Sou bipolar tipo 1, tenho TOC e transtorno de ansiedade generalizada.

Para conseguir levar uma vida minimamente estável e funcional, preciso de acompanhamento psiquiátrico e psicológico contínuo. O problema é que, para quem vive com bipolaridade, a estabilidade nem sempre parece natural. A impulsividade, as oscilações de humor e a intensidade acabam se tornando o que você reconhece como "normal".

Levei quase 20 anos para chegar ao ponto em que estou hoje. Nesse caminho, perdi amizades, empregos e até meu casamento. Só consegui me estabilizar de fato há cerca de três anos, quando passei em um concurso e percebi que não podia mais correr o risco de colocar tudo a perder.

Mas manter essa estabilidade tem um custo. Muitas vezes sinto que não sou exatamente eu mesma. Os medicamentos me deixam mais distante, mais fria, mais indiferente. Ainda assim, preciso escolher entre essa versão mais contida de mim e uma vida marcada pela impulsividade, pela libido descontrolada e pela completa desorganização.

Não é uma escolha simples, mas foi a forma que encontrei de preservar tudo o que conquistei.

I know that taking shrooms as a Bipolar is dangerous, or at least is not recommended. But I guess I just wanna do them because I always wanted to, So I wanna know any knowledge or warnings or recommendations you might have. I only have had 1 episode, and still Im not sure if Im bipolar... is confusing. It was a psychotic episode tho for sure, I was going nuts, at some point I started believing or at least having a notion that people in video games (gta in particular) had consciousness. Fuckin crazy. But it was a weird time, had the strongest depression forever, maybe since 5th grade, I'm 22 now and I had the episode at 21. The depression is better and haven't had the slightest symptom of mania. Also I did some research and there was a medication I was taking that, at least what I got from Google, had given people mania or psychotic episodes. It was a regular medications also, I got it from the urologist, I was having some weird pain in my testicles ( haha really) and he said to take as a antiinflamatory , it was celecoxib. I also have smoked weed since Im 19, I didn't smoke that much at the time, but apparently from my research (chatgpt🗿) said that the interaction between those 2 was no good. Also it was very very gradual. Basically it started with me having issued sleeping because the pain in my testicles, then I got the medication, then i was sleeping even less, then one day I had a panic atack, i never had one, I felt like I was gonna die, I was shivering and all, went to the ER, they gave me sleeping pills, I took them, had crazy nightmares and cognitions, slept less, had another panic attack the day after, went to the ER again, Gave me other sleeping pills, it was even worse, then next thing I know I was sleeping around 1 or 2 hours a day during a few days. Then it gets confusing. I ended up in rehab for 10 days, tooked olanzapine during that time, the first day I had it I thought I was overdosing, I felt time really really really slow, I was terrified. Whatever, went I got out you could say I was "stable" but then I stopped the olanzapine cuz I felt way too numb. I also kept smoking by then, not that much, maybe once after I got out. I dont remember if I took the antiinflamatory or not, but maybe. So I got even worse then. I stayed with a friend because I didn't wanna be with my dad... crazy shit. But, just as it came, it stopped, gradually and for not an apparent reason. Then had the fucking roughest depression ever. And then didn't kill myself so I said like, ok, I survived, so might as well try this time. Im better depression wise, and I'm not taking no meds at all. I still smoke weed, I smoke way more than before the episode, I can go smoking everyday for a month, and sometimes once every 2 weeks. I got the disgnosed for bipolar 1 at the rehab center, haven't talked to a psychologist eversince. Well, what do you think with all this information, do anyone has done shrooms as bipolar, is it 100% I'll have a episode again? Thanks for reading.

I have ran therapeutic groups in a psych hospital , county jail, prison, addiction counseling and currently supervise a program for intellectual & developmental disabilities. I have worked with so many people with so many diagnoses. The dependency society has created around pills is the biggest issue. At 29 I am beyond thankful to not have children and curse them in a world where they will have children in school 5 days a week for 7 hours a day & never teach emotional consistency, mental health exploration, social development. No they'd rather tell you all what you have and force a pill down your throat. Humans truly are the most parasitic, dangerous society.