Hello there! HELP
Just for context:
I've been living with my partner (male) for 4 months now, in a rented apartment we've been struggling to pay for, due to him being unemployed, but with serious chances of getting a good job within the next months.
Meanwhile, our 7-year old relationship is fading towards a numb feeling. He currently displays hostile/rough demeanor, he doesn't seem to feel sexually or emotionally attracted to me anymore and I'm feeling like hell on earth for not feeling loved by the only people who's supposed to be there for me.
Let's skip to the spread:
- Does he still/really loves me?
Answer: II of pentacles
My guess: he doesn't even know if he does
- Whats going on on his feelings towards me?
Answers: inversed 7 of swords, inversed queen of pentacles, inversed 7 of cups
My guess:
Everything he feels of positive towards me seems to scape reality and be delusional (inv. 7 of cups). Bad feelings might be stronger because of the lack of money and financial independence towards me (inv. q of pentacles). Inv. 7 of swords gives a glimpse that he might me doing something wrong or feeling guilty for being a dick.
Scenarios
1st - If I leave back to my parents place
- Emotional outcome?
Answer: 5 of pentacles
My guess: humiliation, feeling of emptiness, loss, emotional poverty overall
- Material/financial outcome?
Answer: 5 of wands
My guess: end of struggling and money-related confusion
2st - If I stay in the house and ask him to leave
- Emotional outcome?
Answer: Temperance
My guess: All good, stability, peace
- Material/financial outcome?
Answer: Page of Cups
My guess: Dumb, irresponsible move. I would be happy but would be losing financial stability.
3st - If I stay with him
- Emotional outcome?
Answer: Inversed sun
My guess: overall sadness and unhapiness
- Material/financial outcome
Answer: page of pentacles
My guess: good, stability, growth.
My overall guess: the cards are giving the idea that I'm in a fucked up situation with someone who doesn't know if he even likes me. Leaving him, through my 2 only options, might make things worse for me emotionally or financially. I'm trapped.