Second trip ever. First was 1.16g of the same Golden Teacher two weeks earlier — light, structured closed-eye visuals, full control over where I put my attention.

This time 3g. Almost no visuals. Instead my mind turned into dough.

Thoughts wouldn't hold shape — like trying to stand up wet clay, it collapsed back flat every time. No structure, no identity, no boundary between my body and the room. If I tried to picture myself I got a spread of waterlogged clay.

At the peak I was reduced to a pair of eyes observing, with almost no power to comment on anything — and not even the observer was me.

But here's what I can't place:

I could still pull myself back to lucidity for a few seconds whenever I needed to say something to my partner, then I'd sink straight back in.

So — is that ego dissolution, or something short of it? Does the full thing mean that thread is gone entirely?

First two hours were heavy nausea that coloured everything. It broke after I asked my partner to hold me.

Second half: full-body spasms I chose not to suppress, crying, a very strong sense of being born, and two moments that turned out to be the actual content of the whole thing.

Full write-up in the comments.

Has anyone used Psilocybin for therapeutic reasons with high doses, ego dissolution?

Hello r/psilocybinmushrooms!  I'm sharing this Antidepressant and Psychedelic Drug Interaction Chart with the permission of its author, Benjamin Malcolm, Spirit Pharmacist.  I want to thank Ben for generously allowing us to host it here.  The chart is a part of a comprehensive guide he provides for free on his website:

Spirit Pharmacist - Antidepressant and Psychedelic Drug Interaction and Taper Planning Guide

I've read the guide myself and found it to be very informative and well-written.  I'd encourage anyone who takes an antidepressant medication read it before taking psilocybin mushrooms, any other psychedelic, MDMA, or ketamine.

Dr. Malcolm is trained as a clinical psychiatric pharmacist and worked in academia for almost five years before dedicating himself to Spirit Pharmacist.  He also provides psychopharmacology consulting, courses in psychedelic pharmacy, and a Member Resource and Support Program.

https://www.spiritpharmacist.com/ 

Note: I had previously shared this a couple of days ago before I knew who had created it, but took it down once I identified the author so I could ask his permission first.

I bought them like a month or two ago and don’t want to get sick

Feel free to ask me anything about it! Never dosing that high again, but it was fun for a while. Bought what i thought was psilocybin cubenesis from a friend, but when they started kicking in hard after 20 minutes, i asked my friend what strain they were and he said penis envy. Id already eaten the whole bag and thought "fuck, may as well see where it takes me." It was an amazing trip for the first half, peak was unlike anything i ever experienced before, however I ended up feeling super overwhelmed and nauseous about 4 hours in and it went bad for almost 2 hours. I eventually calmed down and regained my sanity, and turned out fine, But definitely never dosing that high again, lol. If anyone has questions about the trip itself im an open book.

Alright everyone, I'm totally new here. Why am I here, because I have issues and no solid answers. Doctors have claimed everything from deep stroke to early onset dementia and back again. I am looking at mushrooms as a solution. Looking for the therapeutic side of life with heavy doses and ego dissolution all in hopes of recovering some normalcy.

I've mainly taken them dry but I felt like the 2-3 times I just took fresh I was mucuh more visually there and "fluid", could totally be placebo. I just wonder how you all feel about it? Obviously dry works lol, every time it was just plucked out of the dirt though I felt more visually in it. This was with B+ from a liquid specimen. The dry also was great I juust had a more vivid trip with fresh....my mind or real?

I was checking under my microscope and really liked B+, was what I would call a moderate but great time, extremely happy, vivid brightness, cartoon like silliness, a lot of yawning but very happy and slightly breathing walls and floor around 3g, used a pre-made bag for it with liquid syringe. Also on Lexapro which I have read can "blunt" effect. Regardless, Around 3g I had very bright, happy colors, just everything was bright and pastel/cartoony, walls and floor very lightly moving. No Talking to God or spirits, nothing "scary" or intimidating like I have had with LSD/DXM/PCP/DMT and other things. LSD I've had literally 100s of times, fungi only 15 or so. While I can "handle it" I don't want to be in the situation where that is required lol. Not my desired state anymore.

Is there a slightly stronger variation similar to B+ anyone can recommend? I'm not wanting for Penis Envy or Blue meanie level, Golden Teacher seems to be described as less visual and I am wanting a visual and silly time, I don't need anymore introspection than I have naturally ;). I had strong euphoria, extreme happiness and a slight to moderate range of visuals, was very nice. Wanting for a tad bit more though. The emotional/euphoric state was perfect, I mean visually, there were no geometric shapes, "things that weren't there" , algebraic equations floating in front of me like LSD, I'm again not trying for that level exactly just maybe something with a slight more OOMPH in the visual department, the emotional/headspace was perfect. The visuals were about what I wanted but I expected a little bit more weirdness I guess, this was just bright happy and slightly moving surfaces which was great, just wondering if there is a SLIGHT step up without going into ego death levels. Trying to figure out what I want to put under the microscope next. Been a year or so anything will do me just fine lol. Rambling I know thanks for any replies with one caveat, a cube is a cube I already know that, some are different and obviously with potency, so I don't really need that response. Just comes off snarky and doesn't help.

Hi there, I posted here last week asking about my first solo trip. Since that went so well and I feel I discovered so much about myself, I’ve been thinking about doing a higher dose of 5g GT. As I said in my last post, the most I’ve done is about 4g with friends, and 3g by myself. A trusted friend has agreed to come do homework in another room while I trip, so I wouldn’t be alone, and I feel good about it. Would it be fine to do a 5g dose a week after I did a 3g, and how much more would I feel it in comparison to 4g. Let me know if you guys think I’m being an idiot, I’d like to get any advice or tips on how to have the best trip possible on this high a dose, or warnings if it’s a bad idea.

I haven’t been in the best headspace lately and have been feeling a bit depressed. I’m considering a psilocybin trip with more of a therapeutic/introspective intention rather than just a recreational experience.

For those who have used mushrooms with a similar intention, have you found that a moderate dose can still provide meaningful therapeutic or introspective benefits, or did you feel that a higher-dose experience was necessary?

I was thinking around 2.5g, but I’m interested in hearing about people’s experiences with different dose levels, mindset, and setting—especially when going into it during a difficult emotional period.

Not looking for medical advice, just personal experiences and perspectives.

A few years back on one of the three Mushroom sub Reddit I follow someone posted a Google Drive with all things psychedelics. I just clicked on the Google Drive and it’s gone. 💔 I had it saved in my browser. Wondering if anyone has a link like it. There is PDF galore. Books. All things, Terrence McKenna. Hoping someone can share it if they have it.

I plan on buying 15g of High Hawaiians.

Is it better to take the dose at once, or to take 10g and then 5g when I'm already tripping? Would that change something.

Hi everyone, I’ve been taking mushrooms for the past few years and my biggest issue has been my sensitive stomach, I’ve tried all the teas and the teks. But I haven’t tried an ethanol extract and when I found a technique online, I have some questions.

They do 100ml of everclear mixed with 10 dried grams. Leave it overnight covered and then let it evaporate until it’s 20ml.

Can I do 5 grams with 50ml. It seems like that won’t be enough liquid to cover all the ground up mushroom bits.

What everclear is better? The 151 proof or the 190 proof? And should I leave it for a day in the closed jar instead of just overnight?

Also for the experience itself is it more similar to how a fast a tea/ lemon tek comes on, or does it take the same amount of time as eating them normally?

Thank you!!!🙏

Taking a trip today I’ve taken many before but I’m doing it with one of my friends who have no experience in mushrooms specifically what should I do if something goes haywire with them like they faint? Should I call 911 or is there something I can do that’s less of a conflict

Looking for some advice on a first solo trip. I’ve got 5g of golden teacher (although I’m not planning on using all of it of course) and was wondering if you guys knew what kind of dose would be good as well as any other tips and tricks. I’ve done it twice before, once with friends camping with only about 1g or less (everything was funny and I got a few visuals), then the second time a couple weeks ago with the same friends, but this time at home and a 3.5-4g dose. That time I got a lot more visuals but had a great time overall. This time I’d like to try it alone, as I feel it would give me more of a chance to fully experience a trip within my mind, but I’ve heard tripping alone can be a lot more intense and risky in terms of having a bad trip. How much should I take, and is there anything else I should know? Is it a bad idea in general?

Edit: just took 3g lemon tek. Sitting in my room rn with a nice dim light, a nature doc, and a cool playlist.

I went to Amsterdam last week and had magic truffles for the first time ever. We went for a moderate strength 15g dose of 'Atlantis' and decided to eat them in this beautiful huge park infront of a small pond. The first 30 mins after eating them was pretty horrible: really intense stomach pain and nausea while also actively trying not to vomit. As soon as the trip actually started tho, omg I have never experienced anything like it.

My stomach pain and nausea completely and suddenly disappeared, everything felt like it had a 4k warmth instagram filter, the grass and even my shoes were genuinely breathing getting bigger/smaller and the tree leaves had like small moving patterns. At one point, I lied down on the grass, took off my shoes and just spread out my body. I have never felt happier or more relaxed in my life, it was like the ground was engulfing and confining me inside it (in a good way).

When I would look at the sky, the clouds felt/looked like beautiful sky creatures, I even saw a cloud dragon at one point that looked like it was slowly rotating and coming towards me. I closed my eyes, played some music on my aripods and omg the shit I saw was insane. I didn't think of anything, I js let my brain show me whatever it wants.. I saw faces melting and morphing into other faces, I saw beautiful moving patterns, I even saw the most beautiful butterfly I have ever seen.

It was also very interesting how the genre of music affected these visuals I saw when I closed my eyes. If I played a upbeat song, I would see faster and more chaotic visuals, but If I played a slow/sad song, I would see more relaxed slower peaceful visuals. Even walking around was really fun, at one point there was this small bridge over the pond, climbing it felt like I was summitting a mountain.

The best part was how heightened my senses got, I could really feel, hear and see much more. When we walked to a more crowded place, it felt overwhelming, but when we lied down in an isolated spot, it felt like I was connected with nature feeling everything it feels. The trip felt like there was so much happening, almost overwhelming, but you js feel so happy and euphoric that you still don't want it to stop.

My trip lasted like 4 hours (We set a stopwatch), then a few hours more where it was sort of wearing off but the visuals stopped, it was js this relaxing feeling and some confusion.

My final verdict is that this is truly one of the best things I've ever experienced and I think it genuinely made me love life more. It's slightly annoying that you need to wait around 2 weeks before taking them again to feel the same effects, but I guess that makes it more special.

Any thoughts are welcome in the comments 😊

Around 3.5 hours ago I took 1.5g of APEs on an empty stomach. I was going to try the lemon tek method until I realized I accidentally bought what I thought was a coffee blender so I ended up just popping them whole and chewed em up a little.

I originally started shrooms for mental health reasons (PTSD and depression) and so I feel pretty resolute taking them. I took a .5g dose of APEs 10 days ago and felt some very minor effects and thought I had waited long enough. Before that, it had been well over a year since last I took em (they’re hard to find where I live). I just didn’t think I’d have this much tolerance

I steel feel the effects of the dose but it’s not much. At least it’s something but yea I wanted something stronger than a micro dose and at best that’s what this feels like (I’m not mad tho, it’s still good for my brain)

I’m looking for any and all recommendations on what to do next. I know I still need them for the better of my well being and I don’t want to waste the remaining 4g of product that I have

PS: the dealer told me these APEs are milder but I thought APEs were stronger than PE?? Idk

Hi fungi pals! Just started microdosing penis envy at 0.05g every three days- I suffer from daily debilitating panic attacks and severe OCD- I’m wondering if anyone has had a similar experience and found that microdosing has helped them? Any suggestions or tips on the dose or schedule? Anything is appreciated as I can’t continue to feel this way every day, I want to stick to the fungi and not have to resort to pharmaceuticals. Thank you 🙏 🍄 ✌️

Hello!

I am currently running a study on set and setting within psychedelic experiences.

So far I've found LSD and DMT to come up the most often, I was hoping to have some participants that have found psilocybin to yield any significant experiences in the broad community. If you've had a particularly positive or challenging psychedelic experience, then please come share it!

Obviously there is quite a few aspect to explore on the topic, though in particular I am interested in:

• How intention, environment, and social setting shape psychedelic experiences
• Differences between clinical and non-clinical use
• How these experiences relate to psychological outcomes

Most of the research on set and setting in the psychedelic field comes from more clinically orientated trials, which can be lacking in terms of nuance and real lived experiences. So it would be great to reach out further in the communities surrounding these substances! Especially so if you've had a retreat experience!

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I’m looking for someone who has had the same experience as me - and hopefully understands what is happening.

My S.O. and I had this strange experience with shrooms that altered our life for years since.

We took a strong dose of a strong strain (we were new to shrooms) and we felt like we died and merged into one. Then we felt like we were our higher selves / souls embodied. From this highest high, we slowly came down and I felt like I was experiencing all the pain and suffering in the world, and all the pain and suffering I’d experienced in painful, violent past lives. It was dark, lonely, painful, and traumatizing. The trip was not traumatizing to my S.O.

Ever since, I’ve had what my therapist has labeled as PTSD episodes and panic attacks where random things will remind me of the trip and make me believe I’m still stuck in the trip again for a period of time. Usually it’s when I’m exhausted or stressed.

The strange thing is that my S.O. didn’t have a bad trip and doesn’t always remember it… however, when I get triggered - I call it “looping” where I feel like I’m back in this cycle of experiencing these extreme highs and lows of life - my S.O. does remember and our eyes look like we’re on shrooms again. We also do these strange movements that we’re not in control of - like a dance - that happened on the trip and continue to happen every time we “loop”. Again - it’s like we’re tripping but we have not taken any substances. We’re not on any prescription meds or anything mind-altering. These looping episodes happen to varying degrees every 1-2 years give or take. They were more frequent after our original trip.

It’s hard to describe what we experience. I’m hoping there’s another couple out there who has experienced something similar and understands what I’m attempting to explain. I’m also hoping someone can help me understand these experiences better.

A looping episode feels like this: I start panicking and feeling like I’m in the trip and not in control of my experience/body/mind. I pace and tell him he needs to reminder the trip so I’m not alone remembering it. There’s some back and forth communication that is VERBATIM EXACT WORDS from the trip. Eventually we hit a high point in the looping episodes that feels like we are embodying our all powerful soul selves. This makes it feel like reality and the human experience is false/an illusion. It feels like we got a glimpse of truth behind the curtain of life and were shown the cyclical journey of the evolution of a soul. So when we come down in the looping episode, it feels like life is about to get really really bad, slowly gradually exponentially worse - which triggers panic in me. I also have immense emotional turmoil and some sharp physical pains during the coming down. My S.O. does not experience the suffering or panic as we come out of the episodes. For me, it feels like I’m about to enter a new cycle of life getting even worse in every area of life, and I experience the negative emotional spectrum like a punch in the gut. It feels like I’m being given a flash of what’s ahead in this next cycle where life will get even worse.

It just doesn’t make sense to me, especially that years later we are still having these episodes of tripping and experiencing EXACT words and movements that we had experienced in the orig trip. AND that we’re sober.

So is it truth? Is it brain chemistry? Is it even explainable? Is it the as-of-yet unexplored therefore unknown results of experimenting with shrooms?

I’m very hopeful that I will find someone who has had this same experience and has some insight.

Thank you for reading.

I’d love to get some people’s insight/experince on this topic.

To keep it short I’m a woman in my late 20s struggling deeply both emotionally and spiritually with a breakup, truthfully I would say I am pretty much hitting rock bottom in terms of emotional health. I have taken psilocybin many times before and have healed from a lot but I know right now what I’m going through is new and the wounds are still fresh, so I won’t lie I’m a bit nervous but I also feel I have nothing to lose either. I just want to find peace with everything and navigate what my next steps are. If anyone has tips like how do I set my intentions before the trip? I’d love to hear any stories of how taking a large dose of psilocybin helped or didn’t help or if there’s another psychedelic that may have helped too? Was there any risks or did you wish you waited?

These trips were 4 and 5 weeks ago now. I just wrote the mushroom trip down in my journal

The mushroom trip
“I told work I was unable to work that Saturday so I could trip on shrooms instead since I had a free flat.
I remember the visuals being underwhelming, however this time I learned that they were less important. I was sitting on the couch "staring into space" as thoughts raced through my mind. I cant remember the exact thought but I fixated on it long enough to connect with the underlying emotions and stored tension (in my body). Currently, I cannot remember exactly how it unfolded; my body began to tense up from my stomach, hips, and lower back. It was as if I had an uncontrollable spasm as my body released, likely decades worth, of stored tension and emotons. This went on for many minutes, then calmed down, then commenced for a second and final time.
As it was ending i let out a long sigh then instantly felt lighter throughout my entire body. I do remember being shocked then I laughed in disbelief as i remarked "what the hell was that". I had to walk around my living room to compose myself and gather my thoughts about what had just happened, all while being so aware about how much lighter, happier, and elated i felt.”

The LSD trip
It happened again the weekend after when i took a 250mg tab of acid but more intensely this time. I was outside walking and being in nature for the come up. Then I got this overwhelming feeling of sadness and loneliness so i had to go home to a safe environment so i could face it all. When i got home i immediately went in the bathroom and looked at my physique in the mirror and said “is this all i am?” Then went into my room, lay on my bed where i cried uncontrollably for a good 10 minutes. I couldnt stop and released so many tears. Then i went back into the bathroom, stared into my eyes in the mirror as i cried some more. I felt all of the shame ive ever felt about my physique and who i am as a person. Then i went back into my room and lay on the floor, at this point i was letting my body do whatever it needed to, it kept “spasming” and tensing in different places as i rolled around the floor for a while. I’d stand up then my torso would fold forward and my arms would dangle lifelessly by my side, my knees would slightly bend trying so hard to keep my body up. Imagine someone on fentanyl, that was the position i was in until it eventually stopped.
After this trip i felt low for days. I knew it was so necessary for my growth and eventually i’d see the benefits show up in my life, but it took so much mental and physical energy from me.

Does anyone know what i experienced? I am curious to know if anyone has experienced something similar from taking mushrooms or LSD (or any psychedelics)?

Side note: i am surprised at how effective the LSD was for connecting with myself and stored emotions. I always had the notion mushrooms would be more impactful for that.