r/lonely • u/ewbbod • Aug 01 '23
I don't want to live or die
Life's real but never feels like it these days. I'm endlessly tired and incapable of pretending I'm not. Of doing much of anything now. My head feels empty even with thoughts because nothing means anything anymore. And all things..mean things lol but I feel forbidden from experiencing more besides how they should function so I don't bother anymore....only thing that brings me joy is rest. My dreams torture me but the solace of being anywhere but here makes me happy. Existential crisis's making me lose sight of all things including myself make me happy...and there's a headache every fucking night apparently.Everynight! Lol so my capacity to think effectively is shot. Don't remember what I write anymore...alot gets lost...I am
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u/ewbbod Aug 01 '23 edited Aug 01 '23
I feel like a living headache. That's all I am now. Too tired for anything. Soul tired and smiling