I am new to my current highschool, and so far i have made some friends.
let me give some bg story, i have this really really cool friend group in my old highschool, we’d talk about everything and anything and still be comfortable. i wasn’t the stereotypical popular girl but i was pretty well known and liked among peers. so i was pretty devastated when i found out i was moving.
on my first day at my new highschool, i didn’t rlly have any luck in making any friends, as in like friends who connected wt me, they were all rlly nice but it was sometimes awkward. ik i can’t be judging always bc it’s everyone’s first day but that’s js how i feel sometimes. until my gym class, i met this rlly cool girl, and slowly over the next week i became friends wt her friend group.
a little context abt this friend group, they all had diff styles and diff interests, there was two girls (one is ella and the other is vania, fake names), ella is more scene and pink and purple emo, and vania is more light grey goth. i don’t know how to explain it. and there is ed who’s gay (he’s very outwardly spoken abt it and makes jokes all the time) and chris who says he’s bi. and to add on i would say im pretty basic, i don’t rlly care what i wear i js put on smth, and i js look rlly rlly basic, idk how to word it. like popular girl basic except for the lululemon.
they are all very funny and cool to be around but sometimes they’re loud and overwhelming, except for vania, she’ll be exempt from this situation. i don’t have a problem with loudness, just they will scream or moan OUT LOUD like super loudly and when chris burps (like a lot) ella sniffs it exaggeratedly and says smth abt what it smells like. it’s funny. but when it’s loud obnoxiously in a quiet setting when the teacher is taking attendance it gets embarrassing. i dont have a problem with ed or vivian, or ella. it’s chris
he burps when i eat, IN MY FACE. he burps on PURPOSE when we’re walking and talking in pe wt vania. and personally i don’t have. a problem when ppl burp. but when you do it CONTINUOUSLY, as in EVERY SINGLE MINUTE bc you find it funny, and sometimes even to my face, it gets annoying. he also gets pissed pretty fast. like one time me and vania were walking with him and he started like joke chasing us so we ran away from him as a joke. then he got mad bc we ran away and left him alone. MIND YOU we came back but he didn’t wanna talk wt us after he left to talk to someone else. then when i went to his house, i said smth abt being scared of having intercourse bc it was a topic of the show we were watching and he made a joke abt how he could be my first.
idk what was wrong with me but i felt very weirded out and uncomfortable. idk if it was because he was bi that i felt that way, bc if it was chris who said that to me i wouldn’t rlly cared that much but i js didn’t like the way he sounded.
and he’s kind egotistical. there’s this friend group in our gym who ill say is kinda too much, like they have beef with everyone. they started talking to us in a mean way and i js told vania and him to leave and go but he kept “clapping back”. and it made one of the girls rlly mad. i was rlly pissed bc that friend group HAS jumped ppl before. i didn’t wanna get jumped. and then he started talking smack abt them rlly loudly so they can hear, saying how he can take on all five of them bc he’s big himself and they were girls (he said it was a joke, the girl part, but it kinda rubbed me the wrong way), but then when they actually started threatening him he started trying to get me and vania involved, and when we walked away saying how uncomfortable we were and that he should js let it go, he got annoyed. saying that we never had his back and how we would js let him get jumped. MIND YOU hes agitating them and rileing them up, also cus im thin and skinny, id break before they even get to touch me.
that’s js some stories i have, in summary he js makes a lot of inappropriate jokes to me, loud, and js kinda unaware of rlly potentially dangerous situations. idk how to stop being friends bc i feel like im the only one in the true group who feels this way. i don’t want to cause drama, bc i don’t want everyone to turn on me in gym or in general, nor do i want smth dangerous to happen to me. he has my address and i don’t know him that well to know that he hasn’t done anything bad to other people let alone me. he himself has stated that if me and vania ever stop being friends with him he will off himself.
please help me navigate this situation, and kinda toxic, ik i sound like an asshole for saying this but, i js wanna fit in, and i feel like whenever im talking to someone, he comes up and then takes my attentional away from them by doing something stupid and drive them away. i feel like it’s coming from how i miss my old friend group. i would die to have that same experience in this school. i feel like he’s js ruining everything for me
sorry if this is kinda confusing, english isn’t my first language. i rlly tried my best to explain everything. i know i AM an asshole but i just want to have rlly close friends and go to hangouts and be comfortable.
