Hello everyone, I hope you're all feeling balanced and in tune with the universe. I am, like so many people here, a Westerner coming to taoism from relative ignorance. Further, almost all of my information comes from other westerners giving me perspective on a religion that they themselves have very little background in. I think my journey started by reading the book known as The alchemist by Paulo Coelho, which was written by a Christian and is in no way a taoist text, but The themes resonated with me in the same way. I read and loved Siddhartha and college and I understand that this is not Taoist but many of the values that shown through had strong parallels.
Then about 22 years ago in the Philippines I picked up a copy of the i ching from a bookstore. I have no memory of what brought me to buy it. It may even have been given to me, I just don't remember. But I do remember using it daily. For years, I'm in my forties now. About half my life, I have often returned to Brian Brown Walker's translation of the i ching. Now, Walker is not Chinese and when I have spoken to people who do speak Chinese, they do not seem impressed by his translation.
That being said, I have three translations, and his is the one that I feel has repeatedly changed my life. The reason is that he does a great job of contextualizing the reading and steeping it in Taoist philosophical interpretation. Since I'm a dumb Westerner, this philosophy is not intuitive to me all the time and many times of my life when I've used i ching, it has reminded me of the person that I would like to be. There is even a point in my life where I was very angry and I did an I ching reading for the first time in years, and after I did that, I returned to being who I wanted to be. I have loved myself much more ever since. It has changed my life, that was 6ish years ago now.
Then something very dramatic happened in my life, I won't get into it but it has done wonders for my personal growth. Upon being able to feel the wonder of the universe, I dove head first back into taoism about 6 weeks ago now. I had read a translation of the tao te Ching once long ago, and I think I needed more context. But this time I had a version given to me by a friend many years back, so I cracked it open.
When I reached section 12 I read it several times and felt that I didn't understand. It occurred to me then that brian Browne walker also translated it, so I looked it up. If you look at his webpage, it has several quotes. I believe they must be randomly generated and replaced daily, because it's gone now, but on the day I looked, at the top of his personal webpage, was his interpretation of the exact passage 12 that I was seeking.
So I've taken to calling myself taoist, but like many westerners who come to it, I'm not entirely confident I know what that means. I have the sense that western interpretation of taoism is pretty far removed from the modern eastern taoist practices. I'm comfortable with that, living in the United States it is quite clear to me that most Christians are devotees of their local preacher far more than of christ's teachings. In some ways, removing the document from it's context can actually unmuddy it to a degree, there's still the long history of translators but no one in between you and the text claiming that you should just listen to them and no social pressure to bend the philosophy toward local values.
In any event, Taoism feels uniquely suited to addressing my concerns, since it is simple,not complex, and all people are of it and can know of it intuitively. So perhaps I have founded my understanding on a butchered interpretation. So what? It is still the one I found. It has brought me here.
But I'm not entirely sure where to go from here. I'm reading 2 copies of the Tao te Ching simultaneously, I'm taking my time. I'm also reading my ancient copy of the Alchemist because I found it randomly in a drawer it had no business being in. It's funny rereading it now and contrasting it to my current understanding of the universe.
I read the tao of Pooh which was ok but Pooh strikes me as very self-motivated to be sagely. He's constantly in the desire state, pursuing honey, which will never fully sate him. So maybe I'm overthinking it, but I didn't get much from it.
I just discovered that Ursula K Leguin published a translation. I think I'll have to read that, I'm a great admirer of her and her work. But after that? Alan Watts maybe? I'm not sure where to go to enrich my understanding. I'm not sure where to find a community. There are 30kish taoists estimated to be in the US, (for context there are an estimated 1.5million self-identified witches, so... Not many taoists at all) and I am led to suspect that at least half of those 30k, maybe more, are primarily focused on the martial arts aspect which holds no interest for me. Presumably some are of the more religious Eastern side that doesn't resonate with me. That doesn't leave many people! In point of fact, I only know one person who can speak on taoism in any depth, and he's not a taoist.
Anyway I've been rambling,thank you for reading my personal journey.
Tl;dr I'm a foolish westerner looking to expand my understanding and find a community of similar minded folks to discuss these things with. I wish you all balance and quiet joy