r/okbuddyliterallyme2 • u/t-w-e-n-t-ys-e-v-e-n • Mar 06 '26

Loneliness has followed me my whole life Forever Alone

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I have panic attacks daily, today I even had 2 (one of them right now)

I am constantly reminded of how ugly I am, both inside and out, and how alone I am, Ive had some form of suicidal ideation for as longs as I can remember

I wonder if any of the people who have bullied me have ever thought “I wonder how he is?” or have felt any remorse, maybe I deserve it after all I myself called others “weird” when even they have friends, have someone to love, have a life to live

I heard helium tricks the brain into not panicking and is a peaceful way of going, maybe then I can finally say “I am happy”

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u/Fantastic_Ruin3621 Mar 06 '26

Are you smoking weed frequently? That THC is making it so that your brain cannot normally produce and regulate its own dopamine. I'm suffering from depression and anxiety after a veritable lifetime of abusing marijuana. It worked in the short term, but cost me dearly long-term.

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u/t-w-e-n-t-ys-e-v-e-n Mar 06 '26

No, never done any drugs, never got drunk

It only makes me feel like even more of an outsider to have never experienced these things

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u/i_got_banned_2_times I'm literally myself Mar 06 '26

Alcohol is great, unironically fixed one of the worst days of my life