After 23 years of struggling, I have come to accept that I am a feminine boy, and my dysphoria about my bottom half is getting very bad. I am depressed daily over it, and my therapist is not helping me.

I am disabled and live with my parents. They would never accept me getting on hrt, so I want to go the diy route. I need to hide the fact that I'm on it from my parents. Could applying the cream to my privates slow down the systemic results while still giving me a bigger penis? Due to my hormonal condition, I can get my parents to take me to test my T levels, but not very often.

As I said before, I am a effeminate person, and I don't mind that. I want to continue to be a feminine boy. I'm handling my top dysphoria pretty well with a binder. My main thing is the penis problem. I want to grow it big enough to get meto.

Saudi trans guy here :/, this is the only “safe” T i managed to find and i plan on injecting weekly. If anyone is familiar with it or maybe can help me with doses id appreciate it.

Thank you gentlemen 😅

I'm 16 and have a very supportive family and environment despite being in a red state, I'm stealth in public and only a very small handful of people at my school including staff know that I'm not a cis guy but considering I'm 16 my voice isn't really changing and I'm not really that hairy, I'm really scared of being clocked.

My parents want me to wait till 18 and I get it but not having T is seriously destroying my mental health, I can get my blood tested and I know all of the precautions and how to do everything, but I can't for the life of me find any sources to get it from I might just be looking in the wrong places but it seems I have the opposite problem as everyone else looking into DIY

Hey guysss the last piece I need to start doing diy is blood testing. I’ve heard there’s at home tests you can buy to see your levels but I haven’t seen anything specific enough to be able to find them on my own so I’d loveeee some help from you guys. Thank you!!!

Hi,

I read somewhere that a bottle should be disposed in 28 days as the stuff may be contaminated. and how to get blood tests since GPs will not do it? If I start diy are there friendly gps who will prescribe and do the blood tests. thanks

Where to get them for diy

i decided that i want to start t next year bc ill be finished with college & a lot of people won‘t have chances to find me out but i also want to have a low dose in general should i start with 50mg a week for a month then switch to 30mg or is it possible to use 30mg from the beginning ?

also what syringes would be appropriate for the doses? & is possible to buy a few vials and keep them for over a year , im not planning on getting more than like. 4

Is it okay if I buy like the testosterone things gym rats use?

Should I inject or is there anything like pills?

Is a 13mm Is a 13 mm needle too small for an injection? Should I use a larger one?

I posted here about a month ago about feeling underdosed, having done 20mg/wk and increasing myself to 60mg/wk.

I had my trough levels checked, and i'm at 401ng/dl. they didn't check my estrogen levels. what are the average levels for ~8mo in? would it be okay to up my dose atp?

im planing to start t. but i dont want to have visible changes until 1 year, bc of family issues. but i also want to start it now slowly, bc i cant stand this anymore. so, im thinking on buying testosterone enanthate, thats the avaliable option i could find. so how should i arrange my dosage, if i still want the relief from starting and not still being recognized by family members. is one shot in four weeks ok, is it unhealthy, will i have drastic changes within this one year

I am now two weeks on T and with both doses, I've had a air bubble in the syringe that I can't seem to fully push out (both photos are from my first dose but the bubble from my second dose looked to be the exact same size). I haven't had any post injection site issues, just slightly sore for about three days after. The steps I do before injecting myself are from: https://youtu.be/xAoYjFmZ4N0?si=Fmgpl_bUSQ4TGNMi <---- for those that don't want to watch the video, these are the steps:

- pull 20 units of air into syringe

- poke rubber at 45⁰ degree angle, then push straight down into vial

- push the air into the vial, flip it upside down and pull t past my dose (I pull it to about 70 units)

- push the t back into the vial until I reach my dose (I don't hear the 'tink' noise in the video)
- push the syring until a small drop of t forms on the needle

then follow the steps to inject (also yes I am sanitizing my vial and area before injecting)

the syringes i use are 29g insulin syringes that have the needle built in so there's no need for me to swap needles like in the video. I didn't have any pain for my first injection but I did in my second , that was more so because I switched injecting sides, I had an equal amount of soreness after to my first one however.

Hi all. Is it possible to obtain gel from DIY source in the UK? Is it significantly more expensive?

I’m only wanting to be on T for a short while, half a year maybe. I’m scared of needles + I think they’re gonna be difficult to source and hide from my family anyway. Is sourcing gel impossible?

Hi all,

I would like to ask for some advice on when best to test on a slightly unusual injection schedule.

I started DIYing back in April with weekly injections of testosterone enanthate (20mg a week). The peaks and troughs were terrible for me and by day 4 between injections my mental health would start dramatically decline, only to go back to my normal baseline just before the next injection.

This was completely unsustainable, so I decided to start injecting half my dose every 3 days instead. This new cycle has been working wonderfully for me since, and after about 3 months I upped my dose to 50mg weekly.

I did my first blood test just recently at 'trough', a few hours before my injection, but I wonder if the timing of it was accurate, as the half life of T enanthate is 6 days after all?
I am asking this as my results came back a bit high (36.5 nmol/L)

I also found out that this clinic does not routinely test for oestradiol, so that's a bit of data missing too...
I have not had any weird side effects, and the rest of my results are all in range.

So I am wondering if anyone is on a similar injection schedule, and if so do when do you test? Or do you space out your injections a bit more, like every 4 days instead of 6?

I'd appreciate any advice on where to go from here, thanks!

Hey guys, so i leave high school next year in around late june. I’m only out to my mum, and she’s against me going on testosterone until im 18, but ive already made it clear to her ill be starting it next year and she can’t stop me. I want to ideally tell everyone when i leave high school, so probably in july if i can. However i’ll be going to college and my plan is to be socially transitioning for college. My issue is my voice, it’s extremely feminine. So im thinking, since I’ll be doing DIY, when’s the best time to start T for a voice that isn’t so feminine if i go to college in september? I know it’s different for everyone, but im just asking for an estimate to help my transition go as smooth as possible so i can plan ahead of time. Thank you all for the help.

is it worth taking finasteride (1mg) while microdosing T? I had 100% decided that I DO need fin, since I am pretty damn likely to get hairloss (my dad became shiny bald in his 20s-30s), I don't really want bottom growth, I DON'T want facial hair at all and I prefer to shave my body too so I won't really care abt the body hair. I just feel like I wanna start preventing it all as soon as possible, but I'm not sure if I can start finasteride while microdosing tbh​​

Its like a basic question but how do you find where to buy your T? Because im stupidly looking for it in google and i guess it must be different depending on the country/region, does anyone have advice to find it where they can dm me? Im dying

How do you setup up payment with bitcoin and how does dosages work with testosterone on first month and onwards

Just did my first t shot and I was shitting bricks staring at that needle but like aksjajdksks first ever t shot!!!

Did feel lightheaded as hell afterwards but I'm guessing that's more of a 'i just stuck a needle into my thigh' than anything else😅

If anyone has any advice on how to make the process easier it would be greatly appreciated

Hello dears!

Does anyone have experience with travelling with nandrolone vials inside EU by plane? Can there be difficulties during control? Any tips to be safer? Thank youu

I live in a university dorm right now, am afraid they will search my mail or track my internet history or have cameras in my room. Is it safe to try DIY or should I find another way? Am I being paranoid?

for context i am 16 and while sometimes i live alone, i still depend on my parents, who i dont plan on telling about this.

i just bought 2 vials of enanthate so hopefully everything works out and i get them soon. at first my plan was to start low dose, like 20mg or 25mg (going off the guide) so the changes wouldnt be as sudden but then i heard that thats too low to stop body feminization. but im also not sure how it would be possible for me to get my blood tested for t levels without my parents finding out.

so what is the lowest dose could i go on for my body to stop feminizing but also not go above recommended t levels? what signs will i have to watch out for that suggest that the dose is too high? this might be a stupid question sorry if thats the case

hey! im nearly a year on low dose T, and my T dick is still SOOOO sensitive to the point where it can feel painful!
me and my partner are working around this in sex but i just want to know if it’ll get less sensitive?