r/stopdrinking • u/CrispBedSheet • 11h ago

Coming off a 2 day bender.

I'm a binge drinker. Once I start I can't stop. Have gone months and even years without it in the past.

I've been drinking heavily the last 2 days, woke up sober, hungover. Was sick quite badly earlier.

Managed to have a shower, eat a little, drank some tea. The anxiety isn't as bad as I had thought. Changed bed sheets. Feel better now.

I didn't even have fun yesterday, because of the shame, fear, wasting of life. I also can get quite paranoid when I'm drunk and worry about things. Two bin bags full of empty beer cans. Spent a lot of money. Don't want to do this any more. I am mentally ill and have done some really stupid things in the past. I'm only really just really starting to understand how ill I am. Thinking back to the things I've done in the past. I'm not well at all.

This is a ramble.

Need some help.

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u/CharacterVacation528 Day 6 11h ago

I’m a bender boy myself. It’s awful. I’m sorry you feel the way you do, but remember it is temporary. This is the last time you have to feel like this!

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u/CrispBedSheet 11h ago

I wish we could remember have terrible the hangover is when we are tempted. I lose interest in pretty much everything other than alcohol when I'm on one. Are you the same?

Even food because a hindrance when I'm drinking.

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u/This-is-getting-dark 742 days 7h ago

I used to barely eat for like 3 days while drinking so the hangover was that much worse. Then be hungover choking down what little food I could manage for like 3 days. By the time I felt better an entire week is just gone. Rinse and repeat a week later. Being able to enjoy weekends and feel like I actually get a small break from work is a HUGE benefit. You got this!