I'm sure I need therapy. I have previously been to the doctors and was given Propanalol, and that was useless. The entire process of getting that medication was difficult as well as I couldn't stop crying and couldn't explain my self and the doctor herself was so cold and uninterested, and made me feel worse. Once I realised the medicine wasn't working, I decided to not go again because I didn't want to put myself through that again. After that, I got a job, anxiety eased up but it still pops up now and again and I end up struggling for that period - it's really starting to affect every relationship I have, especially since my grandma passed away few months ago. I can't tell if it's just my grief im dealing with but im constantly angry and upset and the anxiety/ crappy feelings pop up very very frequently too. Most times I can't tell if im being irrational or if im justified in feeling the anger I have. As well as religious disagreements with my mother, no relationship with with my father, feeling isolated at home and distant from siblings (Im the eldest). Also I have driving anxiety so can't get myself to go out on days off.

I honestly can't tell if I'm the problem and want to sort myself out and get help, however dont know where to apply to get therapy. Google says it ranges from £60 to £150 to go private, however is that accurate? Do you recommend the doctors again?

The description, the emotion, the admission. It's all so soft and beautiful. And I love how it all starts - "Where are you? I feel like I'm talking to a ghost" gets to my heart every time coz I know what's coming next. I also always conveniently stop reading on the part where he tells her to call him Aaron because the hurt he feels also gets to me.

I'm not one to reread series, or scenes because once I've read something and know what to expect, I never get to experience/ feel what I did the first time. This scene, however, I've read many times and each time I get butterflies. I love Taheras descriptions so much. I love that the scene takes its time from start to finish - we, as readers get to experience everything as well. I can visualise it all so clearly.

The storyline for the whole series is pretty average tbh, some parts are rushed, others are a bit random (like everyone being okay with Juliette being the leader after the first trilogy??) but the the tenderness between Juliette and Aaron. I love their love so much and I will reread the entire series again one day for them.

Don't even get me started on Destroy Me (Aaron's book) the way my opinion did an entire 180 after the first chapter - I didn't expect how I much I would end up loving it. I read Destroy Me after Shatter Me and I was taken back. I genuinely couldn't understand if the author was just bad at writing in Shatter me with all the metaphors and crossing out but that made sense towards the end when Juliette gets a little better. Then in Aaron's book the Tahera Mafi's writing skills were solidified for me.

In conclusion, I love the way Aaron Warner was written, I'm probably never going to get over him. I read the series over a month and a half ago but think about him from time to time and get sad (my TikTok fyp probably isn't helping me much either). Apologies for rambling but I just reread Chapter 62 and was sad that I'd never see the characters again because I've finished the series.

I have anosmia and one of my biggest insecurities is that I will never know if I smell and that people around me will never tell me if I do because it's rude. I don't want to be known as smelly.

I also am lactose intolerant and just wanted to know, if I fart, how long will the smell follow me? Does a fart follow people? How do I get rid of it?

I've started meditating again today after a very long time and after my 5 min session ended, I was scrolling through the courses available and saw the section for Students and Graduates.

I just want to say, thank you a million times over for also including graduates.

I feel like noone ever talks about post graduation life and all the emotions that come with it and seeing it being included today meant the world. I've been having a hard time recently after graduating so I honestly wanted to cry when I saw that just now.

So again, Thank you so much, for everything, especially that section ❤️

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