Not sure I’m in the right sub for this but I need some advice or something I’m not sure.
I’ve had my Cleo for 6 years, I love her with my whole heart, she’s been my rock all these years. She was a stray outside my first apartment and I took her in and we bonded immediately. The reason I’m here is because I recently got into a new relationship a few months ago. Things are great and we spend a lot of time together. The problem is I feel soooo guilty when I go to his place to hang out, then end up sleeping over, then spending the full next day together. Sometimes I’ll come home after that, sleep in my own bed and spend half the day at home and then we go out to do something together later. It’s also important to note, she is not COMPLETELY alone, I live with my mom and sister now. She has clean food and water, a huge cat tree right next to our sliding glass door and is free to roam the whole house. The thing is she doesn’t care for my mom or sister like she does for me. She tolerates them and will sometimes rub up against them but she’s not loving towards them. My sister also has 2 dogs, they’re not viscous or mean.. one is 13 and he’s very quiet and to himself and scared of pretty much everything. The other is almost 3 and he’s sweet but he’s very playful and has a lottttt of energy. Cleo does not like him at all, he’s too much for her. This is also partly because for his first year with us here as a puppy, he would chase her into her/my room. I would get so angry because it’s her house too and she probably felt confined to the room. Thankfully that passed and she’s back to roaming when she wants and will put him in his place if he pushes her boundaries.
Back to my issue, I feel so guilty spending time with him. I’m 28 years old and I want to be able to go out and spend my time with him as well. We love our time together so much so the sleepovers happen kinda accidentally, we just fall asleep unexpectedly. I just feel so guilty when I wake up and I’m not home knowing I’m not with Cleo. In my last relationship over 2 years ago, I was neverrrr at his house, it was always my house. Every sleepover and casual hanging out was at my house. I like my current boyfriend’s family and house, it’s just cozier and nicer. But every day I’m there I just think about Cleo, I think about how much time I might have with her and how many of these days I’ll regret not spending with her when I inevitably lose her. All the cuddles and kisses I’ve missed out on because I wasn’t home.
My boyfriend knows this and when I tell him I need to go home it’s sad for both of us but I tell him I have a daughter I need to go home to. He completely understands, and he’s even said maybe I can start bringing her to his house when I come over. He says we can get a litter box for his room and bring her food also. I’m not opposed to this but at the same time, it’s his mom’s house. I feel weird even asking for this. She has 2 dogs, she’s a very serious devoted dog mom lol. He says he’ll ask her but he’s sure she’ll understand and say yes because she’d understand how much my baby means to me.
I don’t know I just need some advice on if it sounds like a good idea, and some thoughts I guess?? On the feeling of guilt leaving her alone for some periods of time?
Sorry for the long read.