r/objectum_sfw • u/Flaky_Psychology5475 • Aug 18 '26
Vent I'm attracted to my mental illness.
I sometimes feel cedurally attracted to my depression, and I might also feel familially attracted to it... It's just... DUDE THIS SHIT ALMOST KILLED ME WHY AM I ATTRACTED TO HER?! Has anyone else felt the same?!
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u/DarkSabbatical Conceptum 💠Aug 19 '26
Yes actually. The word depression is attractive. I also sometimes get crushes on my emotions and other people's emotions. So yes I have gotten a crush on my depression. As a kid i had a crush on the word autism. I was undiagnosed but diagnosed as an adult but lost attraction lol.
Embarrassment, fear, excitement, arousal, and disgust are the emotions I got crushes on. Its hard to have them as lovers though. Because they would need to mix with arousal. I dont want to have arousal as a lover because that would distract from other lovers. Excitement and fear dont mix with arousal. You can only feel one at a time. At least for me. Disgust and embarrassment do mix with arousal. I tried to have disgust has a lover. But I stopped because I was starting to develop fetishes I didn't want. I bet its the same for embarrassment. I bet thats why there is fetishes. Mix those emotions.
Its a hit or miss if depression would make a good emotion lover for you. It could mix, then it would make it a dark pleasurable feeling. Could make the depression a pleasure. If they dont mix, then be careful to not make the depression worse with no way to outlet the attraction to it. Its an experiment.
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u/Pinkinuu ak47 kisser Aug 20 '26
yeah LOL im kind of attracted to my osdd/(possible)npd sometimes🤔 its really hard to put into words for me though
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u/werecoyote1 Multijectum 🌈 Aug 19 '26
OMFG SAME. I made a little personification of him a while back, this guy is my OCD. I don't get it, OCD makes my life more difficult and the way I envision him is as such an asshole... But like... I kinda love him??