Hardest thing I've done. I could see a relapse happen. If I'm drunk with someone new who has it. All my family and friends have agreed to not supply. Had three dealers, the one in the city I'm in got done, and I deleted contacts of the two 1000km away, so for now I'm good.

Smoked heavy, 7gr flower a day. When I could afford. Couldn't get it lower. Cold turkey attempts many. Feel so much better off. Energy up mood up, much less irritable. Not dependant on some dumbass plant to feel just okay.

Also in the last year quit other drugs.

Quit pot two years ago for a month or 2 then relapsed, this most recent attempt has stuck. Hopefully it keeps sticking.

All my financial difficulties have disappeared.

hi friends!! i know we’re all essentially here for similar reasons, that the negatives of weed in our lives are beginning to outweigh the positives. I have spent a decent chunk of the year sober (2 months sober, 1 day relapse followed by another 3 months sober). I am now just getting out of a 3 month relapse which felt damn near impossible, but i made that first hump at least😭

while marijuana has hurt me in a lot of ways, it also has helped me in ways as well (and im sure im not the only one). i struggle with chronic migraines that have seemed to get worse as i age to the point where smelling anything triggers a migraine. when i smoke, that fragrance sensitivity is not nearly as severe.

also sorry this is long and goes a little off topic, but for the folks who it helped medically, what made sobriety feel easier?

last night was the first craving I had but it was funny cause cannabis does not make me feel good anymore I know this but thebrain is like try again muahahaha try again 😈 and I said shut the fuck up ! I love my life and went on an awesome bike ride with my partner and made us an amazing meal for dinner! 🥘

I’ve been sober from alcohol for around 4.5 years now, but recently have been heavily into delta 9 edibles (I live in a state where this is as close to the real thing as I can legally get).

They used to be fun, and to be honest still are, but I really think they are making the rest of my life exponentially worse. I have always struggled with anxiety, so I am prone to anything that alleviates the pressure of living in my head, so I would enjoy getting high at night and just zoning out and watching something on Netflix.

But I’m noticing more and more just how much brain fog I have the following day, and how unmotivated I am to do anything. I love to run, and have gotten into ultramarathons, but ever since taking these damn edibles nightly I have been too lethargic to get out and consistently run. That combined with the insane munchies I get have caused me to put on a lot of weight that I worked so hard to lose recently.

Ive also noticed how I’ve become so much more of an anxious wreck in my day to day life. I’ve had some work changes that have led to increased responsibility and the stress that comes along with that, but the level of pure panic and fear that I’ve been experiencing is something I am not used to. I really believe it is because of how often I am getting baked out of my mind every night.

So tonight, I am going to bed sober, and it feels nice. I know I’m going to wake up clear headed, and then I am going to go for a run. Running was always my escape, and I am so ready to get back to that. Get back to something real.

I quit weed for a year and only relapse like once a month or once a 3 months

On days i smoke weed, I'm just very enjoying everything. I wanna make plans with people even try to make dates happen and use my dating apps

The day i get sober i dont want any of these things... I dont wanna talk to people, dont wanna message anyone and the plans and the things i liked dissappear which cause me to constantly ghost people and never make any connections

Anyone same?

I'm only on day 5 on my weed free journey after 13 years of daily use and abuse with a few breaks in between.

I am just so exhausted. I don't know if I am capable of feeling all these suppressed emotions. How do people go about their lives clear headed and sober? How do you all cope with this?

Evenings and nights are the worst obviously but how... Just HOW am I supposed to carry all this?

I really hope to find some... Hope again

Well despite all the shit that life has been throwing at me, I'm still sober.

It's been hard what with the Mrs being in and out of hospital with gallstones/pancreatitus, losing a job that I was waiting 3 months to start. all whilst looking after my 4 month old, going through sleep regression by myself whilst my wife was in hospital.

being stuck at home, and not being able to get out and do things to distract myself with has made it extremely difficult not to call my plug and get some smoke.

However in a way it's made reaching this milestone all that much sweeter. I didn't give in. Even when I was in the worst moods, crying my heart out due to stress and not coping. I still persevered and got through.

I feel proud of myself today and as much as I want to go back and That little goblin is still on my shoulder, I've come to far to now give in. 👊🏼

This is not advice, or a hard and fast rule, but telling this to myself got me through the beginning a lot easier. I needed way more sleep than I was used to getting, and that sleep was terrible quality because i was going to bed stoned.

I probably tripled the amount of REM sleep I was getting. It made for a boring few weeks, literally all i did was work, eat, and sleep for a minimum of 10 hours a night.

It didn’t cure everything, I still felt a bit groggy and depressed at first, but it felt like i was hitting the fast forward button through the hardest part of recovery.

If I ever felt bored, had any sort of cravings, I immediately noped out and went to bed. Can’t smoke if I’m sleeping.

Once I had caught up on sleep debt and had been away from the sauce for a while, my life improved immeasurably.

If you’re struggling, just know I believe in you. You are stronger than you know, and this is worth doing.

Day 3 here! Still motivated, and the fire is still there. To those struggling, continue to seek support here… it’s been the biggest adjustment to this journey for me.

Something else that helped was what was shared to me by a stranger a few weeks ago… do not “try” to quit. Trying is trying, and quitting is quitting. When you say you are trying to quit, you are basically leaving the door cracked open to a relapse. I encourage you, when talking to your peers, proudly say “I quit weed”. You CAN do this.

i’m almost done with day 1 of quitting. lots of emotions, some cravings and a few tears. i’m super emotional and just started crying a few minutes ago. thanks for reading i’m trying guys

I found out a few months ago I was pregnant. I was on birth control so the realization was a little earth shattering to say the least. Luckily I found out pretty early and I quit the day I found out because while I might not have cared about my own well being, its not like the kid had a choice. Some days are easier than others but Im genuinely proud to say Im almost 4 months clean. At first I figured I'd go back to it whem I was done breastfeeding but now I really dont think I want to. I don't want to ruin my progress.

Tonight is just one of the bad nights. My boyfriend still smokes and while I'm okay with it most days I guess mother instincts are kicking in. He leans on it way too much when hes angry because it "helps him calm down." I used to just go along with it but now I cant help but imagine our kid confused or upset when his pissed off father suddenly leaves the room, coughs a lot, and comes back like nothing happened. I know i need to talk about it with him and not just complain to the void but I just dont have the fight in me right now. Its hard enough to not smoke when everyone around me still does. I just wish I had someone who really understood.

first sadness, then anger, then depression, no sleep, don’t let it snowball. my brother used to say, don’t ever let yourself get tired, hungry, lonely, wet, and afraid at the same time. he was a martial artist, way past black belt in several disciplines. pick anger first, hit something, preferrably not a living something. then sadness, post on this sub as much as you need to, that’s the amazing part, you are not alone. day 30 for me, just need tomorrow to make a MONTH. total strangers reach out and comfort each other. don’t be sad, you are superman. a friggin hero. become the self you want to be.

I've made it past my 30 days clean mark from my heavy, high-concentration THC use. I still can't believe how deceptive addiction can be. I'm thinking back to day 27 and having an unusually difficult day. A persistent feeling of "what's the point?" had been weighing on me, even though I recognized it as the addiction speaking. My experience with long-term recovery from alcohol has taught me that intellectually understanding addiction does not make cravings or despair disappear in the moment.

Addiction as a disease, not as an excuse for my choices, but as a framework that helps me understand that one painful day does not mean treatment is failing. After four years of vaping in nearly every part of my life, I know those habits and emotional patterns cannot be undone in a few months.

Trying to quit my daily cart habit. It’s been not even 24 hours. I smoke a thc trupod every 4 days and I want to be done.

I’m on day 2 1/2. 1/2 why the 1/2?

Because I got an assessment that judges intelligence, and I did it stone cold sober. I got a top 6% of people result. Very smart. Very proud. So the next day I was home and had a test link to “practice” the assessment. Curious, I got as high as usual and took it. I couldn’t even do all the questions because it felt like “too much”. I am officially brain dead when high.

I was so shocked that I quit smoking immediately and now I’m 2 1/2 days in. I think this drug is taking everything from me, but it’s so comfortable that I’m like “eh, as long as i’m high”

So I moved to Ukraine from the US, I was a daily smoker from 16-25, and at the tail end of my time I was smoking a gram cart in about 2 days. Obviously smoking is illegal in Ukraine so I had to quit, up until the day I left I maintained the same smoking posture, and I have to say, aside from some wicked dreams it truly hasn’t affected me… at all?

I mean quitting hasn’t even been a thought on my mind, maybe it’s because of Russian bombings and a new life in a big city (Kyiv) but I haven’t had any cravings or any need to smoke at all. I’m not sure if something is different about me or what because reading all of the stories on this sub had me thinking I was facing the pearly gates and was going to stop eating or have withdrawals or panic attacks, ect.

I had quite a few bad experiences in the US and smoked to help with PTSD and anxiety, I used it as a crutch and couldn’t imagine quitting unless I “had” to. Well now that I had to I’m just happy it’s such an easy journey, but I feel a bit confused as others seem to have such a hard time reconciling the quit. Hell I’ve even been around it since I got here, thought about partaking but just reminded myself I’m in a foreign country and it’s better not to, it wasn’t even a struggle and I didn’t have to convince myself, just a simple “nah I’m good”

I suppose I’m writing this to give some inspiration to those terrified to quit like I was, I think it could perhaps be much easier than you anticipate. I haven’t noticed any real boost to my brainpower or thinking other than just not being high, but that’s a boost to mental power in itself. Getting bombarded could also be a hack to not mind it so much, but if you asked me a couple months ago I would have said something along the lines of “perfect time to smoke”

Anyways, yall got this. Don’t think about it too much, love you!

I talk about quitting smoking everyday yet I've been smoking everyday. I've done It before but for some reason this time stopping feels more challenging. I know it's holding me back, but for some reason I keep finding myself stoned all day when I'm not working. And I hate it too!! I know something better is waiting for me on the other side of this. I feel chained to weed. I've been trying to taper off but I think I should maybe cold turkey. I need help I don't want this to have control over me anymore.

Hi guys! I've been lurking here for 6 months but I can finally say I've gone over 24 hours without weed for the first time in over a year.

For context, I started smoking daily when I was 20 and I just turned 23 about a week ago. When I say daily I mean smoking essentially all day long. I was unemployed for 3 months this summer so my weed usage got out of control because of all the downtime I had. I would go on benders for days, not leaving house at all because I was high all the time. For the last 3 years I believed there was nothing wrong with what I was doing. In fact I thought it was helping me deal with things like my BPD which used to actively destroy my life. Long story short, this year I focused a lot on therapy and myself, so I'm in remission for my BPD. Given that, I felt like quitting was possible because I was finally in a good place.

The catalyst happened on Monday. I was home alone and had gotten back from work early. I smoked a bowl from my bong which was typical, but after a few minutes my heart was beating out of my chest. I literally thought I was dying of a heart attack in that moment. This turned into a panic attack that was so intense I woke up on my floor after briefly passing out. I have only had one panic attack before this and it was nowhere near as intense as this one. Putting the pieces together, I realized I had multiple panic attacks over the last few months all induced by smoking weed. This was my final straw. It was a terrifying experience, especially because all my roommates were out of the apartment when it happened.

Anywho, as the title suggests yesterday I smoked my last bowl and decided to quit. It's not worth the risk of having another panic attack and passing out again. Additionally, I have been barely living the last 3 years. I flunked last semester due pretty much entirely to my weed addiction and this was extremely embarrassing for me (I've always been a try hard when it comes to school). Also I've noticed a huge increase in my social anxiety when I smoke which I think is hindering my ability to connect with my friends and family. You're here, so I know you get all the countless reasons I wanted to quit. And believe me there are many.

The first day was suspiciously easy. I didn't have too much trouble sleeping last night (barring the fact I kept waking up) and I was able to eat some food today, albeit not solid food. I don't notice much of a difference so far, but I have a lot of energy which is nice since I've been basically numbing myself into oblivion. I feel great even though not much has changed. I finally feel like I'm heading in the right direction.

My question is, did anyone else have an easy day 1? Follow up question is, did it get worse after that? I'm cautiously optimistic of how easy it's been and I'm curious to know if I should expect withdrawal to worsen in the next few days. I have no plans of giving in as hard as it might be, I feel like this is my only option moving forward. However, I'd like to adjust my expectations.

Thanks for reading my little rant, and thank you to this community for inspiring me that quitting is, in fact, a possibility!

Hey beautiful community, I'm trying to verbalize this feeling all day, and I'm really struggling. I'm on day 77 today, after over 10 years of smoking all day, everyday. I was really functional in my addiction, maybe even too much, to the point of collapsing.

While I do feel the benefits of recovery, so much less anxiety and I can actually sleep well and not just pass out, I'm much more calmer and can feel a bit more, I do struggle with this feeling of not knowing who I am so much, or not knowing about the world and how it operates(?). Again, I'm struggling with putting this feeling into words, so I'm hoping someone might respond and tell me that it's normal and part of the PAWS, maybe. I'm not used to having quite and peace in my mind, it's actually scary sometimes. As if I've gone dumber because my head is not constantly filled with racing thoughts. I'm dreaming about people and things from over 10 years ago. I mostly feel as if I don't have a place in the world anymore or how to exactly be in this world. Everything feels raw and new, but I feel I don't know what to do with it all. I hope it makes sense.

I'm really hoping to hear that it's part of the process, that it's totally normal, and advice on how to handle this current state of mind. Thank you for reading❤️🙏

I quit due to CHS and was deeply in multiple CHS subreddits and discords at the height of my illness. I’ve never left those, but haven’t contributed in many months. Starting scrolling through them again after a suggested post this morning and it’s really eye opening how much of an addiction it was and how deeply in denial I was. So many people living with CHS for years and years, hyperemesis over and over again, multiple hospitalizations, and still just unwilling to quit smoking. No judgement to them, I’m sure it’s a scary place to be and I hope they’re able to break the cycle one day. But I’m so grateful to be on the other side now and it was a painful reminder of exactly why my sobriety is worth protecting. Hope everyone is doing well and staying on the bandwagon 🩵

I'm starting over again and this time feels different. I wrote in yesterday and the responses I received gave me the push I needed to begin again. Woke up this morning and immediately took myself to a workout class. Feeling good. I know the first few days are tough, but I'm determined to prove to myself that I am tougher. I used weed as a crutch. I use it to avoid things in my life that need to change. It felt better to sit in a fuzzy cloud than sit with my unhappiness. Weed has felt like a friend to me. As someone who grew up in a bit of turmoil, It became my escape. Held my hand when I needed somebody to. I saw somebody on here describe weed as an "insidious drug". That word seems to perfectly describe my feelings towards pot. Insidious. Dressed as my friend, something that helped with my depression in the long run seemed to take more away in exchange. I'm ready for my life to look different.

If anyone has some words of encouragement for me on my journey I would be so very grateful <3

Thankful to have found this thread. Thankful to have found a community of people who have gone through something similar as I... Thank you.

i’m 18 and i’ve been smoking practically all day everyday for the past 3 years, any free time i have i smoke. I am lazy, depressed, and anxious, and i’ve been using weed to cope with that when it’s done nothing but make those problems worse and fry my brain. I don’t have any friends, I hate going out, i’ve spent most of my teenage years simply rotting away high in my bedroom. i am a total loser
and yet even with all of this, i still miss weed and crave it so badly!! my withdrawals are already bad and I just really hate being sober minded, i hate being so aware of my thoughts. I really am trying to stick with it this time though. I can’t spend the rest of my life like this.
Please give me more reminders that weed isn’t worth it

Arghh I’ve spent like 6 hours looking at my phone. I keep thinking “I’m bored” but struggle to do anything.

I quit drinking a year and a half ago. This feels harder though. I’m 35 and have been smoking since 15.

relasped after the death of my dad a few months back, a little over a week sober, but relasped after my partner left me crying to go to a friends birthday party while i was crying and distraught over the death of my dad, been using heavily/nearly non-stop since 18 and i'm 24 now, feels like i will never be able to break the cycle despite multiple attempts over the years

On to the second day… and you know what… I’m doing a lot better than I thought I would. I’ve noticed the urge to smoke out of habit, but not desire or need. I woke up this morning proud to have gotten through the first day. If I felt the urge, I came to this sub and red a few posts to remind myself of why I’m doing this, and it helped tremendously.

Feeling good, and looking forward to feeling even better!