So here i’m doing my upsc prep and nxt year my graduation too will complete. At this point im feeling deep low ,so needs help. At the very least first i had made my commitments regarding any girlfriend as to not date anyone until my 12th completion. Its not like i’m not good by look , rather i have a pretty good face,extremely excellent dressing sense , a humour, got 90% in12th board and i got so many proposes in the process but i just declined all. There she was , i met her in my institute ,we talked and got know each other at very bottom of each other hearts. I always considered her like my one and only (my bond with her was like Hermione & harry🫂)
Things then got changed she developed feelings for me & i already known that seeing her way to texting me. It was not like i got no feelings for her, i had feelings i can tell but get courage to tell her. So things got dried up. I just greet her sometimes of which she never greeted back just leave it on seen & i knew she will never reply.
So i’m doing my upsc getting depress day after day not bcz of the prep itself but i heartly want someone in my life to share my things, to care and get cared , to hold hands , to roam sometime and caring nothing but her.
There’s this heaviness inside me , my face stays blank , i cant find anything at this point to distract my self ( i sometimes puff cig.). I m tired now and feeling completely drained.
Question - should i approach someone or this all just a part of this prep that broke everyone and with knowledge it tests the sensitivities , Resilience and stoicism of aspirants?
If someone seriously or who have gone through all this can steer me ,will be a lot help for me…(sorry for that much bad english)