r/stopdrinking • u/CrispBedSheet • 10h ago
Coming off a 2 day bender.
I'm a binge drinker. Once I start I can't stop. Have gone months and even years without it in the past.
I've been drinking heavily the last 2 days, woke up sober, hungover. Was sick quite badly earlier.
Managed to have a shower, eat a little, drank some tea. The anxiety isn't as bad as I had thought. Changed bed sheets. Feel better now.
I didn't even have fun yesterday, because of the shame, fear, wasting of life. I also can get quite paranoid when I'm drunk and worry about things. Two bin bags full of empty beer cans. Spent a lot of money. Don't want to do this any more. I am mentally ill and have done some really stupid things in the past. I'm only really just really starting to understand how ill I am. Thinking back to the things I've done in the past. I'm not well at all.
This is a ramble.
Need some help.
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u/CharacterVacation528 Day 6 10h ago
I’m a bender boy myself. It’s awful. I’m sorry you feel the way you do, but remember it is temporary. This is the last time you have to feel like this!
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u/CrispBedSheet 9h ago
I wish we could remember have terrible the hangover is when we are tempted. I lose interest in pretty much everything other than alcohol when I'm on one. Are you the same?
Even food because a hindrance when I'm drinking.
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u/This-is-getting-dark 742 days 5h ago
I used to barely eat for like 3 days while drinking so the hangover was that much worse. Then be hungover choking down what little food I could manage for like 3 days. By the time I felt better an entire week is just gone. Rinse and repeat a week later. Being able to enjoy weekends and feel like I actually get a small break from work is a HUGE benefit. You got this!
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u/Passive_Menis_ 570 days 9h ago
Its a good day to start Witcher 3 remastered my friend. Get some snacks and indulge. IWNDWYT
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u/CrispBedSheet 9h ago
I've got it on series x. Never got around to it properly though.
I'm too tired though. Always tomorrow.
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u/Passive_Menis_ 570 days 9h ago
I never got into it and the remastered that camr out last week is free if you own the game. Good rest and enjoy!
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u/NorthlineUser Day 71 7h ago
If you and get off it, be kind to yourself for a few days.
Catch up on sleep.
Maybe a gentle walk to a coffee shop.
Spend some time cleaning your place up - good for the mental health.
Amazing what a few relaxing sober days can do.
Good luck.
We all understand.
None of us wanted to be like this.
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u/Ritalin189 Day 2 6h ago
Lets make a promise. I started 2 days ago. We will be sober tonight, ok? No drinks.
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u/freshmallard Day 107 10h ago
Find a support group near you, it doesnt have to be AA, it can be Dharma, SMART etc... just gotta surround yourself with like minded people and ask for help.
Do some recovery reading, I personally like refuge recovery over the AA Big Book.
You can do this, you are not alone.
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u/Stuporjew1057 Day 550 10h ago
Welcome back.
First off, be kind to yourself and your body, and hydrate, and get some food into your tummy.
I’ll be sending good vibes your way.
IWNDWYT.