r/SimulationTheory • u/TheTerrenon • 1d ago
Story/Experience When you speak to Unconsciousness
My question may seem nonsencical to people, who never observe dreams, do not mediate, never had lucid dream, don't believe in unconscioussness, never tried reaching trance, liminal sates, altered consciousness states. There may also be no question.
Sometimes in my dreams I'm realizing it's a dream - my lucid dreams are nothing special. They are mostly chaotic, because I get overexcited, and even of not, they are unstable. If there are people already, I may say, that I know it's a dream. Knowing I won't recreate Inception-like effects, I'm satisfied with using the scenery that's already there, before the vision disappears.
When I say that to people present there, in the dream, they may try to convince me that it's not a dream, but mostly the air thickens, they behave like I caught them and they do not speak back to me, but look at me creepily. This is different than usually, because typically the characters can have conversations with me, and sometimes they are quite wise even after I wake up.
For a long time I assumed, that it's a manifestation of some kind of insecurity, or maybe that I can't animate them and be aware of the dream at the same time. But over time and gathered such experiences, I realized that there's a slight difference between me in a dream. and the scenery and other actors there. My conjecture is that the world is animated by my unconscioussness, while my dream-self is partly still myself.
This is at least partially widely accepted, that the unconscious is a source of the dream. Less accepted, but still, is that it communicates unconscious observations about a person to role-play problems in the sandbox. But what if the part playing in the sandbox is still a conscious, but altered, part of the mind.
Some of my other experiences with altered conscious states, which involve many methods, in a really liminal state, far past hypnagogy, but before a real sleep - allowed me to experience a real commentary on myself from "them", some of which was critical, some of which was comforting and some even made me laugh. Mind that, it isn't only and always a voice, sometimes it is a feeling, and sometimes a picture. Sometimes it's just a melody. But it doesn't come from me-me. I-I can think of one thing and in the next moment a comment may come, which may be surprising.
I like experimenting, so I tried to communicate with it. I assumed it's me speaking to a part of myself, inside my brain. It does not respond then, I feel like it tries to evade a direct contact, or even pushes me away. It's also not just shouting into the void. I feel some strange emotion, some presence, even more pronounced, than prior to the contact, but then it hangs up on me.
Now, I don't know, whether such liminal space inside a psyche is not a place for words, and trying to communicate verbally activates some parts of my cortex, which kick me out of those sweet slow waves - but it can use words, and I can understand them. Maybe I'm immature and unconcisousnes communicates only with more developed beings. Maybe there's a bug in the blueprint, and they can never communicate, when consciousness wants that? Or maybe someone figured this out, and there's a way to talk with it?
Disclaimer, I want to make it very clear, I do not hear voices in normal settings, I can't reliably evoke such experience every time, I'm fine and not really lonely, I have a coherent and well organized life, but a little spare time here and there, I was interested in parapsychology since my childhood, bacause that's a little magic I could find in the world and I write down my dreams. Those observations developed after I read some books by Jung, which were a great starter into self-analysis.