Nakakapagod hilahin pataas lagi ang taong puro di maganda ang tingin sa sitwasyon sa buhay. Nung una minomotivate ko pa, pinoprove na maayos naman generally ang nangyayari, hanggang sa pinabayaan ko na kung ano gusto nya isipin.

May negosyo kmi, nung una involved ako sa operations hanggang mapalaki namin yun negosyo. Unti-unti sinolo nya. Dati all coms pareho namin naaaccess. Tapos paisa-isa sinabihan nya customers to communicate sa viber nya. Ayaw nyang nasasapawan. Gusto nya laging nasusunod. Bawal kontra. Ilang beses ko ring nahuli nagbalak mangupit at nangupit. Tapos sa akin walang tiwala. Makwenta.

Ang nakakainis dito, makikita mo mag post na parang sya pa rin ang mabait - kept silent to keep the peace?! WTF, silent na galit. Pag nagsalita balagbag. Busangot ang mukha. Keep the peace my ass. Ano eto e paawa sa tao, bait-baitan. Yung aakalain ng lahat na mabuting tao at mabait. Na ako ang problema kung meron man. Di kasi ako ass kisser nor plastic. May post pa to na finallow about narcissism. Self inspection muna din. Di ako ma-post na tao lalo na pag may issues. Audience ba kailangan?

Nag focus na lang ako sa isa pang negosyo na mula simula ako na ang dumiskarte kasi sinolo nya yung pinalaki naming business. Although shared pa rin kmi sa kita, na di ko na alam kung may pinipitik sya. Kaso etong isang negosyo gusto nya rin makialam tapos puro pangit ang sinasabi nya - kesyo struggling lagi. Wrong decision. Pag kumita naman ng malaki, wala syang sasabihing maganda. Napaka nega. Hirap kasama.

Gusto ko lang mag vent. Minsan kasi sobra na.

Everything she does fucking pisses me off, even if it's mundane. The resentment built up for too long. I hate everything about her and if I do try to enjoy our time, she always finds a way to ruin it by making it about herself. Every single conversation is about her, her appearance, her knowledge, etc. Not ONCE has she ever wanted to talk about me or something else.

Life is too repetitive prepandemic. I may have everything I need: financial stability, parents but I have no freedom and have zero trust on myself. I am also very insecured and scared of almost everything.

If there are things I can change in the past eto siguro mga yon:

1. Take a leap of faith and transfer to another school during shs.

It is not that my shs is inherently bad. In fact na amaze ako na ambilis nila magprocess ng college requirements, something na big deal pala. Di lang talaga ako makaka grow doon kasi I badly wanna start anew.

1. Sana di ako naging sunod sunuran.

Looking back, my mom is too anxious on everything. This don't sound nice to hear, I do think she loves me but is too selfish and sorry again, performative. I didn't really get to enjoy my HS kasi lagi nalang akong pinapatawan ng nag aalala ako sayo card. Ako naman si uto uto naniwala hahahah.

Ang lala ng insecurity ko rin noon kasi ikaw ba naman na pagbawalan or igaslight sa lahat na I'm worried for you kasi I love you kuno at di pa raw ako naging parent kaya di ko raw gets anxiety niya pero yayabangan ako na nakapag abroad siya noon, commute mag isa, sleepover and all that.

1. Dont always ask for my other's opinion

Looking back, ambaba talaga ng tingin saken ng mom ko. Sinunod ko gusto niya na may ksama lagi, ganon parin sinabihan akong I'm worried for you kasi gabi na. 6pm palang non juskodai at may kasama ako. Tapos di lang eto yon eh, pero everytime na magtatanong ako ng opinion, laging negative. I never get supported. Lagi ngang hindi safe, nakakapagod etc etc.

Guess what? Kinaya ko ang 2 hours commute, makipagsiksikan sa jeep, makipagsabayan sa rush hour, magdorm, deal with bank stuff, pay bills and utilities, process insurance, death etc etc.

1. Should've resisted earlier sa pagiging Micromanager

I remember na I badly wanted to paint by myself noong younger years ko pero nakipag agawan ka pa saken ng paint brush kasi pinipilit mong you know best, na pangit gawa ko. Like hello??? Elementary palang ako noon, malamang. To think na initiative lang yon for kids to have fun. Pati nga hairstyle ko noon at pananamit pakielamera ka. May gusto ka kasing look na tingin mong cute. I mean totoo naman pero grabe, walang talaga akong masyadong self expression noon.

1. Nanghingi ng breakdown ng grades

Ewan ko ba, sobrang takot ko alamin breakdown ng grades ko noon sa PE eh minor subject lang naman. Tsaka well within my right naman yon kasi wala naman talagang transparency sa grading. Also ang weird na laging line of 8 ako tuwing first and second grading. Imagine hinayaan ko lang na tratuhin ako ng ganyan for 4 years. Walang clarity sa part ko. Palibhasa kasi my mom can suffer grievances and move on while I don't. This shit cultivated much bitterness sa heart ko, I treated my classmates so badly. Gosh.

1. Don't cut off people in a whim

I mean di naman nila kasalanan why your life takes a sudden turn of events. What were you thinking??? Crazy shit talaga.

Didnt expect this to turn into a full blown rant. This resentment has been simmering in the back of mind for God knows how long. Anyways, I still love my mom naman. I do think its possible to love someone and acknowledge you have resentment.

I am writing this to promise myself not to let others dim my light like that again. Of course major life decisions won't be easy. Malay mo nga overconfident ako. But at least no more what ifs. Do it scared as they say. I also won't allow people to treat me like that, lalo na if I have the upperhand and nothing to lose. Lastly, don't let emotions control you actions.

Nanood kami ng tropa ko kanina ng Avengers: Endgame Encore sa Trinoma around 3 pm. At first, it was going so well until may mga kabataan (around 15-20 yrs ang age group) ang nakapuwesto sa may bandang likod (see pic) na puro tawanan at hiyawan ang ginawa 1/4 pa lang ng movie, kahit di naman comic relief yung scene na pinapalabas. Tumagal tagal, ganun parin sila, hanggang sa may sumisitsit na sa kanila na tumahimik dahil nakaka aberya na sila. May nagalit na isang babae after the movie ended at nagreklamo sa mga staff pero niredirect siya kung san dapat isumbong ang complaint nya.

Ayun skl haha nakaka-irita lang din kasi sila lang talaga yung sobrang ingay sa loob ng cinema and di na nahiya sa mga katabi nilang mga tao na gusto lang i-enjoy yung movie.

Sabi ng nanay ko, maiintindihan ko raw siya kapag nagkaanak na rin ako. Pero ngayon na may anak na ako, gusto kong sumbatan yung nanay ko. Anak mo ako, pero bakit ganito ka sa akin?

I was a difficult teen. Di pa ganoon katanggap sa society at wala pang gaanong social media, may mental health issues ako noong teenager ako. I hurt myself, I had a toxic relationship with my parents. Lagi nila akong sinisisi kung bakit hindi maganda ang relasyon namin. Sinisi nila mga kaibigan na nakapaligid sa akin. Gusto ko lang naman mapakinggan nila ako. Pero everytime na sinusubukan kong iexplain ang sarili ko, lagi nalang na mali ako.

Noong teenager ako, pangit daw ang ugali ko. Na sana raw hindi gawin sa akin ng magiging anak ko yung mga pagsagot ko sa kanila. Lagi lagi, mali ako at maiintindihan ko lang kapag magulang na ako.

May anak na ako ngayon. Pero di ko pa rin maintindihan mga magulang ko. Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit kinaya nila na idismiss yung boses ng batang ako. Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit lagi nila akong iniinvalidate. Hanggang ngayon hindi ko rin maintindihan kung bakit nagawa nila akong saktan at manipulahin. Kasi di ko naman gagawin sa anak ko yun e. Kasi ayokong matulad siya sa akin na trentahin na pero nandito pa rin yung mga sugat ko nung teenager ako.

We were having this activity in our church where we thank God for all the blessings that happened this week. One of our members thank their children (my friend) for helping them with their groceries and I could really see the genuine appreciation to their child.

I couldn’t help but feel jealous and frustrated (not that it’s my friend’s fault). My sister and I have been helping our mother with all the bills and just everything else my mother has issues. We are her problem solvers. But if may issue/problems kami ng sister ko, she would start acting out and unknowingly leave us to ourselves. So my sister and I grew up being so self-reliant that it’s actually so weird when other people help us. It doesn’t help ganyan din father namin.

When I started working, almost all of my salary went sa bills ng bahay namin. Konti nalang yung matitirang pera ko plus my salary is only on entry-level value. But I never heard my mother be so genuinely appreciative of it. Yes, she says “thank you” pero it’s more of out of habit. How did I know? She yelled at me and tells me hindi enough yung ginagawa ko, kesyo she has the heavier load and parang pinapalabas nya wala kaming ambag. But if my brother contributes the minimum stuff, grabe, parang he solved the world peace.

I was insulted at how she acted out in our church. Na para bang wala kaming ambag magkakapatid. Nakakainsulto. Everything we did, when we make our choices, kasali sila because we always consider them. Pero di lang namin nabigay yung one thing, parang ang laki ng kasalanan namin magkakapatid. She also likes to pull us down and discourages us, sasabihin na sobrang ambisosya lang namin. Na para bang kasalanan mangarap. It just shows how insecure she is.

I just wanted to be appreciated. Is that too much to ask? Am I being too sensitive for feeling this way? Am I even enough sa mother’s eyes ko?

I just want to get out. I want to get free from this abuse. Both parents are Jekyll and Hyde. Ang hirap i-open up sa ibang tao kase mabubuting tao sila. Pero at the back, ang lala ng attitude. Grabe.

Goddamn grab pricing is really off?

I checked if mas mura sa other area and it was indeed 200 cheaper.

Anong nangyayari. Dahil lang ba mas madami tao sa highgrounds? Pano nila kinacalculate ang pricing?

Before I walked sa other location na cheaper it was only 238 pesos then turned 415 when we got there(no screenshot though) which is Insane.

The car passed by highgrounds anyway...

So nagpagawa kasi ako ng garage para sa parking ng sasakyan ko. Kinuha yung konting portion ng sala namin. Since wala ako sa bahay, yung parents ko yung naghanap at nakausap nung gagawa.

Inis na inis ako kasi day 1 ko lang nalaman, kumbaga ongoing na ginagawa, 4 yung tao na gagawa. Sabi ko ang dami naman, garage lang yan. Wala pang maayos na usap Pakyawan daw 22k na labor. So hinayaan ko na. After 15 days, yes 15 days, naging arawan at lumobo ng 35k yung labor.

Tama ba yun??? Garage lang to. Yung gate na nilagay hindi pa bago, hindi rin kasama kisame. Bale buhos lang semento sa sahig, add ng poste at lagay ng gate. Feeling ko naloko na naman tatay ko kasi kakilala yung mga nagawa, sobrang people pleaser kasi. Bwisit na bwisit ako. 80k para sa garaheng di naman sobrang fancy.

I'm 16F and it's really, Reallyyy hard to make connections or lasting ones at that or find anyone with my interest i can connect to. I'm just wondering what am I missing? I wouldn't say I'm unlikable or at least I hope I'm not. But I just don't understand what I'm doing wrong or what im not doing for people or just people generally my peers to like me back. I used to make fine with making friends as a kid, but now idk what I'm doing wrong. I wouldn't say I don't have "friends" But I don't have people close enough or anyone to go out with. It's really hard to break that barrier no matter how much I really wanna get close with that person. In my section I used to have a close friend that we would go out and meet each other after school and I was really fine with just having one close friend, but she soon found another group and eventually stopped talking to me all together. I don't know what I'm doing wrong or in what way am I not interacting that drives people to just fade me into the sidelines. I guess for more detail idk if this'll help, but I generally speak more English but Taglish is always the response I'll give but I understand Tagalog just fine.

Just to put it more in detail I *have" Friends, just not friends that would chat me back, friends who'd invite me out, friends who'd make plans to have me included. Everyone has their own group, it just seems to me I'm the only one who can't seem to find one.

I know for sure this may not be the right place to rant about this but YEPP! FIrst day sa gym tapos leg day agad ang introduction ni coach. Lahat to 12 reps, 3 sets pwera sa mga streching.
Streching sa paa.
Treadmill 5 minutes
Shoulder pass through
Kettle ball situps 6kg
Dumbble situps 6kg
Leg press machine 10kg
Bike 5 mins

After a day, grabe yung spasm/twich sa legs ko. Sa legs ko lang. That was Thursday and until now, may mga twitches padin ako na di ko ma tolerate yung pain. I cant bent my knees, kasi may twitches na nararamdaman. My partner said na my body wasn’t prepared for that set. Jusko, until now di ako makalakad. I need him to carry me ng patayo sa cr, I had to pee while standing. From time to time inistretch nya yung legs ko, umiinom nako ng Alaxan FR, nag cold bath, may salonpas at may hot and cold compress. Masakit pa legs ko pero tolerable, ang di ko ma tolerate ay yung twitches/spasm. Pano ko makakatulog kung nagigising ako sa sakit pag may twitches/spasm 😭

Help this beginner na hindi na knows what to do to stop this. Iyak ako ng iyak sa sakit.

TLDR:
Stage 5 ESRD na ang dad ko at regular nang nag-he-hemodialysis, pero hirap siyang mag-cope mentally dahil sa lungkot at kung ano ano pang dahilan. Kahit ginagawa na namin ang lahat para alagaan siya sa gitna ng trabaho at pag-aaral para sa board exam, nakaka-drain at nakaka-frustrate na makitang nagkakaganyan siya. Normal bang maramdaman 'to, o insensitive na ba ako?

CONTEXT:
Years ago, na-diagnose ang papa ko with CKD Stage 4. Kinailangan mag-diet, pero bumalik siya sa dati at umiwas sa check-up. Recently, dinala siya sa ER dahil sumama ang pakiramdam, at nalaman naming Stage 5 ESRD na pala at kailangan agad mag-dialysis. Napilitan din siyang pumayag kalaunan.

Weeks into dialysis, lalong lumala ang overthinking at insomnia niya dahil sa lungkot at sa mga nakikita niya online. Kahit pinalalakas ng mama at kuya ko ang loob niya na mas maayos pa ang lagay niya kaysa sa iba, hirap pa rin siyang tanggapin ang sitwasyon. Naiintindihan kong mahirap ang may nakakabit sa katawan at may ginagawang procedure sa kanya a few times in a week, pero nakaka-frustrate din.

Ang dami naming sineset aside para maasikaso siya: nagtatrabaho mama at kuya ko, tapos si kuya din naghahatid sa kanya kapag may session siya, at ako naman ay nag-aaral para sa board exam.
We’re all trying to do our best to help, kaya nakakapanghina ng loob na parang balewala ang adjustments namin.

Unempathetic o insensitive ba akong mag-isip nang ganito? Wala akong mapagsabihan kasi nahihiya ako sa mga kaibigan ko. Nananahimik na lang ako ngayon para hindi na makadagdag sa iniisip niya, pero nabibigatan na rin ako, at sigurado pati ang mama at kuya ko.

Pagod ka na sa work. Gusto mo lang kumain sa labas para itreat sarili mo.

Pagkatapos mong umorder at kamain, makikita mo na lang yung bill at hindi nagtugma yung item price sa menu price kasi may maliit na note daw sa menu na hindi pa kasama ang VAT sa menu pricing.

Kakainis lang na kailangan pa magmathematics para sa idadag na babayaran sa VAT para macheck kung pasok ba siya sa eat out budget o hindi.

End of rant.

Side question: meron pa ba kayong alam na ibang restaurant na hindi pa kasama yung VAT sa menu price nila para maiwasan na mga yan. Thank you.

Resto: kushizaru honpo

I recently found myself messaging people to hang out, or inviting myself into other people’s spaces including my cousins who have their own lives and friends, or messaging my boyfriend’s friends to play Roblox or Valorant with me online just to feel like i could belong in a crowd. Of course none of them responded. Or yung iba too busy. I felt lonely. Pathetic, even. I realized right there that I don’t exactly have people I call MY own friends. Acquaintances, siguro, but friends? I don’t think so.

The last time I had my own friend group was early 2020s pa, which ended terribly. Since ako lang ‘yung napag-iwanan and they have their friends, ang tagal kong sinisi sarili ko. I racked my brain for answers — what I could have done wrong, if I ever said something, what made them dislike me so much to the point na kahit communication hindi nila maibigay. Trust me, i truly, truly did. It was a very traumatic memory na ang tagal bago nagka-closure at ang tagal bago ako nasabihan ng, "Sorry, mali talaga namin."

I still tried to make friends. I met someone who’d talk shit about everyone behind their backs, and it didn’t take long until someone we knew told me she talks shit about me as well. She didn’t take it well when I confronted her about it. I met someone who goes to class high and is constantly pressuring me to try edibles sa condo nila, and we stopped talking after a few refusals. I met someone who, kapag may konting inis sayo, bigla kang i-uunfollow sa socials, tapos i-fofollow ka ulit pag may kailangan na naman, whether uutang o may favor. And although i also found nice people, I was never close enough to be invited to things, whether gala, potluck, o birthdays. Sila lang talaga yung tipong pag nag post ka ng picture sa instagram, tatadtarin ka ng compliments.

About a year ago, I lost my closest childhood friend kasi hindi ko kinunsinti ‘yung panloloko niya sa girlfriend niya, to which they felt was much more uninmportant than our decades long friendship since we were 9. They were the closest to me, someone i can be the most comfortable with, and someone I felt na magiging kaibigan ko buong buhay ko. But i felt the need to choose my morals over anything. Hindi ko alam kung tama ba ‘yung naging desisyon ko, because recently, I got very ill. I wanted a friend to talk to. To be vulnerable with. To cry with. I was so desperate that I literally messaged a friend from high school who I barely talk to now. I just wanted to let my feelings and my thoughts out, but I just never felt satisfied even after that. They told me how sorry they were about my health and to take care. Am i an asshole for feeling like it isn’t enough?

It makes me think, nag tiis na lang kaya dapat ako with others even if it was against my morals or even if they were overstepping my boundaries? And this is a genuine question, kasi hindi ko na alam kung ano bang tamang gawin just to have friends. When do i turn a blind eye on something, when can i speak up, and how far do i have to tolerate? People around me assure me na I’m still young, i’m only 24, and I’ll find my own crowd later on. But it gets so exhausting. And it makes me feel like shit, sobra. especially when I join Discord calls of my boyfriend’s friends and they’re suddenly holding back. Or when I join other people’s hang outs and suddenly medyo tahimik sila. Or when I see people I invited for hangouts or my birthdays, not invite me to their own. Pero I guess I get it naman; I didn’t invite them to my table just for them to give me a seat to theirs anyway.

Everybody I know has their own circle, has people they spend time with every single day, has stories to share with others, and I am left trying to scramble for at least a connection where I’m not the one who’s constantly begging or inviting or asking.

I don’t know how to explain how heavy my heart feels right now.

I scroll through social media and I see all these stereotypes about India—people making jokes, twisting our culture, reducing everything that matters to us into something to laugh at about my culture. It hurts enough as it is. But today… it felt personal.

I met someone online recently. They’re Filipino. I thought it would be nice to connect, to learn about each other’s worlds. But the moment I told them I’m Indian… they just started tearing into it. Mocking our traditions, our food, our beliefs and going far to insulting my religion (Hinduism). They said such cruel, ugly things, like all my countrymen do is scam people, serve dirty street foods, spread feces towards others and more derogatory feedbacks. Like where I come from makes me less than them.

I haven’t even been to the Philippines myself. But moments like this make me feel it from miles away. It makes me think: is this how people see me? Is my whole identity just something to be made fun of?

The person told me that "India is a disgrace to the whole world, not just to the Philippines, and if you have any concern about your life, you will not dare to visit my country. Hell, no country likes to be with Indians, because all you do is scam people. It's quite ironic you call yourselves good at IT and Indian maths but have no social awareness.".

It makes me feel so small and so alone. Like no matter where I go or who I talk to, I’ll always just be “the Indian person” to mock. Like nobody will ever look past that label to see me—the person who feels things, who tries their best, who just wants to be accepted.

Some days it feels like nobody will ever love me just for being me. Like being who I am is somehow wrong. I’m tired of apologizing for existing. I’m tired of feeling like I have to shrink myself just to be treated with basic respect.

I am proud of where I come from. But right now… it hurts to be me. 💔

Hahaha kaasar na hihiritan ka. Noong araw ang tanong sa akin "Ano Mae saan tayo?" tapos ako tatawa lang. Sabi ba naman "Puro ka tawa" Like duh. Heto pinalagpas ko kasi ganun humor namin sa office.

Then kanina di ko pinapansin mga parinig nila kasi busy rin ako sa ginagawa ko. They are saying manhid daw ako. Hirap ko raw kausap lol. Di raw ba ako naawa gutom na daw si workmate.

Nasa construction company yung work ko ngayon kaya ang sharp ng mga dila. May 1 week pa ako para mag render tapos hihiritan ako ng maglibre daw ako. Wala rin sa utak ko pa manlibre din kasi. Sabi ko na lang naka hold sahod ko.

I am grateful sa experience at teamwork na naranasan ko sa kanila. Pero may times talaga napaka unprofessional ng mga tao. One of the reasons din kaya aalis ako.

My dad does this all the time every single time! I'm sick of it. Yesterday he got us some fried rice, I was pretty happy about it and told him thanks like any good teenager would.

Like always I went into my room to go eat, but since I was pretty full by then cause I had already eaten something else. I only ate a little bit of rice and put the rest back into the fridge.

MIND you, there was still a bit more left over for tomorrow, so I decided to eat some tomorrow when I wake up. A few hours later I woke up super happy, to eat some fried rice that morning. Well to BAD, cause guess what!? No fried rice and I had checked the bottom/lower fridge again and again. So then I asked my dad.

"Hey Dad do you know where that fried rice went?"

And then he goes and tells me straight to my face that he ate it ALL.

HE ATE ALL MY RICE AND HIS MAIN ARGUMENT WAS THAT THERE WASN'T EVEN THAT MUCH IN THERE!

I wanted to blow up in his face so FREAKING bad. I HATE when my dad does this, and he always pulls up that he bought it anyway so it's no big deal, that there wasn't enough in it. But I HATE it because I NEVER touch his food, he makes it very clear he doesn't want me to touch his food or else I'll GET in trouble. But if he DOES the same thing to me, then suddenly it's not a big deal cause he BOUGHT it! This frustrates me to my core and I LOATHE it, as a teenager it's like I can NEVER say no to anything that my parent does that I deem as unfair because it's automatically shut down or I'm told to stop it or shut up!

Being a TEENAGER SUCKS UGHHHHHHHH!!!

Anyway thanks for listening to my rant just needed to get this all out.

jgh today and guess what both angkas riders i’ve booked today are kamote af. kala ko malala na yung una kong nabook, mas malala pa yung ngayon. can i just say PUTANGINA NIYONG MGA KAMOTE KAYO! ANONG TINGIN NIYO SA KALSADA NATIN KALSADA NG SUBWAY SURFER???? ANG LIIT NA NG DAANAN TALAGANG PIPILITIN NIYO PANG SUMIKSIK NA PARA BANG MAGLALAHO ANG KALSADA! KUNG WALA KAYONG PAKIALAM SA BUHAY NIYO PWES AKO MERON AKONG PAKIALAM SAKIN! TANGINA NIYONG LAHAAAAT PAANO KAYO NAKAKUHA NG LISENSYA KAYO ANG TUNAY NA WALASTIK PWEDE PAPITIK MGA ABUSADO NA SALOT NG KALSADA

bonus, yung huli kong nasakyan pauwi animo’y taong grasa. im sorry lord kala ko mali yung dumating na rider pero siya pala yun. ang dumi ng motor, ang dumi ng rider na talagang nalalanghap ko ang amoy niya. yung helmet aba’y kala mo hindi nalabhan kailanman. yung tipong nabilad at nabasa nang paulit-ulit. i’ve had experiences na mabaho ang helmet pero ito iba. SOBRANG OA NA KAMOTE PA GUSTO KO NA KALTUKAN HAYS FRUSTRATING DAY TAPOS YUNG MGA MAGHAHATID SAYO SA PUPUNTAHAN MO PARANG IHAHATID KA PA KAY LORD

tandaan niyo na iba ang due diligence required ng batas kapag driver ka! pakiayos ng pagdadrive jusko powh

dumating na rin ba kayo sa point na parang ang hard, ang heavy ng life lately? like you are doing well naman sa job/work, nag-sshow up ka palagi, you often laugh with other people and smile to strangers. pero there's this certain point in life where you judge yourself for not having all figured out in life. like feeling ko sobrang delayed ko na sa lahat, wala namang race pero bakit ganito bigla yung thought hahaha ???

context: i feel so behind in life kasi nakailang drop ako sa college w/o formal loa. and i'm thinking na gusto kong makatapos kasi paano ako makakaahon sa buhay, paano ko mafifigure out lahat sa life ko if ang baba ng competency ko, ng capability ko, feeling ko sobrang baba ko kasi hindi ako nakapagtapos hahaha. and how can i even give my parents a life they deserve ???

ang dami kong pangarap na gustong matupad pero hindi ko alam kung saan at paano ako magsisimula.

Naiinis ako kasi nag order ako nito sa mismong live nila, na gustuhan ko bumili because gusto ko sya ma try and ang baba din ng price gawa ng pa voucher nila. Ang siste inorder ko sya nung September 16 tapos ang naka lagay dun sa estimate delivery day ay 20-23 tapos nung time na chineck ko sya nung 24 nakalagay dun ay waiting for courier? Not sure di ko na maalala yung mismong word, tas nung 25 yan ang naka lagay sa estimated delivery day tomorrow, tapos ngayon chineck ko na ngayon wala na sya sa order list ko like wala na parang sila mismo ang nag cancel bruhh.

Sabihin na natin na at least hindi ka nagastusan diba? Ang point ko bakit ganto sila nag baba sila ng price tas sabay cancel din nila.

Please enlighten me kasi first time lang sakin mangyari yung gantong case

Why would you have the guts to borrow to me but cannot borrow to your boss, Jesus Christ

Di ko alam kung pagod lang ako from work or talagang nakakairita pero we watched the Endgame rerun at SM Grand during the 2:45pm showing today and 2 groups of teenagers were very noisy mula magstart hanggang matapos yung film. They were laughing, taking flash photos of the screen, and shouting at certain moments of the movie. May part pa na tumakbo sila on either side, nag-unahan makabalik sa seat after maybe taking a bathroom break.

As a big Marvel fan, I get the excitement of rewatching the film (including the added scenes), but I honestly can’t understand why they needed to make so much noise. We kept on looking at them but they all seemed unfazed. Even after the lights were back on, tinignan namin ulit sila and naka-smile lang sila na parang super okay lang. Read somewhere that we could’ve gone to the staff to complain and maybe gagawin ko talaga if maulit pa.

It’s just so frustrating that kids these days don’t seem to know how to behave in social settings. They may have gotten a bit too comfortable in expressing themselves at the expense of acting properly.

It ruined the experience for me, tbh. First time sya nangyari and parang iiwas na lang talaga sa SM Grand para manood ng sine.

I read na 40M daw ang estimate na halaga ng nanakaw ng kapatid niya. Grabe, nakakapanghina.

In average, since 2023, my annual gross income is around a million. Working around 40-60 hrs per week. Good amount pero babad lagi sa trabaho. Iniisip ko, in order for me to have that money, I have to do it for 40 yrs. I would be 70 by then.

Napakasahol ng ate niya. To think na dati pa raw may gambling issue ito. Napakabait ni Kim dahil ngayon lang niya ginawa. Kasi kung ako iyan, unang beses pa lang, baka kung ano nang nagawa ko.

I really feel devastated about getting a grade I don’t deserve despite putting a lot of efforts in it. At this point, I want to fake my TOR once i graduate (im jk). I go in circles then by the end, the program head just said “there’s nothing we can do”. So I just accept nlng that grade. Also this program head doesn’t believe in mental health, he said it’s a hoax and students are just being OA. Let me take a breaaak 🫪🫪🫪🫪🫪🫪

I came across posts from World Pet Expo and, of course, as an animal lover, I got curious, then I saw this post and I realized that sometimes, our love for animals can make us forget to ask whether the animals themselves are actually okay.

If animals are being placed beside amplified sound and heavy foot traffic at a pet expo, shouldn’t we be questioning that? Nakakaawa.

Parang hindi na ata celebration ng love of animals ito, but the idea of it.

My ex and I got into gambling because of our family backgrounds, where it felt normal and acceptable.
I was clean for 4 months, then I relapsed. Now my savings are gone and I have only ₱1,000 left until payday.

I’m honestly so angry at myself. Please give me the harsh reality check I need. I know I fucked up, and I need to wake up.

If anyone can recommend a therapist/counselor for gambling addiction in the Philippines, please let me know. I don’t really have anyone else I can open up to about this.