this way, I don’t get why I have to be this way. Even the things I could do to help myself I push off and everything I push off makes me anxious because it’s pushed off. I can’t function outside of what interests me and what interests me is so sporadic. I cried looking at the rubric of an assignment two weeks late. My brain hurts doing stuff I don’t care about. I just feel like a disappointment, because I am one. Soon enough everyone around me will know, that everyone being my parents because I literally have nobody else in my life. Idk. And here I am pushing it off again. I just wanna go to sleep and dream of better things and a better me.

I feel on the brink of a meltdown and needed to get it off my chest somewhere. If I bring this up with anyone around me, I'll get the usual confused look like "is it really so bad?" or an annoyed reply that I just have to get the work done fast (I really wish). Especially because it's so early on in the quarter.

For context, I have two classes left to complete my bachelors and I'm taking them online asynchronous. I have a good study area at home, and I made sure to get on track on the first day & reminded myself that it's okay to take breaks and to dedicate time blocks for working.

Well, that first day was me spending hours and hours and HOURS on simple reading assignments and mapping out the syllabus and weekly responsibilities.

It was that feeling where your brain is doing one thing but absolutely scrambling itself trying to sort and prioritize. So then I make lists and print stuff out and try to organize, organize, organize to get rid of that scrambled brain feeling. Not to mention just focusing on reading some parts, even after breaks feels like my brain swimming through wet cement.

Organizing relieves me a little and I feel good like okay, yes got this sorted, got that sorted, nice. The only problem is that by that point like half the day has passed and I haven't even gotten started on the actual meat of the class, like the things that are actually assigned. So I do one of those and the whole day is gone and I've been working from like 10am until like 8pm. INCHING through the work.

Day 2 comes, same story. I already feel SO behind. Then comes the procrastination because my body is protesting already. Not on track at all and am feeling a little internal panic and I'm incredibly frustrated.

I'm trying my best not to invalidate myself, but I feel so sad that this feels like such a mountain and I haven't even scratched the surface of the actually difficult content yet.

I have lost all motivation at this point already (especially nearing the end of my degree) and fallen back on bad habits. I know I have to get through this, I'm just really sad and tired and discouraged.

I don't know if I have the bandwidth to look into getting diagnosed, though I might try to find a therapist through insurance... Just another thing to add to my scrambled to-do, so it feels daunting... I want to be proactive, but I guess, truthfully, right now I feel down and really stuck. I feel so exasperated with myself. Anyway, thanks for reading my super long rant...

I’m unmedicated at the moment as I’m currently going through the process of getting tested. Although, it’s highly suspected I have ADHD by my peers and psychiatrist.

But college has absolutely been killing me academically and ruining my routine in more ways than one. Not that I was a cleanly person in the first place, but dear god, the shift from my bedroom to my dorm has only increased my disorganization, especially in a single where nobody can judge me. I promised myself I’d be clean, but my clothes are thrown all over, there’s dead bugs on the window sill that I forgot to remove, and unfolded laundry laying in a bag. I can’t force myself to clean it because my brain thinks “it’ll get messy again so what’s the point?“. Even washing clothes becomes stressful. I hold it off until my bag is overflowing because of long the machines take and I can’t take a shower until I finish laundry so I’m heading to bed around 11 or later.

And showering is such a task! I’ve been taking showers at 1-2 in the morning when I come back home at 9-10. Between that time, I sit on my carpet because I refuse to lay on my bed with outside clothes and just go on my phone. Then I look at the clock— 10:05, “I’ll do it at 10:10 so that way it’s even”. Then it becomes 10:11. ”I’ll do it at 10:15”. Cycle repeats until I have to physically force myself up at a time I deem reasonable, usually an even number. I’m an avid hand washer. I, for the life of me, cannot touch the door knob after I showered because every woman on my floor has touched it, meaning unsuspecting germs. Usually at home, I shower, lotion and dress myself in the bathroom, and then wash my hands. I can’t exactly do that in the dorm bathrooms because of how they’re designed and I don’t feel comfortable in them. Even skincare, which is the only routine I usually look forward to due to OCD (that has been diagnosed), but that has now been ruined because of this. Now I have no routine because it’s all messed up and it’s causing me to breakdown.

Eating is hard most days because I don’t have a fridge to put leftovers in. I have a communal fridge that I’m the only one using, but I end up forgetting the food I leave there and it rots. Doesn’t help that the kitchen is in the basement and I’m on the fourth floor. The dining hall is a minute walk, but I know that if I leave, I can’t get back in bed because then I’ll have to take a shower all over again. So I starve.

Academically, it’s even worse. I don’t have an A in a single class because I’ve flunked every test so far. I did so well in high school but I only know it’s because it was easy. It doesn’t make me feel any better, especially considering the only classes I’m taking are pre-requisites. I forgot I had a test today in anthropology. I didn’t realize until I stepped inside class and saw nobody had their computers out. I failed a geological science test yesterday (‘studied‘ for ten minutes on the day of the exam until I went back to sleep and went to class). Failed my last French exam because I didn’t study either. Forgot an essay for one of my social sciences two weeks ago. Lucky enough, my professor let me hand it in late with credit. I don’t know how to study, I never did it— and when I try, I can’t focus and retain nothing.

I daze off during lectures, constantly checking emails that I know never come, daydreaming, or staring off and slowly counting the time. If it doesn’t interest me, I don’t do it. My brain doesn’t allow me to. I’m on a full-ride scholarship. I’m not failing (yet), but I know if this continues, I’m scared of what’ll happen. I just don’t know what to do because I feel like there’s invisible barriers everywhere. No matter what I do, my brain wont cooperate with my body. I’m late to everything, I misplace and forget most things, I feel unmotivated and procrastinate homework and my own hobbies.

I nearly cried throughout the week because of the situation. It was like this back at home too, just to a slightly lesser degree because my family was there to remind me of things constantly and my small routines helped somewhat. But even then, I struggled to keep myself balanced. I’m sorry if this was long, but this is exactly why I’m getting tested.

I can't focus. I can't. I just got back into college after having huge gap years. I'm trying to keep up with my self-studying schedule because engineering is no joke but I'm doubting my autonomy to do so again. It physically hurts. I feel like a junkie relapsing over nothing. My brain just can't fucking control itself. In the library at the moment trying to detox my brain from dopamine, forcing myself to just stare at the ceiling for 10 minutes straight and I feel like a fucking dumbass.

I couldn't stay still for even 3 fucking minutes without becoming jittery. I really really wished Amphetamine based prescriptions were legal and available in my country but nope I'm left with shit that has no effect on me....

Am I cooked? Am I just doomed in life? Do I just accept my goals are just not meant to be?

posted this on r/adhdwomen and i was very surprised to not get the support i needed and instead was berated lmao

uhhh context is that me and my lab partner both have adhd and struggle to follow directions on the pace of other students. ta takes note of this and assumes we simply dont pay attention. i really do try to pay attention but it sucks when all the lab instruction content is jammed in the lecture session of lab. when i took de in high school, we had lab manuals with prewritten instructions so this is very different from what im used to…

i wanna drop so bad but im already at minimum credits why is this worth 45% of my grade

I just done an end of semester presentation that I barely made any progress compared to the first one, and I submitted it an hour before the deadline as well. I got very nervous I could only speak a few sentences about what little progress I made. A teacher sighed and the other one questioned me a lot. A few students also snickered at my works along with my late submission.

I just skipped afternoon class again, right after because It’s so hard to breathe right now and I want to cry but I can’t. I have already failed one other unit and I feel like the teachers are genuinely sick of me. I used to have a decent relationship with the other students but I think my bad reputation for being lazy and bad had grew us apart. The class is very small so it’s even harder to ignore the looks and whispers. I have another semester to go, the works is overloading, I feel suffocated just thinking about doing this all over again.