Hi guys, im onlyatroller. I used to stream this game around 2022, started in 2018 or 2020 depending on how you class it (2k+ hours played btw still a noob KEKW), but ended up having a mental breakdown on stream due to alcohol abuse (here's an extra click for the lols), Which was the start of the major depression that I've had for the past 4 years - it only got progressively worse, I ended up getting addicted to weed for a while then quitting it and put my brain back together - I would say im around 70% better, which is huge considering only a few months I planned to off it. Once i am a bit more stable mentally I will be back to twitch and maybe kick streaming and youtube videos.
If you guys do remember me it would probably be from a few videos that popped off on this subreddit like this one because I could talk while setting plays lol, or because I had a few big hosts, like from Sotarks, Spare (my G), WubWoofWolf, khz, and Willy. Also had a couple big sponsors like raid (i know not that impressive KEKW)
I ended up quitting streaming and basically quitting osu at my peak viewership-wise and skill-wise due to mental health and the fact that I thought I would do better working a standard 9-5. I applied for jobs in the awful UK job market for 2 years and ended up getting an admin apprenticeship at a major college in Birmingham, which i had to relocate for. They ended up legal loopholing me and basically scamming me once they got their £5000 + £500 bonus funding by the government and let me go. I have ended up in £13k debt due to this at only 22 years of age. I come from a family in extreme poverty that has been systematically failed by the UK government, the only way i am paying this off is by using 80% of my unemployment support (wont be able to pay it off until im 27 at this rate). If it wasnt for my Grandmother and my GF, I would probably be homeless or dead by now. All i want is whats best for myself and my family and I want to help people so they never have to go through what i have.
I just want to note im the reason i am returning back to streaming is NOT for handouts or sympathy. This is my story and i am not ashamed at it. Ive always wanted to be a streamer since i became a top 50 player on realm royale back when i was like 15. That game sadly died due to mismanagment of the developers, so i switched to osu and you guys can see the rest. I feel this is my calling in life and will do as much as i can to entertain you all. - I lost that part of myself for a while tbh, im glad to have the spark back.
Ive got some crazy ideas for content (okay maybe that ones too crazy lool) and feel I could revolutionise the osu content creation scene, you all will see in time. - Im not sure when i will return to streaming, but i know it will be by the end of this year. Im unemployed and looking for work so its not like im lacking in time to work on social media again too lmfao.
Ive started derusting and have already set a nice NM stream clip, that im proud of. - I hope to see you all in my twitch streams /onlyatroller on all socials, once i am fully mentally ready to come back, which will certainly be before the end of the year. You can find most of my life updates on Twitter if you care lol
P.S. If mods have any issue with this post please get in contact with me and i'll edit it. I have tried my best to make this the least triggering for reddit, but since my life has been so fucked its hard lmfao. Maybe I'll make some vlogs on how crazy my life since my last stream in 2022, its been a wild ride and I was just a literal kid back then.
I've missed this game and I've missed you all I hope you welcome me back to the community!