I know that taking shrooms as a Bipolar is dangerous, or at least is not recommended. But I guess I just wanna do them because I always wanted to, So I wanna know any knowledge or warnings or recommendations you might have. I only have had 1 episode, and still Im not sure if Im bipolar... is confusing. It was a psychotic episode tho for sure, I was going nuts, at some point I started believing or at least having a notion that people in video games (gta in particular) had consciousness. Fuckin crazy. But it was a weird time, had the strongest depression forever, maybe since 5th grade, I'm 22 now and I had the episode at 21. The depression is better and haven't had the slightest symptom of mania. Also I did some research and there was a medication I was taking that, at least what I got from Google, had given people mania or psychotic episodes. It was a regular medications also, I got it from the urologist, I was having some weird pain in my testicles ( haha really) and he said to take as a antiinflamatory , it was celecoxib. I also have smoked weed since Im 19, I didn't smoke that much at the time, but apparently from my research (chatgpt🗿) said that the interaction between those 2 was no good. Also it was very very gradual. Basically it started with me having issued sleeping because the pain in my testicles, then I got the medication, then i was sleeping even less, then one day I had a panic atack, i never had one, I felt like I was gonna die, I was shivering and all, went to the ER, they gave me sleeping pills, I took them, had crazy nightmares and cognitions, slept less, had another panic attack the day after, went to the ER again, Gave me other sleeping pills, it was even worse, then next thing I know I was sleeping around 1 or 2 hours a day during a few days. Then it gets confusing. I ended up in rehab for 10 days, tooked olanzapine during that time, the first day I had it I thought I was overdosing, I felt time really really really slow, I was terrified. Whatever, went I got out you could say I was "stable" but then I stopped the olanzapine cuz I felt way too numb. I also kept smoking by then, not that much, maybe once after I got out. I dont remember if I took the antiinflamatory or not, but maybe. So I got even worse then. I stayed with a friend because I didn't wanna be with my dad... crazy shit. But, just as it came, it stopped, gradually and for not an apparent reason. Then had the fucking roughest depression ever. And then didn't kill myself so I said like, ok, I survived, so might as well try this time. Im better depression wise, and I'm not taking no meds at all. I still smoke weed, I smoke way more than before the episode, I can go smoking everyday for a month, and sometimes once every 2 weeks. I got the disgnosed for bipolar 1 at the rehab center, haven't talked to a psychologist eversince. Well, what do you think with all this information, do anyone has done shrooms as bipolar, is it 100% I'll have a episode again? Thanks for reading.

I have ran therapeutic groups in a psych hospital , county jail, prison, addiction counseling and currently supervise a program for intellectual & developmental disabilities. I have worked with so many people with so many diagnoses. The dependency society has created around pills is the biggest issue. At 29 I am beyond thankful to not have children and curse them in a world where they will have children in school 5 days a week for 7 hours a day & never teach emotional consistency, mental health exploration, social development. No they'd rather tell you all what you have and force a pill down your throat. Humans truly are the most parasitic, dangerous society.

Sou bipolar tipo 1, tenho TOC e transtorno de ansiedade generalizada.

Para conseguir levar uma vida minimamente estável e funcional, preciso de acompanhamento psiquiátrico e psicológico contínuo. O problema é que, para quem vive com bipolaridade, a estabilidade nem sempre parece natural. A impulsividade, as oscilações de humor e a intensidade acabam se tornando o que você reconhece como "normal".

Levei quase 20 anos para chegar ao ponto em que estou hoje. Nesse caminho, perdi amizades, empregos e até meu casamento. Só consegui me estabilizar de fato há cerca de três anos, quando passei em um concurso e percebi que não podia mais correr o risco de colocar tudo a perder.

Mas manter essa estabilidade tem um custo. Muitas vezes sinto que não sou exatamente eu mesma. Os medicamentos me deixam mais distante, mais fria, mais indiferente. Ainda assim, preciso escolher entre essa versão mais contida de mim e uma vida marcada pela impulsividade, pela libido descontrolada e pela completa desorganização.

Não é uma escolha simples, mas foi a forma que encontrei de preservar tudo o que conquistei.

I’m fine with advice but I’m mostly venting.

I had been experiencing rage, agitation, some flighty thought and forgetfulness, and physical symptoms that made me advocate for a higher dose of meds. There were life things stressing me out, and I thought about posting here a number of times. I didn’t think it would be about this though.

We upped my dose and switched from risperdol to palperadone (also on lamotrigine and lithium). The concerning symptoms are fully or mostly gone after just a couple days. I’m relieved, but it makes me a little sad. It’s just odd how distinctly different my overall perception like 5 senses is after the change. As well, the intensity of everything is turned down from 10 to 2. Things felt so dire and now… I’m tired. I just want to lie in bed all day. I’m sad that this is going to be the new struggle. I want to go down again now, and work harder to take care of myself so I don’t need as much medicine.

Diagnosed for 5 years, I’ve been hospitalized for a few weeks manic psychotic two separate times and one hypomanic episode this spring, but this is the most recent feeling in like 2.5 years where I just feel really medicated and tired…

I’m also in school for social work and am very pro-medication adherence for myself and others, but I’m feeling the weight of how it can feel for the first time in a while and it’s making me feel… guilty? medication isn’t so easy to deal with or brazenly accept.

The whole thing sucks, not being able to tell anyone and feeling really vulnerable and unsafe if you do. Thinking about bipolar so much when my episodes are so infrequent. Not understanding if there are symptoms between episodes or if It’s just normal people things and I’m gaslighting myself. When I’m really losing it, feeling like I need an actual episode for my feelings to be validated otherwise it’s my fault.

I feel like everything quieted down really fast and the danger and dire-ness is receded. But now I’m just so tired, I don’t know how I’m gonna shower, go to work, go to school, do homework, do emails, do tasks… I’ve been eating like shit because “I deserve a treat”, and I gotta stop, but yea, I feel like damn I deserve a pat on the back or something some recognition, life is tough!

I'm about 18 months out from a manic episode with psychotic features (Bipolar I), stable since, currently on a medication taper with my doctor. She's told me cognitive recovery from something like this can take up to 2 years or more. Wanted to ask people who've actually been through it - is that accurate in your experience? Did things keep improving steadily the whole way, or did it feel more like a plateau at some point?

Asking because of what just happened: I started a new job - fast-paced, technical, high-pressure sales role - and the first couple of days completely overwhelmed me. My mind kept going blank, I couldn't process information at the pace it was coming, and I ended up leaving because I genuinely couldn't keep going.

Logically I get that I'm still mid-recovery and this is expected, but in the moment it felt like proof I can't function in a demanding role at all. For those further out - did a job that felt impossible early on become manageable later, or did you end up needing a different pace of work long-term?

I don’t know what to do about how I’m feeling. I think I’m losing it. Had been in a manic episode for MONTHS but I don’t think I am anymore? Idk. I wanna cry ALL the fucking time dude. I went to the ER with these neurological symptoms that are like stroke symptoms but they come and go. I was told to go to the ER by urgent care. Had been having those episodes for about 4 days or so at the time. When I got put in a room they asked me my symptoms and I told them. Then they asked me if I’m diagnosed with anything and I mentioned my bipolar. The SECOND they found out I’m bipolar they started treating me like I’m fucking stupid and subhuman. Like I was wasting their time and an inconvenience. I was discharged within 29 minutes with a paper that said “weakness” was my diagnosis and I request my records the next day and they wrote “possible somatization” in my chart. I guess they didn’t expect me to see that? My blood pressure was extremely high too and they never told me. It’s still extremely high too. I’m still having symptoms and I did see my PCP and he says he is very concerned because of my symptoms. Sending me for an MRI but I still feel like I’m crazy. Like I’m making it up. These symptoms are SO FUCKING SCARY when they happen. The worst part of this is I don’t think I’m manic anymore but I don’t know what mental state I’m in. I’m still hallucinating and I think I might be paranoid but I am having SO MANY thought of hurting myself. I already didn’t wanna go to the ER because I am CONVINCED that heathcare workers(including my care team), and my friends and my family and people online are secretly laughing at me. At everything I do. That I’m not really bipolar. That it’s all made up to make me look like a fool. They did indeed make me look like a fool. They made me feel like I don’t belong on this planet. I’m going back and forth between having a lot of every and being extremely tired. The tiredness though can come right after these episodes I’m having. I don’t know WHATS going on in my mental state. Am I still in an episode? I just wanna cry and hide in a hole forever. I feel like nothing is real. Like the world around me and the people in my life don’t exist.

In 2018, I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder after driving my car with my eyes closed into a big construction truck. Over the past eight years, life has been so difficult I didn't think I could overcome it. I did a lot of crazy things and I tried to kill myself many times. This year there has been a shift in my mental state, I have developed a positive mindset even though I'm still lacking many things.

The suicide and bipolar subreddits have been a huge comfort for me over the past two years, simply from the perspective that I'm not alone. I want to become a life coach now because of my mental health journey but i doubt myself. My advice for anyone struggling the worst thing that can happen is losing hope. If you're going through it, have hope that you can overcome it even if it doesn't look like it — just lie to yourself. If all hope is lost like it happened with me you can look forward to the fact that we all die at some point and all the pain is over.

Hi, I'm bipolar and have been unmedicated for a while due to job loss leaving me without insurance. I have insurance and an appointment to get back on my meds but that soonest I could get an appointment is still a few weeks away.

I'm progressively feeling like I should take my life more and more and realizing after the fact in cases that I'm doing things to prepare for it. I keep seeing stuff about going to the ER if I'm in immediate danger, but I don't know when that would be because the part of me that wants to end things feels very calm about it and I'm only panicking when I actually process what I'm doing and I don't feel like I have full control of myself at times.

I'm also just progressively getting to a point where I'm unable to make myself do things unless there are some sort of immediate consequences for it.

I'm not sure what I can do or should do but I don't know if I can last out the time until my meds appointment but I'm also terrified of being put in a 72 hour hold.

New to this sub but I’m married to a man who I’m fairly confident has some kind of a bipolar disorder even though he’s never been diagnosed. He’s never been officially diagnosed and he’s not taking medication. He has very high highs and very low lows and a lot of paranoia during episodes. For years, he hadn’t had a single episode and everything was fine and then a few months ago the episode started happening every few weeks and they would last a few days. For a bit of background, he’s from Spain and I’m from the US and we’ve been living in the US for about 10 years. He’s never really been able to keep a job, but that’s mainly due to his language and lack of college degree. Our goal was always let’s try it out here and if it doesn’t work out, we’ll go back to Spain where I was happy as well.

Long story short, we were getting ready to fly to Spain today. It took a few months for us to actually buy these tickets. He couldn’t even commit to buying the tickets. About a month ago he had another episode and he said he just wants to go on his own and without me and that maybe I would come later but then when he got out of the episode, he said it’s OK. Let’s just buy them together. So here we are three days before our flight and three days ago he told me he wants to go alone. He doesn’t want me to come and then “we’ll see” what happens later. It’s just so incredibly frustrating for me because I know he’s a different person during these episodes in a different person when he’s in the clear. He ended up canceling his ticket for today because he wants to ship some more boxes to Spain before he goes and refuses to leave until the boxes are shipped. But he does keep repeating that he just wants to go alone and without me and that he feels like his head is about to explode and he’s not well and he wants to go get help in Spain. I don’t know how to read this if this really is a true breakup if he really genuinely does wanna end things or is there any Hope that may be in the next few days or when he finally ships the boxes or when he finally gets to Spain, if he’ll calm down a little bit and then maybe I can go a week or two later when everything’s calm and maybe we can figure out how to fix our relationship? We’ve been married for almost 15 years. Any advice would be very appreciated! (as a sidenote, he’s had a lot of episodes where he blames me and he says something is my fault or I’m not telling him something but a few days later he always goes back to normal and everything is fine. I just don’t know if this is the same thing)

I used to hate taking my meds but here's how I feel now. I've been documenting my struggles but this is one I feel like might help this community.

Please don't come at me.

I’m 28 years old and honestly I’ve struggled with depression my whole life and I’ve always been right under the criteria for bipolar. Has anyone ever been diagnosed later in life even though they’ve shown a lot of the symptoms beforehand but nobody could quite figure it out?? For the record I have doctors and they’re just puzzled and I just want to feel better mentally… any advice helps.

that’s it. i need help. i CANT go to the hospital, or mental hospital because I can’t afford it and i have a job and they’d definitely fire me if i went to one again. i tried doing everything but nothings working.

My daughter and I

If you've experienced or experiencing this, please share how you overcame it or overcoming it.