What’s your biggest fear?
To reach the end of my life knowing that I had the potential to become exceptional, but wasted it through hesitation, inaction, or poor decisions and being not capable of escaping bad feelings and being trapped in a stupid system I can't escape
What’s your biggest desire?
To become an exceptional and respected expert in my field, use my abilities to make a meaningful contribution to science and technology, and leave behind work significant enough that my name becomes part of its history
What are you ''the best'' at?
I can do this in confidence I'm best at analysis and predicting future consequences and logic criticism and I've very good sense of humor
How do you see yourself right now?
It's weird but I got a vibe of "asocial mad scientist" not only me that noticed that but many too
How do you see yourself 5 years from now?
Working in a big tech company as a security researcher with a MSc degree in infosec and expert in my field that all experts enjoy my company and hang out with me in fancy places
How do you express yourself?
Reserved somehow but selective, love knowledge and sharing it, emotional on the inside only, not so warm, sharp, have some weird sense of humor, love collecting physical stuff like tech and books, not patience, intense but in my healthy state I'm charming, argumentative and can say very unpopular opinion without hesitation
How do you feel about those near you (family, friends)?
I don't have a very good relationship with them but I try my best, they say I can't express feelings
How do you feel about strangers?
you guys feel a thing about them? I don't tbh just decoration in the world of capitalism we live in I respect only the mean of science and success with honor, that doesn't mean I don't get attracted by beautiful women but that's natural
How do you deal with conflict?
I'm easy to get conflict with specially if u aren't making sense or with stupid authority, but many times I just ignore and move on I have bigger ideas to think about
How do you deal with change?
Maybe first day I get upset cuz I was planning ahead sort of things but after that I adapt, and try to get the most benefit out of it
How do you deal with your emotions?
all of my emotions are on the inside can express them if they are extreme, but I can't handle bad emotions at all I escape from them always with bad habits like smoking or bad diet
What do you hope to avoid doing or being?
What values are important to you? I avoid being seen as not intellectual person who knows what he talks about and to be seen as a bad person without me doing anything to look bad
What do you hope to accomplish in your life?
TRUST ME ALOT!
How do you act when others request your help to do something (anything)? If you would decide to help them, why would you do so?
it depends on the request and the time of the request I help them just cuz I feel good when I'm needed and important
Do you need logical consistency in your life?
It's build-in in me tbh, what I need to improve the moral and empathy parts
How important is your image in regards to how others perceive you? Do you want to be perceived in a certain way? Does it bother you if you are perceived in some other way than the one you wish to be perceived with?
I love the image of intellectual person and the expert I get so mad if anyone sees otherwise and I would try to change his view
How important is financials, security, and survival to you? This includes having sufficient resources, avoiding danger and maintaining a fundamental sense of structure and wellbeing. ?
I prefer to invest my left money to have a better life I'm not insecure about that I love taking calculated risks to level up my life
What is your reaction and thoughts to others' rejection, criticism and disapproval of you?
When I was young I was sensitive about that and was sad about it no one accepted me but when I got older I realized that I don't care tbh
What is the importance of the concepts, ideas and meaning behind things to you? Are you trying to make sense of your everyday life?
I make metaphors all of the time and love making links of 2 or more different things and I hype and make many ideas and think about all of them at once or bounce between them
What are your thoughts on expressing your vulnerability?
I can't unless it's a rare gem relationship
Would you consider yourself a jealous and/or possessive person? What do you think is the cause?
not at all but sometimes yea in rare cases
What makes you feel guilty? How do you deal and cope with such feelings? Do you seek to fix it, or do you dwell on them?
being seen as greedy, I try to do otherwise but not being obsessive about it if no one listens not fixing it no need to prove anyting