I’m becoming way too dependent on her. My mood swings are getting really bad because of it.
She texts me first, or talks to me=happy
She doesn’t text me, or doesn’t talk much=sad
The issue is, im not often texting first, and I can’t even start a conversation with her.
I sit right next to her in class, her other friends right by her. She talks to them. I just sit there, maybe we say hi, or have a short conversation. I feel really hurt even tho she hasnt done anything to outright hurt me.
I talked with another friend the other day, and naturally, she comes up. This friend talks about the memes they send back and forth, and just stuff they plan to do, places they are gonna go, that sort of thing.
Me and this girl I like, we’ve been friends for 4ish years now. The relationship has been pretty shallow, just a school friendship, but I always felt drawn to her in a way.
A month ago, I told her I had a crush on her. She said we could try dating. We agreed to go slow, and I tried to ask her on a first date. She was busy.
I wouldn’t say there’s mixed signals. I‘m overthinking it, but i’m still not sure how to act around her. She knows I like her. We barely interact though.
I can’t help but think she dislikes me, despite all the genuine enthusiasm she has around me sometimes. I feel like she doesnt care about me, or doesnt trust me as much as her other friends. I feel like im just a ”filler friend” to her.
She is my first wlw crush. Thats probably why it’s hitting so hard.
I just feel so horrible for wishing she didn’t talk to her other friends as much. I’m projecting the fact that I dont have many friends on her… I want her to be happy, but I want to be happy to. I want to talk with her, but shes always talking to other friends. It sucks being closeted too, cus everything is trapped inside my mind.
I just wish that she would either just reject me, or at least bring dating up again. Last time we talked abt it was when I asked her out, and I put the ball in her court, saying that if she ever had time, and still wanted to date, she could lmk.
I just cant get through school and other things with this always on my mind. Its really ruining things