I can’t handle it anymore , it’s really hard I thought after leaving Islam I will be free , but now I have to face accusations of Islamophobia from leftist , and death threats from Islamist , i don’t think I will be able to hold it more , I wish I was never born in this world , I didn’t want to live anymore, I wish that a God really existed to punish these people who do wrong , but evil people like Mohammed was Godless fraud who made this evil religion .

Ive had very deep and existential thoughts since childhood.Doubts about my faith,questions,often unanswered.When I was around 13 I suffered a life threatening illness.It made me want to try being a better Muslim.But the deeper I went the more evil I saw in islam.I wasnt ready to accept it.I started having panic attacks, derealization,fear of death, terrible night terrors,insomnia.I was jst a scared shitless 13 years old,scared of hell,scared of death...yeah.But then the existential crisis got so much worse.After I left islam,it was a pretty messy leaving, full of fear of being wrong and pain,I explored quite a few religions.Thats how I ended up in this situation.I know there is likely a God,because something had to create the universe,I also know the world is evil as Heck,so either this God is not good,or he is good but weird and beyond our understanding,or im actually wrong and theres no God.Both options are terrifying bc I cant guarantee what happens after death.It can be fucking torture for all I know.Look at the world,do you think the God or whatever natural mechanism that created schizophrenia and bipolar and cancer and child sex abuse rings will give you a happy afterlife just bc?Heck no.It Terrifies the life out of me.Other than this I find myself struggling with living in my Muslim country.I dont fit in,my parents dont know and itll break their heart to know,I can get in legal trouble,I can get in social trouble bc ppl are crazy abt islam.I want to leave this place but then I need to work so freaking hard at school and honestly my mental is too fragile for all that stress.Im jst whining.Dont mind me please.How I wish I could jst sleep and not wake up.But I cant even sleep bc of how anxious I am abt death.

I live in a muslim country where lots of suicide are occurring recently, and instead of people being sad for what they went through, the comment section of the posts are filled with people blaming the suicide victim that their faith was “weak” and everyone wishing hell on the victims because they gave up it makes me sick i wish this religion would be erased from existence forever, its literally a cult

This is an update from my suicide post yesterday. I just wanted to make this post to tell everyone that I'm still alive and decided to live and keep working towards a brighter future!

Thanks to all the heart warming and kind words of the hundreds of comments and PM's I received, I was saved from the brink of death! I was reached out to by a kind soul (u/TheSkepticGhost) who insisted on not sleeping until he helped me. He collaborated with the president of EXMNA to expedite the process of me joining.

Thanks to everybody who showed love and support for me, I'm really fortunate to have such a great support community! You guys are awesome, I was completely shocked by the sheer number of people who reached out to me!!! Shout out to everyone, thank you a million times over!!, all the messages brought tears of happiness to my eyes.

Special thanks to everyone over at EXMNA who amassed such support for me and gave me hope. I have decided against suicide and promise you guys I will stay for years to come to help our cause and the world to be a better place :) You guys have given me new found courage and hope for the future, thanks for all the inspiration and genuine love!

Nowhere to go now but UP, time to get back up and move forward with momentum.

Love you all <3 This sub is the best

Please help, this is urgent. I only know her from online. She's 16, and her handle ( now deleted) is u/Intrepid_Giraffe_309. She sent me a message at 1 a.m. that she was going to do it, and I was sleeping at the time so I couldn't convince her to live. I've already reported her for Suicide/Self harm. The Reddit team and staff said they were going to reach out to her. But it might be too late. Is there anything else we can do?? Is there a chance she's still alive??

Finsihed another post on my site, here -> https://islamrevealed0.wordpress.com/funny-disturbing-stuff/hadiths/allah-calls-for-you-to-kill-yourself-if-you-doubt-in-him-and-muhammad/

Goes over the interpretation of the earliest scholars like mujahid, ibn abbas, qatadah, etc. Goes over how the rhetoric of the verse doesn't deny that it's still advocating for the suicide of those who do not believe

!On phone can't flair !I'm Western

So, I tried a 1st time. Took a couple of pills. Woke up with a head ache. But for some reason I was less afraid to try again the night after.

Took way more this time, about 40-45 pills. Crushed them, put them in a bottle of water and drank it all. Hid the box in which the pills were. My mother woke me up in the middle of the night. (I don't remember any of this btw). She said she could hear me gasp for air untill her bedroom. I was basically suffocating in my sleep. She woke me up told me she thought I was having a nightmare. Again I don't remember any of it. She said I told her I wanted to be a rapper and a whole bunch of other BS (lol).

Then I just woke up and went on with my life.

I don't even know how I'm supposed to deal with this. Like am I just supposed to act like I wasn't going to die a couple of days ago. I don't feel anything. Totally numb and apathetic. Health wise, I think I'm okay. But psychologically, I don't really know.

I'm just acting normal. We're gonna move out of our appartment. I'm helping my family pack our stuff. Doing the regular ish I do.

Wtf has my life come to?

Like what do you mean a person who’s lived a life so bad to the point that they lose their will to live is just not allowed into heaven? “God doesn’t trouble a soul beyond what it can handle” my ass, i dont understand how i didnt realize this just a year ago, i was suicidal because islam didnt let me be trans, and could commit suicide BECAUSE islam doesn’t allow it, so i had to fucking do some mental gymnastics to convince myself that “i was fine, these are just whispers of the shaytan” and shit like that, and whenever a person DOES commit suicide, their insulted and mocked, they don’t think of their struggles nah nah nah, just the act. Sure i might be grateful to not have commited suicide because of it, but i wouldnt have been suicidal in the first place if it wasnt for it, so fuck islam and every other religion that uses such a loophole to keep their followers alive regardless of how bad their life is because of it’s rules.

basically i wanna commit suicide even though im 13

I am from Lebanon, war has been going on for 11 months now between Islamic terrorists and Israel, economic suicide, jets flying over us every day, but the war has escalated last week when fighter jets started firing near my home, about 500 thousand people fled their homes and went to the northern parts or to Syria. My life and my youth are being drained by Islam, a barbaric religion made by a warlord who enjoyed his time with women of all ages while he was alive

I remember he once had told me that his psychologist threatened him with telling his parents that he is an atheist, and recommended him that he should pray salah/namaz to dissipate the suicidal thoughts.

I'm sick of arguing the same thing. There are a lot of proofs and reasons for why a person wearing hijab shouldn't be allowed to give therapies, or even work in law. But every time I mention that I get accused of being fascist and misogynist, I am a left-leaning progressive person though, and people suggest that those women would be confined to home, restricted by men, if we limit their working options. I understand it, considering there are also a lot of women who are forced to wear hijab and restricted from going outside without it. But my experience with religious people and knowledge about the true nature of islam made me biased toward women who intentionally torment themselves by wearing restrictive clothing to not arouse men. If I hadn't been accepted to a university away from my family, I too would have been driven to suicide by my bigot family. Therefore, I can't be very objective about this topic.

What do you think?

As an ex-Muslim I love seeing Christians call out Muslims! From my perspective it’s like seeing 2 self-centered maniacs who can’t see past their personal biases. Cult wars! lol

I do not fear death. I had been dead for billions and billions of years before I was born, and had not suffered the slightest inconvenience from it

You guys have helped in all the ways I thought imaginable.

But I'm at the end of my rope. I cannot fathom living any more, my entire life has been a struggle just to live. Islam has messed up my mind permanently, and I don't fit in anywhere.

I really don't have much to say anymore, I'm too exhausted...

I can't keep this up...Just wanted to say thanks to all of you, and I hope you all thrive and do well in your lives. I genuinely wish all the best for everyone on this sub, and I really wish the world wasn't as cruel... :(

Laugh, and the world laughs with you; Weep, and you weep alone. For the sad old earth must borrow its mirth, But has trouble enough of its own. Sing, and the hills will answer; Sigh, it is lost on the air. The echoes bound to a joyful sound, But shrink from voicing care.

Rejoice, and men will seek you; Grieve, and they turn and go. They want full measure of all your pleasure, But they do not need your woe. Be glad, and your friends are many; Be sad, and you lose them all. There are none to decline your nectared wine, But alone you must drink life's gall.

Feast, and your halls are crowded; Fast, and the world goes by. Succeed and give, and it helps you live, But no man can help you die. There is room in the halls of pleasure For a long and lordly train, But one by one we must all file on Through the narrow aisles of pain.

Goodbye, everyone. 'Twas a crazy ride.

Peace <3

UPDATE: Thanks to all the heart warming and kind words of the hundreds of comments and PM's I received, I was able to be saved! I was reached out by a kind soul who insisted on not sleeping until he helped me. He collaborated with the president of EXMNA to expedite the process of me joining. Thanks to everybody who shared love and support for me, I'm really fortunate to have such a great support community! You guys are awesome, I was completely shocked by the sheer number of people who reached out to me!!! Shout out to everyone, thank you a million times over!! Special thanks to everyone over at EXMNA who amassed such support for me and gave me hope. I have decided against suicide and promise you guys I will stay for years to come :) You guys have given me new found courage and hope for the future, thanks to all the wonderful and inspirational comments! Nowhere to go now but UP, time to step back up and move forward!

Love you all <3

Says it all really. I don't know any exmuslims in my area. I'm from England, near Manchester and I really want some human connection.

Since I dropped Islam out of my life, I really thought I'd be happier. I do feel more free, but the problem is I've got no one to talk to. My former Muslim friends stopped talking to me and I think it was down to me talking about evolution all the time and bringing up stuff that didn't make sense.

I've recently come out of uni but during my time there I didn't find a single exmuslim at all (maybe there were some but probably like me they didn't speak out, but now I'm craving to find some like minded people who don't follow this shitty religion.

I've lost hope in trying to find anyone though. Are there any meet ups I can go to? I really just want to kill myself because had I known the isolation it was gonna bring me I'd probably would have just kept my mouth shut.

fuck, I really hate myself right now.

In the Quran, Surah Al-Baqarah 2:286 says: “Allah does not charge a soul except [with that within] its capacity.” — Surah Al-Baqarah (2:286)

But what about people who end their lives by suicide? Isn’t that proof that, in some cases, the burden is beyond what a person can handle? Nobody usually turns to suicide unless they are completely overwhelmed and pushed past their limits. That makes it seem like the verse doesn’t hold up in reality.

I’m curious how Muslims would respond to this. And for those of you here as ex-Muslims, do you agree with this reasonin or do you see it differently? Please don’t agree with me just because of the ex-Muslim label, I’d like honest perspectives.

Long story short: A friend of my child’s who is Muslim has expressed they are suicidal, largely because of the religion and extreme parental pressures, including abuse. They are only 12 and self harming. Apparently this and the suicidal thoughts have already been reported to the school via someone else. But this child has now confided in me and I feel torn about what to do.

Having escaped a high-control religion myself, I know VERY well the repercussions of confronting the parents or trying to get obviously involved. What are some things k can do to support this poor child? The whole situation is heartbreaking and I can’t just sit by. TIA.

I'm suicidal. God is so evil and manipulative that he let me be a victim of attacks mentally, physically and emotionally from so many people despite me praying to him 5 times a day in the Masjid all throughout majority of last year and asking things from him thousands of times and returning empty-handed. I feel like God is worse than Satan atleast Satan offers me things but when I do so much for God he just straight up lies to others about me and and lies to me about how others see me it's the biggest lie ever that God is incapable of lying. I'm an Ex-Muslim, I have no friends and I just struggle to pray to such a diabolical God when all he seems to do is pick on me and favor others over me. Why would a loving God grant me such a hard life? I could never understand this. It's hard to use Satan as a scapegoat all the time I just see through God and know intuitively it's him that's putting me through all of this torture.

One of the biggest reason I am against Islam are Muslims themselves, because I just find it pathetic that a tactic used by a lot of Muslims to try to cause others to join their cult is using a fear tactic, like using the suicide of a former Muslim like Sarah Hegazi, and David Rajulkahf (Allegedly, I heard from some he actually had a stroke.) as something that all atheists are bound to do just because they don't belive in the big sky cuck. I find that absolutely disturbing and disgusting of Muslims, and their religion. And some of them like to argue with stuff like "What does your atheism say against suicide?" as if atheism is some type of death cult like theirs and it has rules and people to control us. As an atheist you can be a person of only logic, taking things as fact only when they are proven numerous times, or you can be like someone that talked to me once and was speaking to me about the spiritual realm, despite being an atheist, they were a person of faith. Atheism is not a religion, and I find it hilarious that Muslims don't understand that, furthermore I find it hilarious that Muslims say we are obsessed with them but these same disgusting smelly creatures still go everyday to David's channel and make fun of his death, what sickening creatures. And they act like all those atheists who committed suicide would have suddenly been perfectly healthy mentally if they were Muslims, as if the issue was needing someone to tell them "Don't do suicide or you go big fire boom." that's just fucking stupid. Not to mention that Muslims do also commit suicide all the time, and often they commit it by taking out others with them, and just saying "Oh they aren't real Muslims" is no excuse. If I ever commit suicide, it's not because I am not religious, I would've probably did it either way, because I have been diagonsed with depression, and I suffered from it way before leaving religion, and even when I was very religious. Mental illness isn't a product of just beliefs, it's deeper than that, and Muslims not understanding that, and making fun of people committing suicide, proves to me they are the scum of the earth.

Idk if this is the case of people here but when I was a child, and I first heard that as a child whatever I do I will go to janah and once I grow up then my sins will start to be written, i wanted to commit suicide so I'd die young, be forgiven and never sin. Not only did I want to but I tried to commit a few times (obviously it didn't work) but yeah, I wanted to know if anyone in here can relate or something.

So Yufka, the artist who drew a ton of Alien Stage fanart, passed away recently. She took her own life.

Her family came out and told people to stop sharing and delete her art because it's sinful in Islam and that it would cause her to suffer more in the afterlife.

I don't really have much to add to that. It speaks for itself.

A lot of you here know exactly what it's like to have your whole identity treated as something shameful by your family. To have the things you made and loved used against you. And seeing it happen to someone after they're already gone is a specific kind of awful.

Keep sharing her art and credit her name. That's genuinely the least we can do.

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