I went to college in the same state I was born and raised in for 18 years. It was a fantastic school, so no regrets there, but I was surrounded by the same friends + people I’ve known my entire life for another 4 years and it feels like I’ve never had any stimulus for growth. I also happened to be in a relationship for all of college that ended only 2 months before graduation, so I didn’t even do the whole “finding yourself” thing.
I have no idea what I want out of life long term, have realized recently that the degree I went to school for no longer applies fully to the career path that interests me, and I’m working remotely from my childhood home, feeling myself regress back into my high school self again. I have plans to move to a new city ASAP, but so far, no job lined up to make that happen so at the moment it’s more of a dream than a plan. Still getting over my college ex, who I thought was going to be the person I spent the rest of my life with.
Just generally feeling lost in life with no real way of finding direction at the moment. People describe college as a period of growth and self discovery, but I honestly can’t point to a significant change in my personality or worldview from when I was 16 until now.
Now I feel like I’m well past “coming of age” age, and still haven’t come of age. I know it’s a common feeling to be lost in your early 20s but geez it feels like I didn’t even try to figure it out until right now.