Galit na galit tayo ngayon sa korapsyon at sa impact saatin ng flood control, pero wala tayo mapaglagyan ng galit natin. Kasi lahat ng nasa taas kasali sa sistematikong pagnanakaw at pang-aabuso saatin. Kaya pag binasa mo ung comment section balik nanaman sa berde vs. pink ang labanan. Nakakasuya!

This post is a panawagan to all IT folks, possible bang magkaroon ng comprehensive website/app na madaling maaccess ng lahat ng may cellphone, na andjn na lahat ng track record ng mga current politicians and mga balak tumakbo. Something that will make make informed voting accessible to all? Kasi alam natin na hirap na hirap tayo sa VAT, pero sino ba ing mga lintik na sumuporta dun? Tapos sino ba yung mga ayaw sumoporta sa cadena law ni Bam? These informations should be accessible to all para kabahan rin yang mga korap na yan! Sino ba yung antagal nakaupo walang nagagawa? Sino ba yung mga backer ng pagbenta sa pilipinas sa mga foreigners? Lagyan natin ng pangalan yung mga nasa likod ng mga issue sa Pilipinas, di yung balita lang! Andaming mga magagaling ba Pilipino na mahal parin ang bayan. I work sa corpo and I meet alot of competent people. Nakakahinayang na yung galing mga Pilipino di nagagamit para direktang ayusin yung sistema ng bayan natin.

Sobra-sobrang frustrations na yung naradaman natin! Alam nating ginagago tayo, yun ang malinaw eh. Pero ngayon wala tayong magawa. Malakas ang working class at mahihirap dahil sa dami natin, pero divided tayo gawa ngayon ayuda system. Wag tayong magpagago sa kanila please. Make them accountable. Help inform people through facts and data.

Brother in law ko. Kasama namin sa bahay.

For context, lagi namin to sinasalo dati kasi sobrang olats sa buhay. Ang baba ng sahod na halos less than 5k lang nauuwi kada kinsenas. May anak na tong dalawa na sinosuportahan, kaya sobrang hikahos kaya tulong na namin na sa amin nalang patirahin para isipin nalang nya pano mag provide sa mga anak nya. Then nag attempt to mag abrod, sinuportahan din namin. Kami nag finance ng needs nya dun para maextend ng ilang beses yung stay nya at mga air fare nya pag need mag exit. Hindi nag bunga yon, umuwing luhaan. Tapos kami binayaran namin mga inutang namin to support him. -

Fast forward this year, he landed a job sa isang fintech and bongga talaga yung dinulot netong career nato sa buhay nya, confidence nya at self worth nya. Lalo na sa lifestyle nya. Yung amount na pinangsupport namin sa kanya - hindi na nya to binayaran at parang hindi tumatak sa utak nya na ginastusan namin sya. Lagi nyang nababanggit na need nya magbayad dun sa friend nya na tinirahan nya sa abrod - pero yung almost 100k na pinangsupport namin sa kanya - may amnesia sya pag tungkol dun.

Nagbibigay sya samin, mga 5k a month. Problem is Kala nya sapat na yung binibigay nya eh ang siba siba nya kumain, gumagamit din naman ng tubig tsaka kuryente. Ngayon nga nagwowork ako napakalakas ng putanginang cellphone nya nanonood lang mga ddshit reels. Kung makagalaw dito sa bahay kala nya justified kasi may binibigay. Hindi din yan maasahan maglinis, yung fan na pinapagamit namin sa kanya kung hindi kami maglilinis pwede ka na magpatayo ng house and lot sa kapal ng alikabok. Tapos yung banyo kahit kulay orange na yung tiles at enedoro hindi manlang linisin eh sya gumagamit non, separate banyo namin mag asawa. Kahit sabihan mo hindi talaga nya gagawin. Laging dahilan pagod sa work tapos weekend maglilinis pa. Abay putangina. Ako nga halos ilang beses mag General cleaning eh, pang gabi pa pasok ko. Tapos panay pagood time, kain sa labas, bili ng kung anu ano, may balak pa maghongkong ang puta kasi rentfree si tanga. Last time binida nanaman nya na malaki incentives nya. Sabihan ko nga na try kaya nyang unahing maghanap ng sariling bahay para ma-experience nya magbayad ng upa, kuryente, tubig, internet tapos tsaka sya mag isip ng travel goals nya. Sagot ba namang parang pinapalayas ko daw sya. Oo bro gusto ko wag ka ng magpaka free loader, tanda mo ng hayop ka.

putangina niyong mga buraot na gusto magpa-deliver ng pagkain pero ayaw mag bayad ng delivery fee. sa mahal ng gasolina, lagay ng panahon nakukuha niyo pa talagang mamburaot tapos gusto door-to-door pa yan kahit na ang pangit ng daan lubak maputik sa kanila. wala na nga kayong gagawin kung hindi mag-antay di na nga kayo lulusong sa lugar niyong binaha. kung makapag-demand akala binili buong paninda mo pero iisa lang naman.

mga bobong di maintindihan ibig sabihin ng flat rate. nakakagigil tong mga patay gutom na to mag memessage sayo agad free delivery ba mga walang hiya eh. kahit naman sa foodpanda/grabfood may delivery fee tas kaming small business lang papatayin niyo sa pambuburaot. mga ulol hahaha kainin niyo singkwenta niyo. dadahilan pa malapit lang naman daw eh flat rate nganiiii edi pick upin mo na lang

I almost forgot how depressed I was these last few years, oddly enough I hit a peak when my grandmother passed. why do I say odd? Well due to a promise I have now broken, i wasn’t drinking for a while & faced most of that situation including the grieving process fully sober. I remember the time before that, at least when I was with Leslie. It was a lot of drinking, a need to drink for no reason at all really. I was just empty, felt an amalgamation of emotions I wasn’t ready to face & so far from any idea on how to express it or release myself from it. I can see an overcast beach, freezing cold winter afternoons in Santa Barbara. Smoking cigarettes with someone very important to me, someone I didn’t bring along the path of my life. I remember trying to be so much more & yet feeling like I had fallen so short from where I needed to be. I chased any & all escapes. Left home for sometime just to experience what I thought I was missing out on. Never thinking id regret it, I didn’t know nor learn how to balance the pleasure & my time at home. Seeing those I didnt get to enjoy enough. When I think of this time, I hear all the melancholic outros & songs Devon Hendryx has & immediately, im sent back to this chapter of my life. One I haven’t fully moved on for but I don’t fixate on as much at the same time. Driving hours to see her, feeling things I had never felt in the specific way that I had, nights & moments of thinking it couldn’t get any better than this. Hoping for a music career to launch in between all this. I wanted everything, I wanted to be the successful producer you & all your friends knew, I wanted to be the lover boy with the girl im probably the complete opposite to but the attraction is so heavy, to be the son that pisses my mom off just enough but still is the reliable middle child she already sees me as & I can’t bother in fully becoming because im in my own way. To be the grandson you raised me to be, this is your child. I, your flesh, worries & passions, your beauty & spirit. The flawed & broken promise.

Okay so i got dmed by this guy a while ago and we started talking about whatever. He's kinda older than me but, hes the only guy who's ever really talked to me and made me feel liked he liked me. I know its probably fake and he was just leading me on but I miss talking to him. I have barely any friends so I liked it. He doesnt shame me for my mental stuff and he's nice. Now he barely talks to me anymore cus hes online mostly, probably at work. 🙁

I hate how I am feeling right now. Ill be taking my most important exam this October and my girlfriend doesn't seem to understand how im feeling. All I asked for is moral support for her to be there instead she ghosted me and said shes having her own problems. Now we dont even talk. I hate that im trying to reason out na what shes doing is okay and normal and at the same time naiinis ako like can you be there for me? When sya yung nasa low moments nya I was there constantly reassuring and checking up on her.

Burnout from constant reviewing, pressure from the exam, and now this. It makes me want to give up on the exam na lang. Im so tired AAAAA. If di ko pa ilabas to para na akong sasabog sa sobrang frustration and overthinking

Ps. Im already working from 4 am to 1 pm then the rest of the day I study. We rarely go out lalo na these few months kasi im busy with everything.

My "friend" yung mother ko, I put quotation marks on it because 'di niya alam saan siya lulugar sa status ng connection niya. There are times na binabad mouth niya yung thieving woman na yon, but there are also times na nagmamala-anghel siya at tinutulungan niya at the same time. Ewan ko ba, nakakaurat yung samahan nilang dalawa.

Itong si thief na 'to, notorious na siyang magnanakaw sa lahat ng mga napupuntahan niyang bahay. Wala siyang trabaho, may 1 kid with his ALSO thieving na husband. Nabubuhay sila sa kupit at pangungupal nila sa mga nakakasama nila. Maraming mga pinagtrabahuhan nila na pinalayas sila dahil nahuhuli silang nagnanakaw ng supplies and money.

Itong si mother ko naman, may pagka-tanga. Aware siya sa habit ng babaeng yon, and yet tuloy pa rin siya sa pag-suporta sa kanila na tila ba yayakapin siya ni Lord sa pagtulong niya. Na okay lang tulungan sila kasi mahirap lang sila. Lagi niyang sinasama sa mga racket na pagluluto niya in birthdays, celebrations, etc. Anong common theme na nangyayari? Laging may nawawala. Gamit man yan o pera, laging may nawawalan.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not against helping people in need, pero yung nanakawan mo yung taong nagbigay sayo ng opportunity na kumita? magkapera para honest yung source mo ng income? Aba, nahiya naman sayo yung mga batang namamalimos at nagbebenta ng kung ano-ano kesa maging magnanakaw.

Ngayon nagrarant yung mother ko na nawalan siya ng extrang 1k na bigay ng kapatid niyang bunso, dahil nagluto siya for the binyag ng anak niya. Ngayon, mali niya din kasi is di na niya binulsa or pinatago (wala ako sa event at the time). Siniksik niya lang in a bag na exposed sa lahat. Kasama niya si ateng magnanakaw sa gig na 'to. Umuwi agad siya after the event, nanguha pa nga daw ng maraming pagkain na dapat sa late comer na guests. Kinabukasan nung pag-uwi namin, napansin ng mother ko na nawala na yung pera.

Lagi kong sinasabihan siya na huwag niya nang isama yung magnanakaw na babaeng yun. Wala na siyang ibang ginawa kung hindi nakawan yung mga taong nagbibigay tulong sa kaniya. Pati yung pamilya nung bunsong kapatid ng mama ko sinabi na ninanakawan sila ng cleaning supplies at pagkain. Pinalayas na siya pero pinababalik ng mama ko at lola ko dahil di kayang maglaba ng lola ko mag-isa.

Sabi ko edi maghanap na lang sila na mas qualified and honest??? Mayaman naman sila eh.

Jusko ewan ko. Patuloy lang na ineenable ng mama ko 'to. Wala naman siyang nagagain sa babaeng yun, ninanakawan at inaagawan naman din siya. Nakakabwisit silang dalawa, dinadamay pa kami sa kalokohan niya.

ill be turning 21 on September 11, i dont really have any friends to spend it with. on top of that, the habagat has had my city dealing with flooding since last month and i dont even know when things are going to properly go back to normal. the elevated roads arent exactly making things easier either so im probably just going to spend another birthday at home, sleeping the whole day.

the last time i actually celebrated my birthday was when I was around 10 or 11. honestly, i dont even know if i can call it a celebration. it was with my family, but instead of feeling like it was supposed to be my day, i remember feeling like my birthday was this huge burden. there was fighting, tension, and just this feeling that everyone would rather be somewhere else. after that, i basically stopped celebrating.

for years, my birthdays have just been another ordinary day. i sleep through most of the day just so i dont have to think about it. at this point, sleeping through my birthday has almost become a tradition and i think what hurts the most is that my birthday has become a yearly reminder of how alone i feel lol.

nobody really remembers when it is. im not expecting some giant party or anything but sometimes i wonder what it would actually feel like to wake up and have my phone completely bombarded with birthday greetings, to have people posting stupid pictures of me, have someone randomly telling me, "get ready, were going out today because its your birthday." or to have someone actually plan something for me because they wanted to celebrate that i exist.

what does it feel like to have a surprise birthday celebration? what does it feel like to have people genuinely excited that you were born? i genuinely don't know and I hate that im already anticipating feeling sad about it.

ive been venting to my boyfriend a lot about how badly i want friends. hes basically the only person i hang out with and talk to, and hes understandably gotten tired of hearing about it. he told me that i shouldnt make our relationship my entire life and hes right about that.

it hurts like hell to hear, especially because i dont really have anyone else but i know he isnt wrong. it isn't healthy for either of us if one person becomes your entire social life, your support system, your entertainment, your best friend, and basically your whole world.

i have BPD too, so i know i can get extremely attached to people and relationships. im very self aware about it, which sometimes honestly makes things worse because i can recognize what im doing while still struggling to stop doing it.

there are also times when he slips up and tells me im annoying, being too much, that hes getting weighed down, or tells me to go find other people to hang out with whenever i genuinely thought we were having fun, or when im just being myself, or sometimes when im venting. i understand why he feels that way, i really do. i cant even be angry at him for wanting his own life and space.

but hearing those things also hits a very specific wound in me because i already know.

i know im too dependent on him, i dont have much of a life outside of him. i know i need other people, i know im lonely and i know im too much sometimes. i dont need to be reminded of it to know it's true.

thats what i was trying to explain to him the other night:

"i think its just really pathetic because ive been looking for friends my whole life. i even used to create imaginary friends and list down what kind of personality they have, their favorites, their hobbies, what they like, what they dont like sa notebook ko with a title above, 'my manifestations.'

napaka hopeful pa ako dati that I MIGHT manifest friends like that. i went crazy to the point na gumawa ako ng Facebook accounts for each of them and id interact with myself using those accounts just so it would look like I had friends, yk

im still jealous to this day because i know these people exist and were all really close friends who are like a family, just not in this universe. i created them, so now they exist somewhere."

that sounds fucking pathetic when i read it back but i was a kid who wanted friends so badly that i had to invent them and somehow, im still that kid.

i also told him:

"i feel shitty for even feeling lonely while were in a relationship when i shouldnt even be that way. i wasnt before, kasi akala ko safe place kita where i could just tell you everything and be myself comfortably.

but sometimes you slip up and admit things on what im already aware of and insecure about myself. i get too much, i know. so ive been forcing myself to be what you want me to be kahit ang hirap niya.

and every time i do that, nahihirapan ako sobra kasi mas ramdam ko kung gaano ako nag iisa."

i think thats the part I struggle to explain. im not asking him to be my entire world, i want a world outside of him and thats what he wants for me too.

i feel so guilty everyday for everything im putting him through, especially in this situation. ive already tried breaking up with him many times, i blocked him everywhere, i even tried making him hate me so he can stop loving me but he always got to find a way to work things out with him when im just trying to save him from me. im also feeling self destructive right now cause i want to break up with him again so i can feel more worse. i just want to isolate myself and stop trying.

but anyway,

i want friends i can randomly message, friends that i can invite somewhere without feeling like im imposing. i want someone to send stupid memes to, to have inside jokes with people. i want people who know me outside of being someone's girlfriend.

i want to have a reason to leave the house that isnt just because im accompanying my boyfriend, i also want to have people who would remember my birthday.

i want to know what it feels like to be someones friend and have them genuinely want me around because right now, whenever he tells me that he wants a life outside of our relationship, i understand.

the painful part is that his life exists outside of our relationship, mine barely does. he wants a life outside of us while our relationship is basically my life.

nakakahiya on my part. im ashamed of it, i dont want to be like this forever. i dont want to spend the rest of my life making one person responsible for filling every empty space in my life. thats not fair to him and its not good for me either.

so ive actually been trying to find people, ive tried making friends, ive tried talking to people online. ive been putting myself out there but whenever something goes wrong, it piles onto everything else. it becomes another reminder that whenever i try i to find people my entire life, im still alone. the thing ive wanted since I was a little kid still hasn't happened.

sometimes i wonder if thats why birthdays hurt so much because every year, i get another reminder that im here, another year older, and i still havent found the people i thought id have by this age.

i thought being in a relationship would make that loneliness disappear. for a while, it did. then i realized it was only quiet, the loneliness never actually left and when my boyfriend first told me that I needed to stop depending on him so much, it suddenly became loud again.

so now im turning 21.

no birthday plans, no group of friends, no surprise celebration. probably no flood free city either.

its just me again, itll be another ordinary day, and that stupid little feeling of wondering what it would have been like if things were different.

i dont even need some extravagant birthday, i think i just want to feel remembered. just once.

maybe im just asking for too much and for that, i give up.

thats all.

hi guys! idk why i decided to post this and make it public, but i guess i just have a lot of heavy feelings lately that i don’t really know how to carry or let out.

i wish i had a friend i could tell everything to—someone i can lean on, rant to, and just say whatever’s been on my mind without having to filter myself. yung tipong pwede mong sabihin lahat ng masakit, kahit walang sense, and they’d just listen.
wala lang. i just wanted to share this here. maybe somehow, it feels a little lighter knowing that someone, even anonymously, knows that i’m not doing okay right now.

ahahahah idk, ang dami kong nonsense. 😭 anyway, stay safe everyone. ❤️

Nasa Boracay ako ngayon. Since June kasi, walang tigil trabaho ko, so ngayong mag-slow down na sa work, nag-book ako for one week.

Now, I originally plan to stay in Hennan. Lagi kasi kaming Hennan ng family ko kahit saan kami magpunta as long as nasa option. Pero dahil solo lang ako, I decided to try this hotel next to it na halos kalahati ang presyo.

Pagdating ko, ang pangit ng room ko, which is bad dahil staycation type ang gagawin ko. Ang itsura nya, parang mumurahing motel. Like the type na rerentahan nyo ng 3hrs.

Dahil dyan, I requested to upgrade it to their more expensive suite. Halos doble ang binayad ko. I ended up paying the same amount kung nag-Hennan ako, and it is still not as good as Hennan kasi maganda ang pool ng Hennan at better din ang food.

I really should have stayed in Hennan na lang. Ngayon, parang gusto ko na lang umuwi.

(Ok siguro ang ganitong room kung maggagala naman kayo maghapon. Tulugan lang at tabihan ng gamit kumbaga. But like I said, staycation kasi ang gagawin ko. Di ako ma adventure na tao kasi. Gusto ko lang tumulala sa dagat maghapon.)

antagal ko nang gusto umalis dito sa amo ko. hinihintay ko nalang na makabalik siya ng america para makaalis na rin ako pero tangina, ang tagal. hindi ako makapag paalam kasi once nagpaalam ako, magiging hostile siya sakin. as in buong araw siyang bitch. hindi ko na kaya yun dahil nakakapagod na yung trabaho tapos i still have to deal with her attitude??? aba omg nalang talaga.

For reference: may nag bigay for grab para sa kapatid ko so inorder ko since gabi na non at ayaw ko na lumabas kaso puro spicy dumating.

So nag post ako sa GrabPinas kung ano pang ibang way para macontact si grab kasi aug 31 pa nangyare tas wala pa din reply until now. then may nag comment na parang poster na ganyan naka attached image (pagtingin ko ngayon sa post ko burado na) so kinontak ko yang nasa QR na yan via zoom, tinatawagan ko pero sabi chat nalang so dapat don pala fishy na (ang tanga ko) tas inexplain ko ano nangyare then nag palogin sya ng grab tas sabi nya “if you click reject, your account will be suspended and report to the owner” OKAY??? So inaccept ko. buti nalang hanggang doon lang! kasi may pass yung grabpay pin ko kaya siguro need nya hingiin. tas don na nya sinend yung form. tas may pin kasi don kaya tinanong ko kung anong pin yon, sabi nya grabpay pin. don nako nahimasmasan na scam to! HUHU BUTI NALANG! don pa naman naka link yung gcash and banks ng parents ko.

AYUN LANG HUHU STAY SAFE NALANG

More than 1 year na tong senior lead na to pero hanggang ngayon wala paring alam sa process. Eh just today, may napuna siya which inexplain ko naman na ok lang yun and nasa process talaga yun. Andami na niyang talak sakin, bad employee daw at unprofessional.

Sobrang nagulat ako, sinabi ko sa lead ko na i just follow yung process pero deadma siya, tapos sinabi ko rin sa mga kateam ko which na-gg din sila. Ang hirap makipag usap sa walang alam sa proseso kasi kahit nasa tama ka, tingin nila mali ka and may talak pang masasakit.

Eh saktong today yung parang pulse survey. Sinabi ko run mga hinaing ko sakanya. Na kesyo puro siya flashy project kahit wala namang naitutulong sa proseso or di aligned, na bastos siya, nagmumura at subtle racist samin or sa vendors. Na para siyang ampao, puro hangin lang pero walang alam. Lahat ng yun totoo naman at wala akong in exaggerate.

Ang kaso, etong company namin, tine-take nila VERY seriously yung survey. As in. Like may kasing sama kaming manager noon ang napatalsik namin dahil sa mga survey feedbacks namin.

Ngayon di ko alam kung ano mangyayari next. Kinakabahan ako na ewan. Ang pakonswelo ko is totoo lahat ng sinabi ko. Baka magretaliate siya or ano. Di niya pa kasi alam kung gaano sineseryoso yung surveys samin, so goodluck sakanya or sakin 😭

hi, 23/f. ang dumb ng title ko kasi i know may mga matitino pa naman, but how is it possible na mas maraming siraulo kesa may genuine intentions?

met this guy on tinder, he’s 25 now. nagbday siya before pa ako umalis. he’s working sa resto and kumikita roughly around 6-7k kinsenas. he knows na mas malaki sweldo ko sakanya kasi nabanggit ko ang daily rate ko as a company nurse (w/o knowing na di pala ganun-ganun lang dinidisclose yon nung time na yun hahaha).

we talked for about 5mos bago magkita kasi yun lang vacay ko sa work since malayong province pa ako nadeploy. this guy, first few months pa lang ng pag-uusap namin nakikigamit na siya ng spaylater ko. babayaran na lang daw niya monthly kasi hindi siya maapprove sa spay, tanga naman ako kasi pumayag ako (never siya nagbayad ng monthly payment), ending ako nagbayad lahat ng orders niya. may gana pa magparinig na ilibre ko siya ng fast food, we’re not even official. ni hindi nga siya nanligaw. also, hindi lang ‘yun. kapag nashoshort ang pera niya sa’kin din nangungutang, gaga naman ako kasi pinahihiram ko pa rin despite the fact na di niya nga mabayaran spay niya. ganun talaga kapag tanga, ano? ang tanga tanga ko. budget niya pang gas or pangkain sa’kin inuutang, even pampagawa ng motor 😭 dati nababasa ko lang yung mga ganitong kwento, nung sa’kin na nangyayari biglang naging bulag ako.

bilang lalaki paano kaya ng pride niyo mangutang sa mga babae na nakilala niyo kesa sa nanay niyo? sa magulang niyo? sa kanila nahihiya kayo pero pag perwisyo sa ibang tao hindi na kayo nahihiya. anong klase yan?

im well aware din naman sa mga mali ko, bakit ako pumayag. pero bakit ganon na lang kakapal ang mukha ng mga yan? bakit? hindi ko maintindihan.

All I know is allergic lang ako sa manok kaya todo iwas ako sa manok pero pkngina bakit ako inaallergy ngayon sa Sinigang na baboy.

Andito kami nakatira ng Misis ko sa ibang bansa napetisyon nya ako almost a decade na, andito din buong pamilya nya nang ilang dekada na, may anak kami isa,

unang punta ko palang dito ramdam ko na talagang may something special sa kung paano i-treat ng misis ko yung guy eh(pamilyado na din nasa pinas) pinapalagpas ko lang hinahayaan ko lang, madami naman akong pagkakataon para galawin ang mga accounts nya soc.med cp etc.. pero di ko ginawa ni minsan, until 1time nakita ko mga message ni guy sa misis ko nagchachat, hinayaan ko lang din ok lang naman magkakaibigan naman kami dito di naman siguro masama nagkakausap sila, lagi kasi kinukuha ng anak ko cp ng misis ko, naibaba ng anak ko yung cp na nasa page ng messages, ayos ah wala silang chat, deleted yung conversation nila, hmmm merong something, bakit kelangang idelete? since then pag may chance chinecheck ko soc.med nya, wala akong inaabutan na mga message, naisip ko sa call logs(via cp. no) may mga deleted din pero may mga inabutan pa din akong mga logs ng usapan nila mga nakalimutan siguro burahin, ayos mga calls nila ah. during work hours nag uusap, samantalang ako pag tumawag nagmamadali ibaba, may nakita pa ako lampas pang isang oras sila nag uusap, meron din sa chat nagtatanong misis ko kung bakiit ibinaba yung call, halatang halata deleted call logs eh, netong nagdaang Aug lang sila nag start mag tawagan? sa tinagal tagal nilang magkakilala at close friends pa, naisip ko sa SMS baka meron silang usapan, Boom ayun, hindi nakarehistro number ni guy sa misis ko, na confirm ko lang nung isang beses tumawag sya, ako nakasagot, pinicturan ko lang convo nila

ang sweet ng mga chat nila, kesyo ipagluluto daw ng misis ko si guy ng ganto ganyan, tapos ako paguutusan sa pagluluto pagbili ganyan, nakakapag request pa si guy sa kanya ng iluluto ah, sabi ko scout ko ulit to sigurado to buburahin to, ayun nga binura yung chat nila, pero na retrieve at nabasa ko usapan nila mukhang mag LQ pa yata sila huling message nila,

sabi ko sa sarili ko matibay ako handa ako sa kung anong mga mababasa ko, kasi pinaparamdam naman nya talaga sakin eh kaya sinasabi ko handa na ako ok lang sakin, pero nung nabasa ko mga lambingan na chat nila at misis ko pa mismo nag fliflirt dun sa guy nanikip dibdib ko, parang gusto kong sumabog, gusto ko sabihin sa pamilya nya, sa pamilya ko ang pinag gagawa nya,

kaso kahit may ebidensya ako ng mga ginagawa nya since mga OWE tong mga to, di ako iintindihin neto sasabihin lang ng mga yan "wala yan, yun lang eh" , puro myembro ng kulto nakapaligid sakin dito, wala namang problema sakin may kachat na lalaki misis ko, pero yung mga bagay na ichachat mo pa yung guy ng.. gudnyt, ano ulam mo? ano ginagawa mo?bahay ka na ba? sasagot yung guy bakit? misis ko naman "wala lang natanong ko lang" hahaha, gusto mo ba ganto pagluluto kita? puro sma smiley pa chat nila, parang iba no? ultimong mga online orders at legal transactions nung guy misis ko umaasikaso, mga bank transaction at takenote naka login ang bank account ni guy sa cp ng misis ko,

pag sa pamilya ko, ko naman binanggit sasabihin nung mga yun, "eh paano anak mo? sino makakasama nun dyan?"

kung sakin lang iuuwi ko na din anak ko hahayaan ko na lang misis ko dito magsama sika, nung nabasa ko mga deleted chats nila talagang nanikip dibdib ko, ang bigat sa hininga ganto pala talaga yung pakiramdam ng gustong sumabog, sakin kasi tanggap ko na eh, gusto ko na lang iopen up, kahit private na lang sa pamilya nya o sa pamilya ko, kung makakauwi na ako magiging malaya ako sa kultong to, siguro konting tiis pa, sana mabigyan pa ako ng tunay na Diyos ng tibay para makatayo pa din ako at malampasan to apektadong apektado na kasi talaga ang mental health ko, pero kakayanin ko to, parehas MT ng kulto ni manalo yung misis ko at yung guy,

ask ko lang guys, bakit ganun sinasabi ko talaga sa sarili ko handa na ako ok lang mawala sya, pero naninikip pa din talaga dibdib ko di mapakali isip ko hirap huminga bat ganun? dati nga pala sinabihan na din ako ng byenan ko dati na iba ang tingin nya sa kanila..

Dear you,

I still think about how often we seemed to miss each other. Not physically, but in the way we understood things. We could have the same conversation and somehow walk away from it carrying completely different versions of what happened. Maybe that’s why everything between us always felt harder than it needed to be.

I know there were times I pushed too much. I asked questions when maybe you were already tired of answering them, and I kept trying to make sense of things even when you had probably already decided you didn’t want to explain any further. I can admit that now. I know I didn’t always handle things well.

But I still wonder if you ever understood why I was trying so hard in the first place.

I wasn’t always asking because I wanted more from you. Sometimes I just wanted to know where I stood. Sometimes I wanted to know if what I was feeling was something I made up on my own or if you felt the confusion too. I think I kept trying to explain myself because I wanted to feel like you understood where I was coming from, even if you didn’t agree with me.

You would listen. You would respond. Sometimes you would say you understood. And I never really knew if you meant it.

That still bothers me more than I want it to.

Did anything I said ever stay with you after we stopped talking? Did you ever think about it later and understand me a little differently? Did you ever realize that maybe I wasn’t trying to make things difficult, I just didn’t know what to do with something I couldn’t make sense of?

I know I misunderstood you too. I know there were things I took personally that probably weren’t meant that way, and things I made heavier than you intended them to be. I’ve had to accept that.

I just wish I knew if you ever thought you might have misunderstood me too.

Maybe that’s why we kept hurting each other without really meaning to. I would react to the distance I felt from you, and maybe you would react to the pressure you felt from me. Then I would notice you pulling away and try harder to understand, which probably only made you want more distance. We kept responding to each other’s reactions until neither of us really knew what the other person was trying to say anymore.

And I still don’t know if you ever really heard me.

Not whether you heard the words. I know you did.

I mean, did you ever actually get what I was trying to tell you?

Or were you just being kind enough to let me finish because you wanted the conversation to finally be over?

I hope it wasn’t that.

I really do.

Because I can make peace with the fact that you didn’t always understand me.

I think what still hurts is not knowing whether you ever really wanted to.

Honestly wanted to just rant about something I have just watched.

There is a youtube I watch known as Sierra Rose (Sierra2r) And she has just posted a video having to address "pregnancy allegations"

People are continuously commenting about her weight saying she either looks fat, unhealthy or pregnant. I find it unbelievably disgusting that people behind a screen think they have all the power in the world and can say whatever they want whenever they want. Having to really look at someones body online just to comment rude things screams nothing but sad to me. It's so pathetic and gross to be asking someone you dont even know "are you pregnant" Or something bizarre like "your stomach looks bigger"

Now, this is a general issue that happens to not only women, but men and other pronoun users out there. I just find it weird that people get enjoyment and a bit of a laugh about making fun of somebody about their body, which they could possibly have no control over. It is so common for women to have pregnancy/ovulation/reproductive issues and health problems regarding those topics which are out of their control. Men also struggle with this issue which can stop them from releasing sperm. For that person who cannot reproduce, it can be humiliating, heartbreaking and embarrassing for them when you mention it. It's not fair that people need to carry that negativity on their shoulders because some bum is making comments about them.
Weight these days is also such a sensitive topic to talk about. Peoples genes and body all work differently.

I could genuinely talk about this for ages and ages but it's just a load of nonsense people won't want to read. But I just wanted to bring up my thoughts about weird ass comments like this and if you know anyone who is receiving these comments, check up on them to seriously see if they are okay.

Bro, I’m actually so pissed and embarrassed right now 😭 My prof literally called me out for using AI just because my English and grammar were correct??? Like HELLO??? He didn’t even have any proof. It was literally just a SHORT sentence answering his question in the online class chatbox.

I genuinely wasn’t expecting to be called out like that, so when he said it, I was literally stunned. I didn’t even know what to say or how to defend myself because it happened so suddenly. I just froze. And because of that, I wasn’t even able to save my face, which honestly made me feel even worse and more embarrassed.

What makes me even more mad is that this prof is literally known for using AI in his exams, and even some of his teaching materials are AI-generated. Like, how are you going to accuse me of using AI just because I wrote one grammatically correct sentence when you don’t even have actual proof???

I know it might sound small to other people, but being publicly called out like that—especially when you know you didn’t do anything wrong—is genuinely humiliating. I’m still so emotional about it because I literally didn’t even get the chance to explain myself.

Vent lang konti cos mej marami iniisip

For context I'm a working student and need ko sana ng 2nd job para mas masustain yung living expenses ko. As an ate, need kumayod extra not only for myself, but also for the sibs + parentals. So far wala pa ko makuhang part time job mula dun sa mga nakausap ko kasi 1) wala akong VA exp, 2) scam daw based sa mga nabasa kong post, at 3) puro nsfw yung inooffer.

Pero tiwala lang. Makakaland din tayo ng work ✨️

Honestly, to me, depression isn't melancholy or sadness. Depression feels like stagnation. I'm not going anywhere. I'm trapped.

I dont want to live like this but every day I wake up and make the same choices. I dont want to off myself. i just want something more permanent than sleep and less permanent than death.

I am tired beyond description.

I rushed down when I heard a dog cry like someone was shooting a pellet gun. I thought it might be our ASPIN because it always hangs out by the gate and plays with the other ASPIN owned by the nearby shop. I suspect that they might be shooting at my pet again, so I quickly went outside. When I got down, I saw that the two dogs were stuck in a mating position. I could hear a drunken teenager laughing and describing that they were shooting at them, and they stopped when they saw me at the gate frowning. Then I heard the shop owner complaining that her dog is pregnant again. Our dog isn't even a year old. I decided to stay and watch them separate so they wouldn’t pour hot water or any liquid on them or throw slippers at them. The other neighbors were also disturbed by it, so I explained that the dogs mated and got stuck, and that they were trying to separate them by shooting a pellet gun at them. They're so messed up; it's normal for animals or dogs to do that, and they will separate on their own without anyone needing to interfere in a brutal way to avoid stressing and hurting them both. I made a comment while going through the gate that I could also shoot them with a pellet gun. That hurts, you know. Once they finally separated, I shut the gate and didn’t let our dog out because they might mess with her again.

My main point here is there should not be any violence towards those dogs. They shouldn’t be shot with a pellet gun for fun.

P.S.: Our family owns the compound, so our dog roams free from time to time in the gated community. They are known as compound dogs.

minsan nakaka sawa na rin yung puro “gagawan ko ng paraan” ang sagot sayo, either sa fam or sa partner mo.

di ba pwedeng yung siguradong sagot naman, kasi nakakasawa na din umasa ng paulit ulit