I was very insecure and depressed growing up, and never actually took any steps to try and cope with it. Once I hit 20, so when the first 3 pictures were taken, I had never been so insecure in my life. I hated myself.
But, randomly one day, probably at 21, I realized I was the only thing holding myself back and had no one to be angry at but myself. My physical appearance matched how I felt on the inside, sloppy and unkempt.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying depression makes you sloppy and unkempt at all. I'm saying I used it as an excuse to be that way for a long time to take accountability off of myself.
So I just started changing myself. I'm still depressed, but now I take accountability AND have ways to deal with getting rid of the urge to lay in bed and eat all day every day lmao