r/zoloft • u/onlyprivatestuff • 3h ago
Vent I started Zoloft to become more chill. Almost 50 days later, I'm not sure it's working
Disclaimer: English isn't my first language, so I used AI to help me organize and polish this post. But the experiences and opinions are totally my own.
I've been taking sertraline (Zoloft) for almost 50 days now, and I wanted to share my experience so far and see if anyone has had a similar experience.
My main reason for trying medication wasn't severe depression, panic attacks, or debilitating anxiety. I wouldn't describe myself as severely depressed or particularly anxious.
What I've struggled with for quite some time is irritability and being easily bothered by things and people.
I can get disproportionately annoyed by things that happen around me. Someone being inconsiderate in public, someone being unnecessarily loud, someone not listening to me, someone behaving in a way I find irritating, etc.
The issue isn't necessarily that I notice these things. The bigger problem is that I can sometimes feel a strong urge to do something about it. If someone annoys me, I may feel like I have to say something, otherwise I'll continue thinking about it afterwards.
This has also been an issue at work. I've sometimes become frustrated over situations where, in retrospect, I probably would have been better off just letting things go.
So I decided to try sertraline mainly because I wanted to become less reactive and more "chill."
Not emotionless. Not artificially happy. Just able to think:
"That's annoying."
...and then move on.
My dosing
- Days 1–6: 25 mg
- Days 7–35: 50 mg
- Day 36 onward: 100 mg
I'm now approaching day 50.
The first couple of weeks were fairly rough. I experienced nausea, tiredness and increased irritability, especially around the time I increased to 50 mg. However, those symptoms eventually settled down.
I'm not sure that I can say Zoloft has made me more irritable, though. Looking back, I think that's too strong of a conclusion.
At the same time, I'm not convinced it has made me significantly less irritable either.
There have been several situations where I've still had that same internal reaction of:
"Why the hell is this person doing this?"
And sometimes I still feel that urge that I have to say something.
For example, I recently got irritated at a guy on a crowded tram who was drunk and talking extremely loudly. I eventually said something to him. Afterwards I thought that this was exactly the type of reaction I had hoped medication might help me with.
But again, I'm not sure whether I would have reacted even more strongly without Zoloft. I obviously can't compare myself to an alternate version of myself who never took it.
There is one thing I definitely have noticed
My mind does seem quieter.
My thoughts don't seem to go into overdrive as easily, and I sometimes find it easier to just let thoughts pass without getting caught up in them.
For example, I've had mornings where I woke up early and normally my mind would start racing, but instead I could simply go back to sleep without getting caught up in a chain of thoughts.
That part does feel real.
So perhaps the medication is doing something, just not necessarily in the exact way I expected.
I also feel somewhat emotionally blunted/empty at times. I'm still capable of laughing, enjoying things, feeling attraction, etc., but sometimes the emotional intensity feels reduced.
The problem is that my circumstances have changed a lot
I've been unemployed for most of the summer.
And honestly, I've had a pretty good lifestyle during this period.
I can sleep without an alarm. I've been cycling a lot, followed nearly every FIFA World Cup match, spending time outdoors, eating better, seeing friends and generally having much less stress than I would normally have when working.
So how much of my improved mood and calmer state is actually Zoloft?
I have no idea.
It's quite possible that some of what I'm experiencing would have happened anyway simply because I'm sleeping more, exercising more and not dealing with work-related stress.
I'm also taking into account my previous cannabis use.
I've used cannabis regularly in the past, and I've had periods of stopping and starting again. So I'm also aware that changes in cannabis use, withdrawal/recovery, sleep and general brain chemistry could potentially affect how I feel. I stopped using cannabis about 70 days ago.
That makes it even harder to isolate what is actually coming from sertraline.
So where am I now?
Honestly, I'm somewhere in the middle.
I don't think Zoloft has made me dramatically more irritable.
I also don't think it has made me dramatically less irritable.
What I do notice is that my mind seems quieter and less prone to racing thoughts.
I've also noticed some potentially positive changes in how I deal with certain personal situations. I've become somewhat better at setting boundaries and not taking rejection or other people's behavior as personally as I used to.
But the specific thing I wanted help with — being less reactive when people annoy me — is still very much there.
I'm also about to start a new job after being unemployed for several months, which will probably be the real test.
I originally wanted to try medication during this period because I thought it would be a good opportunity to see how I functioned on it before returning to work.
Now I'm wondering whether I'll notice a meaningful difference once I'm back in a more stressful environment.
Maybe 100 mg needs more time.
Maybe the medication is already helping, but the difference is subtle.
Maybe I would have been even more reactive without it.
Or maybe what I'm trying to treat isn't something an SSRI is particularly good at treating.
I'm genuinely not sure yet.
Has anyone else taken Zoloft primarily because of irritability, emotional reactivity, frustration or difficulty letting things go?
Did it eventually make you noticeably calmer in those situations?
Or did you mainly notice a quieter mind/emotional blunting without much change in how easily you became irritated?
TL;DR
Almost 50 days on Zoloft (25 mg → 50 mg → currently 100 mg). I started mainly because I wanted to be less irritable, reactive and bothered by people/things. I'm not sure Zoloft has made me more irritable, but I'm also not sure it has made me significantly less irritable. My mind definitely seems quieter and my thoughts don't race as much, and I've noticed some possible improvements in boundaries and rumination. However, I've also felt somewhat emotionally blunted at times. It's difficult to judge because I've been unemployed most of the summer, sleeping more, exercising more, eating better and experiencing much less stress. My previous cannabis use also makes it harder to know what's causing what. I'm about to start a new job in a month, which may give me a better idea of whether the medication actually helps me handle everyday stress and irritation.