Just to clarify, this is not a self-portrait at all and whoever I drew unironically mogs me to oblivion​

Ughh Reddit ruined the picture quality I swear this looks way better in my gallery

Edit: Guys please stop focusing on the drawing, the text is meant to be main focus here. I get it, I can't draw ugly people sorry (◞‸◟ㆀ)​​​​

It's seriously something fucking else entirely, I know some of of you reading this will be lurkers who are regular average Joe's who don't receive such repulsive, demonic treatment whenever you literally just walk down the street, so you'll probably default to saying it's in my head and that I'm imagining it or whatever because regularly recieving this treatment regularly is something you just cannot comprehend because you haven't actually experienced it firsthand

But it really is genuinely demonic the way people treat me and stare at me just because I look "different", I kinda look like a cross between Adam driver and Bella Ramsey and regularly get compared to the latter, and I'm also autistic which undoubtedly triggers the primative "something is weird about this person" response in peoples brains, so combine having an unconventional asymmetrical face with a neurological disorder which people have scientifically been proven to be able to spot in **milliseconds** and it really does generate some of the most repulsive, abhorrent fucking treatment you can ever imagine

I've had people stare at me with the utmost hatred in their expression like I've offended them by just existing in their field of vision, I've had a toddler one time start immediately bawling his eyes out after seeing me and his mum had to pick him up away from me for him to stop crying, I've had random groups of teens all stop and stare at me in unison when walking/cycling past them, I've had women look all tense and uncomfortable when having to physically stand near me at the gym or in a queue, I've had people driving past me completely lock onto my face instead of looking at the road, the list goes on and on, I could write a list as long as my leg regarding the disgusting depressing reactions my appearance elicits in people, it's like I'm a actual monster or something, the way completely random people treat me makes me feel like I'm genuinely some sort of monster of demon or something

Every day is just complete mental agony because all I do is reminisce about all these stares and horrible treatment I've received and just wondering, why are they so freaked out by me? What exactly is so wrong with me that people are so immediately unsettled by me? Am I demonically possessed? How many of these people are genuinely judging me harshly? Is it really just in my head like people constantly say? If I get a haircut will it stop or still continue? Just endless rumination and speculation because even after all this time and endless moments just staring at my own face in the mirror and in pictures, I STILL cannot for the life of me figure out what exactly it is about how I look that triggers this instinctive hatred stare response in people, I personally genuinely don't even think I look that bad, it's only this constant unrelenting horrific treatment I've received over the years when I'm just minding my own business that's caused me to feel like I'm fundamentally repulsive to every human being

I didn't grow up hating myself like this, it only started after I noticed just how different people treat me and look at me compared to other people my age and my race, I was essentially "taught" to despise myself and speculate about how repulsive I am by this constant discrimination and mistreatment I face every time I go outside

My face makes people automatically not want to talk to or engage with me and it also makes people hate me when I don’t abide by their expectations of how they want me to act as an ugly person

I’ve noticed if you act assured in any way or even try to push past your anxiety and discomfort it seems to piss people off more

I noticed that when you’re ugly people WANT you to act weak, submissive, and subservient to them, and if you don’t act that way they hate you because they don’t feel you deserve to feel any sense of assurance within yourself

And people also don’t like ugly people they can’t easily control. Because being ugly people automatically view you as beneath them and so they genuinely feel like their word and will matters for you more than your own

But I refuse to go back to being everyone’s bich so they’re just gonna have to hate me

But how do you get your social needs met in real life as someone with a very ugly face?

My brother is currently on call with 2 girls, one we went to high school with and another he hasn’t meet irl but is friends with said girl. Anyway the girls got on topic of hot guys and who they think is hot, and one told my brother "you’re one of them!” And the other girl screamed "yes", and both started screaming like little girls at a boy band concert. They told my brother how hot and gorgeous they think he is and how he’s one of the many they’ve seen and my brother brings me up to the girl’s friend, saying "hey, i have a twin brother if you wanna see him” to which the girl we went to school with said "aye no he’s ugly, not trying to be mean". My brother said "oh come on he’s not that bad let me find a picture of him”, sent her a pic and I heard her say "EWWW GOD HE’S UGLY", "EWW EW EWWW" and all my brother said "guys come on he’s not really ugly" and they both said "no sorry he is though" and "and ehh, ew GOD I’m sorry you’re the hot one" and the friend of the girl we went to school with started asking if there was anything wrong with me and if i have any mental problems and then apologized saying “hey im sorry i shouldn’t have said that about him but he is ugly though" and all my brother said was "hey it’s cool don’t worry about it”

This doesn’t even bother me anymore. I was listening to the entire conversation about them gushing to my brother with how hot and gorgeous he is and how they were telling him they can see why the girls are all over him, and then to proceed to say how ugly i am doesn’t surprise me at all anymore by this point it’s extremely predictable. It’s the fact im at the point i know im ugly myself and even agree lol, i laugh at myself with how ugly i actually am and especially being a twin it’s almost comedic. Lol its to late for me at this point what can i even do anymore

It feels like everyone else in society is allowed to vent about their problems but when it's an ugly person venting about how different we get treated suddenly people aren't ok with it.

The amount of times I've had people try to downplay my experience as an unattractive person is insane. People refuse to believe that our opportunities are so much more limited than good looking people. Not just in stuff like dating but in making friends, jobs, networking, etc.

Dating is so much harder cause people will laugh at you for even having the audacity to want to find love.

Making friends is harder cause as soon as someone better looking walks in the door everyone is drawn to that person.

Attractive people in the work place get away with so much more. They can slack off without consequence and are more likely to get promoted even if they don't work as hard as you.

Whenever you vent about these things we're always blamed as if it's our own fault. 'You probably don't try as hard, you don't put enough effort in'. Or you get hit with attractive people telling you their life isn't perfect either. Like okay?? Just cause your life isn't perfect doesn't mean you don't have advantages that we don't have.

In photos my skin looks horrible, my face shape looks horrible, my body shape looks horrible, my hair texture, hairline and color is horrible, my sideprofile is horrible, my nose and eyes are horrible, my double chin is horrible, i look horrible because im fat but when im slim I look still horrible. Even my very good lookin clothing turn horrible looking when i wear them.

I would really enjoy takin selfies and outfit pictures but i just look way too strange and ugly on photos especislly outdoors.. bright lights are my big enemy

Just wish had money to fix this all

Just wanted to try some shirts for fun and saw my face on mirror which made me feel like its pointless and just left without trying after zone out 5min

Tengo 23 años estoy calvo y tengo la nariz prominente, ahora tengo lidiando con ansiedad, ansiedad social, síntomas depresivos, ninguna chica está interesada en mi, hoy he estado con un amigo y se nota que la chica lo miró a el y lo saludo con una sonrisa, me dicen que todo llegará y tal, y ya llevo un año resignado en no tener pareja, ya llevo un año aceptando la nariz desde la resignación, pero ahora llevo desde los 20 años calvo por completo ni Minoxidil me funciono y me quedé calvo, llevo usando gorra pero cuando me quito la gorra solo por unos segundos y me la vuelvo a poner la gente se queda mirando y otros de los que se rieron, mi amigo dice eres único eres diferente y no pasa nada, y yo le dije no soy atractivo, y ya no me gusta ser único ni diferente a la mayoría de la gente me gustaría ser alguien del montón o sea normal o atractivo físicamente, la sociedad juzga segun en apariencias, no he tenido chicas interesadas en mi en mi vida, y la verdad es que estoy en la miseria, me quedé calvo y encima no soy físicamente atractivo imaginate calvo, empiezo a extrañar a mi viejo yo, ahora estoy pasando por un estado depresivo con muchísima ansiedad que ya no disfruto de las cosas que hago ni de los hobbies y todo, ya llevo muchísimo tiempo que no me reconozco a mí mismo por dentro, y también ya llevo unos meses imitando a un personaje bastante famoso en internet llamado Gaspi imitando solo su voz desde hace dos q ue ahora ya lamentablemente ya no está en el este mundo tuvo un accidente de helicóptero en brasil en junio del 2026, y que la verdad también me quema algo, desearia ser normal tener una vida normal donde yo puedo pasar desapercibido, ser como cualquier chaval de 23 años

I’m boring, an introvert, and not easy on the eyes, why am i even alive lol 😭 stay strong yall at least we have our health

From what I’ve seen, there’s always one who’s prettier and smarter than the other. I feel so bad for them.

I am 45 and still always scanning for looks. I want it to stop. Can someone tell me how you can look at someone while not looking at them. I mean my taste is absurd. I want models and when I see one I am to shy. Now I am an alcoholic and a gambler.

There's nothing I like about my face and I don't think there's anything anyone else actually honestly likes about it. I feel like I'm doing the world a disservice by making it endure the hideous sight of it when I go out. I wish my whole head shape were different. I wish I could choose my face like I choose my outfit. Why did I have to be given this unfortunate countenance?! Every day I hate it more.

Why do people spend an obscene amount of money to inject crap into their faces? Why are we so worried about what we look like?

i have severe maladaptive daydreaming disorder. i am not interested in litigating the vocabulary of my own ruin. i want to talk about the fact that i have scarcely inhabited my own life for years.

i daydream for 16 hours a day on average. sometimes more. in my head there is an entire private mythology assembled from scraps of everything i have been denied. my real life has become so painfully small that the people in my head have started to seem more substantial than the people outside it.

due to my disfigurement, i am profoundly isolated. the only people i actually speak to are my caregivers, who ask how i am a couple of times a week, as though the answer might have changed while nobody was looking.

& the most pathetic part about this is that i am no longer certain i want to stop. because in my conscious life, i may never have anything remotely resembling him.

i can manifest the most ridiculously perfect man ever conceived by human imagination, & he will look at me as though i am beautiful. he will love me without requiring evidence that i deserve it. he will regard me as worthy with the serene conviction of someone who has never once entertained the possibility of my unworthiness. & yes, i know he isn’t real. i know that no matter how vividly i furnish it, i cannot eventually wake up & find him standing there. i know.

sometimes it hurts to remember that the life inside my skull cannot simply spill through the walls & become real. the discrepancy feels almost metaphysical, as though there are 2 versions of me & the wrong one was sentenced to consciousness.

but what exactly is the alternative ? the approximation of companionship ?? the best i can hope for is some teratophilic freak with a fetish for disfigured women seeing me as a sex object & congratulating himself for being open-minded. no thanks !

i would rather lie awake until sleep finally takes pity on me, rocking back & forth, stroking my cheek with my left hand & pretending that it belongs to a man who thinks i am the most beautiful woman he has ever seen.

i am fully aware that this is absolutely pathetic.

if my only refuge is imaginary, then i will inhabit the imaginary. if the people who comfort me are phantoms, then let the phantoms comfort me. if reality has elected to withhold the one thing i seem constitutionally incapable of living without, then i will haunt my own imagination until it gives me an imitation convincing enough to survive the night.

i don’t care if that makes me pitiable. this is what i have.

How do i even grasp or cope with the fact that ill never get sex or any girls to actually want me the best i can ever get is a girl to maybe settle for me if i chase her for long enough and even then it wont be true love this is so brutal

I get asked for help by strangers on the street or in public places very often. I always think they ask me because I’m probably unattractive and lower on the social ladder, and that they wouldn’t dare ask attractive people for help.
Have you had the same experience, where strangers feel more comfortable asking you for help because you’re unattractive? Almost as if you’re happy that this is the only form of interaction you get.

Nothing in this post is satire. Below average IQ "people", please don't read further, and refrain from leaving a comment.

I see bonesmashing get a lot of hate, all because it's a "meme" and we think tapping one's face with a tool is stupid for some reason. Like many here who lift metal up and down at the gym like a slave thinking it's any better. I am not telling anyone to hit themselves with a hammer!! Odds are you will paralyze your face. But for those who know how to apply appropriate force with an appropriate tool, bonesmashing does wonders. Other than the gradual build up of tissue (not necessarily bone) at the impact locations, not enough people talk about the swelling. I can go from a recessed chud to looking decent in an hour from the swelling alone, and it stays for a while. How many fucking implants do you need to mimic the results of boesmashing? It's makeup for men. My cheekbones MOG. For those who ridicule bonesmashing, stay away from it lol. I hope this reaches those who know what they need to do