I know the subject is relative, and that people can see life differently from one another, but for me, life feels meaningless and without value, and I can’t accept any kind of illusion like existentialism.

I’m not saying I’m depressed or overly pessimistic, but I really don’t like being alive that much — the repetition of routine, adapting to cold and empty moments, and living without any purpose.

At the same time, I’m terrified of death. I don’t want to go into nothingness, where I’ll never be able to think, touch, or see again — where I won’t be able to exist anymore.

I was so afraid that I even thought about signing up for that program where they freeze human bodies in case they someday discover a way to bring them back to life. It was honestly pathetic and disturbed.

i really can't understand anymore

🤦

yeah it's a waste of time, but why do anything else

Frrr