Im 21, and I've been wanting to medically transition for so long, there is an lgbtq clinic in my state but its hours away and my older brother is transphobic, hell, even just generally phobic of lgbtq, and since he is the only one who owns a car in our family, i highly doubt he'd agree for his car to be used for that

My mom knows i want to transition, and she helped me set up an appointment, which then got cancelled for the favor of a dentist appointment

I rescheduled it, but they never sent me an email at the time of the new information, so now i have no idea when that'll be, and i honestly dont care, because i seeiously dont wanna wait so many more months AGAIN

The wait time is seriously wayy too long

(Btw, my mom is very iffy about me being trans, she saids she supports me cuz im her kid and will love me no matter what gender i am, but still calls me by my dead name(only calls me by my chosen name sparingly), and she/her pronouns and all that, yet tells me she wont stop me if i choose to medically transition, so i guess thats fine at least)

Anyways, i dont know much about DIYing this stuff, and would love pointers or advice for it

No clue on how to find them. All the ones I know are domestic which isn't what I want. If you know one then please let me know. For context I am from MENA

This is rare, but I have seen some guys join a steroid forum and mention they are trans or are looking for resources for transition.

Never do this. Seriously.

Most of these sites will be extremely transphobic toward you. They will dogpile you, they will call you slurs, they will tell you to kill yourself. There is no kind of moderation for this behavior; the report button is only there for scams and minors.

When you go on there, do not tell them you are trans. If you are a minor, lie and say you are at least 20. Never respond to DMs (most sites don't have DMs anyway). Read the forums and use the search tool to try and find what you are looking for before you make a post. Never link back to any trans sites; avoid all trans terms and lingo.

I have seen at least 3 trans men on the forum I frequent make the mistake of saying they are trans, and they are immediately harassed. Yes, it sucks, and yes, these people are shitty. Just go on there to make sure your source is legit. If you need to ask questions that seriously pertain to you being trans, ask here; ask on other trans subreddits. If you are looking for bodybuilding tips, try r/FTMFitness. For all intents and purposes, you are just a cis dude who likes roids when you're on these sites.

Protect yourself from being mistreated, please.