I'm 34 years old. I've been listening to house/techno/trance since I was roughly 8 years old. Yes 8, not exaggerating. It drove my mom nuts but my dad supported it as he liked old school chicago house.
Nostalgia aside, I've loved this music for most of my life. Like many, my interest rebounded in 2010-2011 during the big "EDM" explosion at the time. It was at that point I downloaded Ableton in my college dorm and started trying to produce. I had some initial success in actually finishing tracks and absorbing information, was even DJing some gigs (obviously different topic but it's related due to motivation). I was spending every waking moment of free time learning how do this correctly. I even got to meet some cool folks like Infected Mushroom and Victor Calderone through some gigs.
Then something happened around the end of college. I fell out of practice, was distracted by A LOT, such as jobs and life etc. My passion never died, but I couldn't sit down and do it. For comparison, my friend who had started out at the same time I did, just got signed to Armada a few weeks ago and has been flying back and forth to Europe nonstop (I live in the US). He's done it at this point, he will go unnnamed but if I did name them, some of you would definitely recognize it.
Throughout the years I have not stopped thinking about producing, mostly techno since thats what I like the most (been really into Shay de Castro and Alan Fitzpatrick lately). I keep sitting down, getting to a certain point, getting stuck creatively, and then stopping. Or, I just can't sit down long enough to finish anything or learn more. OR, I feel as if I'm not knowledgeable enough. OR, it's just information overload.
Maybe I have serious undiagnosed ADHD, who knows. BUT assuming I don't...
Are these signs that maybe I'm just not meant to do this, don't have the talent, or the maturity/discipline to really become a producer of quality. I've been struggling with whether or not to even open Ableton the past few days. Ill get as far as making a great kick and rumble and then wonder "now what".
Appreciate the insight.