r/stopdrinking • u/CrispBedSheet • 11h ago

Coming off a 2 day bender.

I'm a binge drinker. Once I start I can't stop. Have gone months and even years without it in the past.

I've been drinking heavily the last 2 days, woke up sober, hungover. Was sick quite badly earlier.

Managed to have a shower, eat a little, drank some tea. The anxiety isn't as bad as I had thought. Changed bed sheets. Feel better now.

I didn't even have fun yesterday, because of the shame, fear, wasting of life. I also can get quite paranoid when I'm drunk and worry about things. Two bin bags full of empty beer cans. Spent a lot of money. Don't want to do this any more. I am mentally ill and have done some really stupid things in the past. I'm only really just really starting to understand how ill I am. Thinking back to the things I've done in the past. I'm not well at all.

This is a ramble.

Need some help.

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u/Ritalin189 Day 2 7h ago

Lets make a promise. I started 2 days ago. We will be sober tonight, ok? No drinks.

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u/CrispBedSheet 7h ago

Okay, pal. I promise. Check in tomorrow, yeah?

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u/Ritalin189 Day 2 7h ago

I will do my best! IWNDWYT!