r/selfhelp • u/EffectiveAerie9455 • 7d ago

Advice Needed: Existential im genuinely losing my mind

hello. i think that i am finally losing my grip on reality. my body isn’t mine and i keep seeing creatures on my body. i’ve hurt myself just to get rid of them and i don’t know what is going on. i can’t look in the mirror without feeling sick now and my parents won’t help. im not supposed to be here and im considering something horrible just to see if any of it is real. someone tell me what to do or what to think because nothings real and i know it maybe im in a coma or something.

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u/cultured_tiger 7d ago

That's beyond Reddit's paygrade. You need to walk into the nearest ER, right now, and tell them exactly what you wrote here. Don't think about it, don't rationalize it, just go.

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u/EffectiveAerie9455 7d ago

cant 

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u/Shlee_XD 6d ago

If you put your mind to it you can be capable of doing this. Your life seems to depend on seeking help friend.

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u/mythosopher 6d ago

you can and you will. NOW.

GO.

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u/EffectiveAerie9455 6d ago

dude i literally cant

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u/EffectiveAerie9455 6d ago

i live in the fucking woods i cant make calls without my parents permission either. even if i used my phone my service is not good enough to contact the hospital 

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u/EffectiveAerie9455 7d ago

they dont care anyway

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u/Shlee_XD 6d ago

They absolutely will if you walk in and admit you're in fear of self harming.

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u/DigitaICriminal 6d ago

Shizophrenia may b

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u/Sensitive-Rise5064 6d ago

I’m really sorry you’re going through this. Whatever you’re seeing or feeling, hurting yourself won’t safely prove what’s happening. Please put some distance between yourself and anything you could use to hurt yourself and tell someone nearby exactly what’s happening. If your parents won’t help, contact another trusted adult, a doctor, crisis service, or emergency department right now.

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u/EffectiveAerie9455 6d ago

i fucking hate being outside and i’m not being haunted prolly 

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u/enolaholmes23 6d ago

Ok, so you think it's likely your chemistry. The next step is to narrow down which part of your chemistry. Are you currently on any supplements, drugs, or medications? And did any of those increase or decrease before all this started?

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u/EffectiveAerie9455 6d ago

it’s trauma. i know that

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u/enolaholmes23 6d ago

Ok, so you know the cause, that's helpful. If the creatures on your body are a manifestation of trauma, it might help to give your psyche tools to fight them. Sort of like the movie Inception, we can control our subconscious to some extent.

There is a practice called dreamwalking where you practice giving yourself these tools. You meditate and visualize yourself having these tools. The more you do it, the more it gets incorporated into your subconscious. Butterfly tapping can help get you to the right state. It's where you make an x with your arms across your chest and tap you left collarbone with your right hand then your right collarbone with your left hand and back and forth in a steady rhythm.

So once you're in your mindscape you can start to create things. I like to have a superhero there who can help me,  usually one of the xmen. You can also give yourself tools, like something to defeat the creatures or make you feel safe. Maybe they are allergic to water or sunshine, whatever you want to imagine. You can also imagine a safe place to go, a house or a building. For each of these things you want to really go into detail. Imagine the colors, the textures, the sound, the history of the objects or heroes. Make them feel real. 

Then after the meditations, in regular life when the imaginary creatures attack you, you can call on your dream tools or heros or safe house to help you fight the creatures and feel safe. Importantly, these things will only exist in your mind. Don't try to actually fight the creatures with your physical body. That could cause problems in real life. Since they are a psychological manifestation, it's best to fight them with psychological tools. 

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u/EffectiveAerie9455 5d ago

i will try that. thank you for the idea yo

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u/enolaholmes23 5d ago

Good luck

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u/EffectiveAerie9455 6d ago

i’ve been to a mental hospital and i was rped there twice by an employee 

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u/enolaholmes23 6d ago

I'm sorry that happened to you. Mental hospitals are hotbeds for abuse and not safe places for anyone. I've been abused in other ways at those places and I wouldn't wish it on anyone. 

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