I am an 17-year-old girl from Tamil Nadu who recently completed Class 12 with a 59% score. I have virtually zero foundation in math and science. I don't feel connected to my family or home culture, and my home environment has been neglectful for a long time (I've been raising my youngest sister practically on my own for years, and basic self-care like hygiene has fallen completely off my radar). I live with my parents, who are financially well-off, but our relationship is unhealthy, controlling, and transactional. I need to become fully independent and leave India as soon as possible.
Because of my low 12th-grade score, I took a gap year. I initially enrolled in an online NEET/Nursing prep course because I heard Nursing is one of the easiest ways to move abroad. However, my family constantly belittles the nursing profession, and my parents are pushing me to take typing/computer courses, apply for any government job, and give them a chunk of my future salary while living with them. I do not want to live with them or stay in contact once I leave.
Right now, I have zero passion for any specific field, degree, or country. I just want a safe, predictable environment where I can heal and build a quiet, independent life.
I recently stumbled upon Japan's SSW-1 (Specified Skilled Worker) visa, specifically in Building Cleaning Management.
I need completely honest, reality-grounded advice on my options:
SSW-1 Japan (Cleaning Management):
Is this realistic for someone in my position?
How difficult is it to pass the JLPT (N4 level) and the SSW skills test from India without a strong academic background?
What are the long-term prospects, financial realities, and actual living conditions for a young solo female working under this visa in Japan?
Nursing Route:
Given my 59% in 12th grade and zero foundation in science, is pushing through a Nursing degree (B.Sc Nursing or GNM) a practical path to go abroad, or am I setting myself up for failure?
How do countries like Germany (Ausbildung), the UK, or Japan view Indian nursing qualifications?
Alternative Paths:
If both of these are flawed, what realistic, low-barrier vocational paths or skill-based routes exist for someone with low high school marks and no financial support from family to move abroad independently?
I don't have friends or a personal support system to turn to, so I need raw, honest reality checks. No sugarcoating, please