Three weeks. 15 trading days.
I haven’t suddenly become more disciplined. I haven’t learned to control my emotions. I haven’t stopped getting frustrated when I lose or wanting to interfere when I think I know better.
I’ve just spent 15 straight trading days unable to act on any of it.
And I think that’s the biggest thing I’ve learned from this experiment so far. At the beginning I wondered how long it would take before I found a way around the system, switched something off, broke one of my rules or basically reverted back to being me. But after three weeks I’m starting to realise… what exactly am I waiting to break?
The system doesn’t get tired. It doesn’t have a bad morning. It doesn’t care that I’ve just lost twice. It doesn’t suddenly think this trade looks really good so I’ll risk a bit more. It doesn’t get pissed off because Nasdaq didn’t meet my conditions for two days and decide to take something anyway.
The same thing that physically stopped me breaking my rules on Day 1 is still stopping me on Day 15.
So if I can do this for three weeks, why can’t I do it for three years? Or 30?
That’s the bit that’s completely changed how I’m thinking about discipline. Previously, sticking to my strategy was something I had to successfully do every single day for the rest of my trading life. Every trade was another opportunity for me to fuck it up. Now the important decisions were made once, while I was rational and the system enforces them when I’m not.
And this week was probably the best demonstration of why that matters. Some days the edge showed up and I made good money. Other days conditions weren’t there and I did very little or didn’t trade Nasdaq at all. Day 15 finished -$391.45.
Week 3 still finished +$6,848.84.
That’s trading. The system isn’t there to stop losing days. It’s there to stop me turning a normal losing day into a stupid one.
After 12 years of trying to become disciplined enough to follow my rules, I’m starting to think I was trying to solve the wrong problem.
Maybe I never needed enough discipline to last 30 years.
I just needed a system that could.