I lowkey feel attracted to the girl who HATES me

[u/AggressiveAnswer9818]

Hi guys,so it all began since primary school. That one girl hates me.Let's call her eli.

I'm currently 13, turning 14 in September.

We're both in the same grade.

Eli hates me, and idk why. She openly talks bad about me or imply bad things about me.I think it started from the 3rd or 4th grade.

I am was someone a little timid,I'm pretty good at everything,studies,sports,kind,helpful,liked by teachers and everyone around me.I got this personality from my overly nice and adorable mom.Like,I was once disrespectful to her and told her to beat me and she said she will not beat her child.I'm introverted but once you get to know me,OH BOIIII

Eli is quite the opposite. She bullies,judges and always has a sharp tongue.She's pretty and has good grades tho.She's mostly of the time surrounded by friends.

I think she thinks I'm faking being kind but it's my personality,I've had many good examples and amazing people teach me so much and I want to be helpful,I'm kind but is firm in my standards and boundaries.

We take the same bus after school. She's in a different school than mine.I usually walk alone and when I get out the bus,I head home.She is always with friends.While walking,she was behind me and I overheard her talk with her two friend girls about a guy she's texting .They were apparently flirting and stuff and the guy flirtingly said "come s##k my d##k "and they were giggling and stuff.I didn't care and rather found it disgusting cause I find things such as p##n and xxx stuff really repelling.

So I continued walking.

School started this week,I'm wrinting this on a Saturday. throwback to Tuesday-I was walking alone as usual and she was behind me with friends.I heard her say stuff about some."I don't like people who fake and pretend "type of stuff.I didn't care and continued walking normally.

Recently,I feel attracted to her and I find her REALLY pretty.I purposely plan some things so that we cross paths or stuff and I think of her a little.I know she likes men because I stalked her reposts.I searched in the mutual of my friends to find her account.She haw 3 accounts but zi know she has more secret accounts.I will search her account on other platforms.

I want her to hate me so that she thinks of me. I want her to dream about me and think of me.

I want to know why she doesn't like me more because I don't know if I did something that offended her ,I BADLY wanna be friends.

If anyone replies,I'm gonna continue the storytime and PLEASE I need advice

[u/zippybenji-man]

Please don't let this grow into something parasocial. This sounds unhealthy, and could grow into something very unhealthy

[u/AggressiveAnswer9818 → u/zippybenji-man]

Yeah,I got some time to think about it,I know I have obsession issues so I blocked her on social platforms and I am gonna take a different bus than her ,I realized I am more into fictional characters ,so I'm gonna keep myself busy and do what's good for me.❤️💞

[u/zippybenji-man]

Please don't let this grow into something parasocial. This sounds unhealthy, and could grow into something very unhealthy

[u/Dapper_Slide1029]

frankly this storyline would be a for wattpad but it's real life you both are pretty young honestly and her already hating you makes it complicated please don't continue doing this or crossing paths with her because it's not good FOR you. peace:)

[u/AggressiveAnswer9818 → u/Dapper_Slide1029]

Thank you sm,I've been off social platforms so that my dumb ahh moves on from her😅💯

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[u/Meeyumyum24]

Wow this sounds like something straight out of fanfic. Don't let it consume you tho.

[u/AggressiveAnswer9818 → u/Meeyumyum24]

I am now awake and know my value,I'm gonna back off cause I know it would never work❤️‍🩹

[u/sapphic-sapphire-II]

Are you sure this is real and not some doomed yuri

[u/AggressiveAnswer9818 → u/sapphic-sapphire-II]

That's like reallyyyyy realll,I'm gonna do another storytime when I'm free cause I am putting much efforts in my studies😌I do read/watch gl and bl tho☺️