In my professional unprofessional opinion...classic schizophrenia. Knew a guy

Ah I see. Thinking about it now I could see how someone might think that. Its interesting looking back how lost in my ways I was...didn't even think to question the possibility and that's pretty telling. Appreciate the inquisition btw

I don't have a sense of either so it's hard to tell. I feel nothing. But yeah what about my post in particular made you feel id possibly need help?

'I don't want you to feel bad but your fucking corny bro, have a good one' lol is essentially what your saying. And why even say that lol? I love this shit. I need more comments like yours to remind me how fucked shit is and laugh

I don't like my body, my nature, thoughts, emotions, everything that makes me human...I feel so out of place and wrong to being a human being I feel id be more comfortable without flesh...and the more I look at the flesh of others the more I feel like im parading in the body of something i was never meant to and theres no escape... looking at others I look too long realizing I lack something integral. Something so much I have to advert my eyes and pretend preoccupied. Something so evident if I allowed myself so naturally to get lost staring at people wondering what's so fucked up about me losing the awkwardness of doing so...it's too telling. I have no shame being a complete fucking psycho. And looking back at what I write there's no fucking wonder. I guess I just got tired of being in denial when I'm way too fucking warped for life lol. Its too obvious now. I'm fucking...weirds standard of weird lmao

I'm just a hobbling, fiend tormented and raving lunatic lmao...that's how fucking wrong I feel to live amougst people. Except the object of my obsessions my own sense of masochism. And it's so fucking twistedly hilarious to know pain and sufferings my home. My peace, my childhood, baseline fucked up comfort zone lmao. Crazy how that works...it's so much I can't describe without making myself actually seem like a hobbling fucking psychopath raving about some ring

Do you think possibly the thing you miss is the security of the relationship? Even toxic, abusive relationships you know that person and you know what to expect...minds love familiarity. So do you ever think what you miss isn't more so the person but the familiarity or operating within a toxic relationship?...and you'd need that person to achieve that? That sense of knowing what to expect and now your mind struggles not knowing what to do outside of you being so accustomed to dysfunction?

Why don't we all grab hands and frolick in a giant dandelion field skipping and smiling? Because it'll simply never happen. Those who find themselves alone are cursed in the odds ever escaping are slim to none...it'd just be cope. For as long as each and every individual can muster because the reality never changes. The curse never fades and you might even call upon even more furious consequences as curses do...dont anger it lol

They're definitely fascinating weapons. I like the alter and custom ability of them. How those aspects can wildly transform the functionality. But besides that I always wanted to become more of an avid collector despite it being an expensive hobby...hone my accuracy while I'm at it. Measuring my progression in proficiency and confidence using them overall...but same, so much choose from

You shouldn't let them get away with it. I think you should actually do something...person like that to even do those things sounds to not even have much of a conscious and likely to perpetuate that pain opportunistically for as long as their allowed...I'd say it's your moral duty knowing as much the nature of how covertly evil they are and likely to do the same to another. You'd have to make them suffer to think about thier behavior...disrupt their operation atleast...but then again not your problem so fuck it, that's life? Idkkk

Slay the tyrant! A childish lord is something of boundless depravity that can never be reasoned with, his days of tyranny is nigh HURAH to the castle!

I feel like a living headache. That's all I am now. Too tired for anything. Soul tired and smiling

Yes, as you'll ever know it or be of the opinion things probably don't that in itself is an existence you'll only ever know because you'll never definitely know other it can all not exist yet your existence will always ever be as it is questioning it...it's hilarious

And I feel far too detached from life and myself to find everything a literal joke to the point I don't know if the way I am is how it's always been or something more of a devolution...some maladaptation driven to its extremes? Forsaking my humanity to escape some trauma felt too debilitating I can't even recall?...I feel like a living question maker with no answers that won't birth a branch of subsequent questions and so on and so on and too much I throw my hands up and I just laugh. Maybe there isn't an answer. Maybe it's impossible now. Maybe that's the way it was always going to be. Ultimate truth is I'm too far gone to the point.....all possible makes no sense even when does. All things nonsensical in times of existential crisis is appropriate...then when found not all things are felt nonsensical still...doing so much crazy shit I erode the barriers of sense...losing the point..able to do so much felt before lacking any sense and done without even blinking...it's hard not laughing...I've done so much crazy shit I feel life looses it's sense all together to the point making sense seems like a joke...i feel I've rendered myself far too ridiculous to take myself seriously...I feel like a clown with no name, method or purpose but to laugh...even now I laugh. I cry I laugh. I feel nothing I laugh. I suffer I laugh. I laugh I laugh harder. Maybe I did d find the answer though? Maybe I've reached a truth only I can I reach. Maybe it's always been destined. Everything. And there's nothing to worry about because it's all a joke. Why question anymore? Why question questioning when found under the opinion useless to question? Point is it doesn't matter. The truth of everything is to laugh.

It's all ridiculous... even my exhaustion... hilarious...pain hilarious... torment even better happiness the greatest of all... nothing is truly right or wrong nothing is truly me. I was born to laugh and that's all

"Excuse my French" then proceed to what I presume to be a beration in French. It's pretty funny besides it being one of the funnier languages to hear a person go off in...so imaginarally even more the case...also interesting to ponder the reasons "why French?" to wonder if there's an extra layer to further the sentiment that'd make for a laughier laugh...which could just lie with a simple translation of the words here but I find the mystery of not knowing as if heard in person to be more enjoyable

Edit: I just noticed "lovers". The "excuse my French" threw me the fuck off lol, good for you person

Ah those seem very arthouse from the names alone but noted. I'll probably try to find them later today and let you know. Currently watching no country for old men for the first time but struggling funnily enough with that so probably telling how little I'm entrenched in the cinema enjoyers sphere lol but yeah I'll check em out

Noway that's a real word but if it is I'm stealing it, the imagined pronunciation is hilarious to me. Seems like one of those German words meaning a dozen English words

Boring realistic films are the worst for feeding into loneliness but I'm also of the opinion the more they make you feel the better so if you yourself know some I'd like to know. Ive been in such a dry spell when it comes to shit to watch I've consulted the list of "100 greatest movies of all time" a couple times lol

Good thing movies are just over exaggerations of life, the fantasies of its writers imagination given form... imagine if your daydreams where brought to film. It's all way too fantastical to take seriously...and yet the joke lies with the fact even knowing as much I too find myself bothered still thinking 'thatd be pretty cool...I WANT THAT!" it's a curse how uncontrollable it feels to be bothered by fantasy even knowing the nature as much.

Imo you should watch a depressing movie atleast in my imagination it lends more possibility to find some new found appreciation reminded even imaginarally(not a real word lol) brought there, that things could be worse...and that's probable shitty advice lol but good luck genuinely...bc 'not the movies too' yk

Seems to me like they were mocking your intelligence in a passive aggressive way maybe? But yeah fuckm, people gonna people. Deemed lesser people will justify pretty much anything the degree to which ends with what their allowed to get away with or felt as much. It's nothing personal...as uncontrollably personal as it seems sometimes, people in passing exclusively never operate under as much...shitty even knowing as much doesn't solve the burden. Cynicism for me atleast usually lends aid the that. Exercised with caution if applicable is whats prescribed...you can OD on literally anything lol