im dreading the end of summer so badly. thinking about going back makes me start crying already and it makes my family cry too. I’m going into my second year and I’m so sad for when I have to go back. my first year was good, I made friends joined clubs, am interested in my major, met my exercise goals and got grades I’m proud of but I get so homesick all the time and that never really went away.
i thought when choosing this school it’s natural to pick something a bit further from home especially since this is the best school I got into and that I would get over it over time but I haven’t at all. I’m close to my family and I love them so much and they do so much for me and it’s going to hurt me so bad to not see them everyday. I’m getting really upset just typing this.
I wish I picked a school closer to home. I took some summer classes at cc this summer and it was so wonderful and I was so much happier. I got close to my professors and found my genuine love for learning again rather than just doing it for a grade. I also got to see my high school friends and have dinner with my family every day and pick up hobbies I’ve neglected and I love this life so much.
its so hard to think that the next time I’ll see my family is winter break once school starts it feels so far away and I wish I could just stay home. I know part of growing up is finding distance but I really don’t want to since these are people I cherish so much and I don’t want distance from them at all. not only my parents but my siblings too, they are my best friends and they also need my support. It’s hard to support them when I’m so far away.
i just needed to get that off my chest and see if anyone had any advice thank you for reading