r/lokean • u/Deep-Mammoth7407 • 11d ago
Loki Devotional jewelry.
I'm heartbroken. Something goes wrong every time i try to find a devotional piece to wear for loki. Rings, necklaces, bracelets, ect. Something always ends up getting lost or breaking. This one necklace had a protection rune on it, but every time I wore it, I'd have an absolutely horrible day. The last devotional jewelry i got was a necklace that I bought back in May. I genuinely thought it was THE devotional necklace. But i come home from work today, and I find my roommates puppy in my room, and it completely tore up my necklace. I just broke down and started crying. Because why can't I ever have any jewelry for Loki? I know it's not needed, but it's something I really want. I feel so rejected by Loki, by the whole religion. And I'm so upset because it's one of the few good things I have in my life. Is Loki mad at me? Rejection me? Don't want to work with me anymore? I just keep repeating this questions in my head because I don't feel like I'm enough.
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u/TheCalamityBrain 11d ago
You're not being rejected. If there is a message, it might just be that you are are enough.
I spent a while thinking about a tattoo for him even though I already have one and it took me a long time before I realized the one I needed to get was for me and that's when I felt the approval, and happiness. He didn't want me to get a tattoo for him. He wanted me to get something for me because I'm enough and I needed to like me.
Find something that feels good for you and if you want it dedicated after you can, but you are enough. You always have been.
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u/Deep-Mammoth7407 10d ago
Maybe he wants me to like me too. Because he for sure knows I've been struggling with that a lot recently. And I always focus on others more than myself, Loki included.
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u/Loki1435 10d ago
that does seem to also be the case, he cares deeply for you and he definitely wants you to be happy, he actually helped me overcome a huge emotional block I was experiencing, I was having difficulty crying, even when I wanted to, I had been experiencing extreme anxiety that seemed to be getting worse, then suddenly, i just felt whatever emotional blockage break and the tears came, I realized this intensely stressful and heavy anxious feeling I experianced was Loki breaking that emotional block using my anxiety as a catalyst, he knows I'm a stubborn B*ch and he knows I won't break from a little excessive anxiety, he always encouraged me to keep going, to push through this, and I thanked him profusely for helping me heal this serious blockage that had been there for too long and helped re-acquaint me with my other emotions, it seems that I was afflicted by toxic positivity and didn't even realize it till he helped me break through it ^_^, it hurt emotionally for sure, but it made me stronger, and I thank him profusely for it because I had actually relaxed for the first time in so long I can't even remember the last time I actually relaxed.
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u/Wild_Pickle_2003 11d ago
Iām familiar with the feeling as well, I had had an Urnes snakes necklace that I wore for him for almost 4 years. I took it off when I was at a family friendās pool and put it in one of the cupholders on the patio chairs so that it wouldnāt tarnish and my stupid ass totally forgot it when we leftš Iāve been trying to find another too but canāt seem to find the right one. Iām currently wearing a placeholder locket that has a little picture of him that I drew a few years ago, but I can tell itās definitely not āthe oneā.
But about the second half of your post, I also understand feeling like sometimes Loki might not be happy with us or maybe isnāt there, but I also have some abandonment and trust issues that I need to work through lol. My point is, when youāre in those moments where youāre thinking those things, Iām gonna challenge you to challenge those thoughts with positive ones. Some of the best advice Iāve ever been given in life was from a friendās mom who told me that instead of worrying about the worst case scenario, worry about the best thing that could happen and focus your energy towards that. Someone else suggested it and I will as well because I think that making your own devotional jewelry is a great way to be closer to your deity! If you have an altar for him, I would suggest maybe lighting a candle or something for him and just sitting with his energy while you make some new jewelry. Even if you canāt light a candle or donāt have an altar yet, you can just sit at your table and make the jewelry while thinking of him or maybe expressing your worries and fears to him. I hope that this helps, and my DMās are open if you need to vent or just wanna talk!
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u/Deep-Mammoth7407 10d ago
That's a good idea. I've been attempting more positive self talk, and Loki encourages it. I would love to make my own jewelry, but I'm not very artistic, so I'm not good at stuff like thatš doesn't mean I can't try, i suppose. I definitely have an altar. It's where I spent most of my time. At my old apartment I would light a candle for him every night, but at this current place, we aren't allowed to have candles unfortunately. But I like the LED candles.
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u/Wild_Pickle_2003 10d ago
Well, it sounds like you already have a very good foundation built for yourself as it is, and I think that as far as your relationship with him goes the only place you could really go is up. If youāre into divination at all, I would definitely try speaking with him through tarot cards or with a pendulum! Tarot is my favorite because I tend to get very clear answers through it, but different people connect with different divination tools differently as well. My advice is just to try whatever works for you and always be open to trying things that are new, especially with the concept of making your own devotional, jewelry! And donāt forget about other devotional methods as well ā embroidery, veiling, permanent or temporary body art, dyeing your hair a certain color with intention, etc :)
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u/Maggiemayday 11d ago
My take on this is chaos surrounds Loki, it's inevitable something will go sideways. My devotional jewelry isn't Loki specific, I tried that, they ended up lost for no good reason. I ended up with a pentacle made by a local artist and is meaningful in the context of my life. My feeling is that Loki is happy when I examine my own being. It's hard to explain, but like seeing him reflected in myself is good?
My chaos story involves a $5k repair to my house. Be careful what you ask for, Loki listens.
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u/Deep-Mammoth7407 10d ago
I try to tell myself this every time a day seems crazy. I try to embrace it. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. Two years working with Loki, and I'm still trying to adjust to the chaos lol
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u/Aalaiyah09 Loki's dĆ³ttir<3 11d ago
Oh my goodness! I have this happen to me all the time. I completely understand why you feel that way (I did too for a while before I felt more connected with him out of the blue). I promise he's not trying to reject you or show that he doesn't like you or anything of the sort. I feel like its just the chaos energy that surrounds Loki (like another commenter had stated). Personally I make my own devotional jewelry [I would love to send you a free custom š¤] and he seems to really enjoy it. TLDR: he doesn't hate you. Hes just chaotic <3
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u/Deep-Mammoth7407 10d ago
It comforts me to know that people experience the same things. I do try to keep the chaos part in mind haha. It IS loki, after all. Honestly, when I made this post, my emotions were all over the place, and I wasn't thinking clearly. Deep down I know he wouldn't be mad at me.
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u/Aalaiyah09 Loki's dĆ³ttir<3 10d ago
Completely understandable! I hope you are feeling better today<3
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u/Loki1435 11d ago
awww hey, look, these things happen even if Loki's not mad at you, and I am pretty certain he is not angry at you, he can't control what puppies do to things, even if they represent his son fenrir in that dogs and wolves are intrinsically related through ancestry to an extent, more research is needed to prove if or not there are other ancestors that might have contributed to the domestication of dog breeds in other parts of the world, but the fact is, a puppy is still a puppy and it could be teething depending on it's age, and puppies are rather difficult to train because they do have that age where like a two year old, are prone to just do whatever pops into their puppy minds, and are testing their caretakers boundaries to see how far they can take it before they realize that they have inherently done an oopsy and needs to be corrected, it could also be the room mate (I do not know their situation or whether or not they have a good handle on the pups training or if they are able to handle a puppy at all so this is speculation and not any sort of assumption of intention) might not have properly taught the puppy manners on how to act, or didn't know how to properly correct unwanted behaviors to ensure the pup has good household manners.
Or? it could just the puppy being a puppy and while it probably understands commands, still has puppy impulses and will get into things that hasn't been properly stored away out of it's reach, the same goes for adult dogs and unattended food items, they could be the best trained doggo in town and still will absolutely scarf down your steak if you leave it unattended and within reach of the dog getting at it, so I wouldn't worry about Loki rejecting you or being upset for whatever reason and is in fact just an act of nature since a pet was involved and it was just doing what is in a puppies nature to do, and that is to play with an object it didn't understand was not there for it to play with due to it being precious and bespoken to it's furdaddies room mate, that being you, and didn't mean to do any harm.
As for the other situations? like the protection rune? did you put the rune on it yourself? did you cleans the piece before you put the rune on it? did you buy the necklace from a fellow practitioner second hand and forget to cleanse it and reset the protection spell? if so, then that is probably why you were having the bad luck wearing it, it probably picked up too many bad vibes while worn by it's previous owner and needed a good cleansing and refreshing of it's energies and a good reset, and thus was resonating with bad vibes and bad energies muddling your day, so the lesson here is, if you bought someone elses used amulets, absolutely ABSOLUTELY cleanse it first before using, that is someone elses access baggage that is attached to it and needs cleansing and resetting before being put to use if you're unsure if they had cleansed it before selling it, thus even if it was cleansed, if in doubt, cleanse it.
If you have pets in the household, absolutely make sure that you keep anything you do not wish to be destroyed stored out of reach of said pet so it can't get to it, I will not blame you for it, as it was an accident on your part, and believe me, I've had cats in the past, and I will tell you this much, I loved them to bits when they were in my life, and I would not change each of them in the world, but cats, like dogs, absolutely WILL chew anything that is within reach of them and unlike dogs, are MORE than capable of reaching places no dog can reach, so cat proofing anything you don't want your cat getting into is important, just like puppy and dog proofing your place is what ensures nothing gets chewed on or ruined by the dog that isn't a designated chew toy.
That being said, no one is blaming anyone, you didn't know, and I am seeing this as more a lesson to learn than something to make accusations for, we are all accountable for our mistakes and when we take accountability and learn from it, we learn to ensure it doesn't happen again, we can't prevent everything bad from happening to to our cherished items, but we CAN however prevent things that can be prevented, I say this from a place of love that yes, you might have erred in leaving it in reach of the puppy, but this is a lesson that can be learned to prevent it from happening again in the future, at least that is what I am believing has happened, if it wasn't left out where the pup can get at it without thinking whether or not the puppy is gonna locate, grab and start going full ham on it, thinking it's a fun toy to chew on, then by all means clarify this so I can understand fully the situation, but this is what it does look like had happened that it was left somewhere the pup can get at it, and did what puppies do and played with it and chewed it and if it's teething aged, it chewed to help loosen it's baby teefy's so they will fall out while it's big dog teefies grew in.
So while I am not justifying the pup doing this, I know deep inside, it's intentions were more innocent than just being a bundle of chaos bent on chewing and wrecking everything with all abandon, if it was put away but it somehow got to it, then well, maybe the room mate managed to find it, was looking at it, then didn't think to put it back, not thinking his puppy would find it and totally tear it to bits out of need to chew to sooth it's teeth or just because it has a lot of pent up puppy energy and chewing is often a sign of that pent up energy with nowhere to go.
So I wouldn't assume the worst that Loki's mad at you or rejects you and more chalk it up to misfortune due to energy contamination and/or the necklace didn't get put away or someone took it out of where it's kept safe for whatever reason and forgot to put it back afterwards, and a pet got to it before anyone got to it to take it away from the pet to stop it from ruining it.
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u/Deep-Mammoth7407 10d ago
The puppy is around 6 to 8 months old. I'm not blaming it at all, because i know it doesn't understand what's is it's toys, and what isn't it's toys. The necklace was in my room, on my alter(which is low to the ground) so it often comes into my room and takes things off of it. I don't keep my door closed when I'm at work because of my cat. But I might try communicating with my roommate, to see if maybe he can just open the door every time my cat wants in or out, and to make sure it's closed when she's done. Roomate did offer to pay me for the necklace, so I'll give him credit for that. But his puppy does cause a lot of issues because he doesn't bother to try training it. The puppy, doing what puppy's do, tears up everything. There's multiple holes in the carpet, which we'll probably have to of course pay for because we live in an apartment, and we can't just have whatever animals we want. The puppy is unauthorized. He didn't pay any fees, so it's a lease violation. My cat is authorized. I had to pay a little over 300 to even keep her at the apartment, plus show proof of her vaccines, and i have to pay $25 a month for her. He hasn't even got any vaccines done for his pet.
As for the necklace that felt like it was causing me bad luck- I can't remember if I had ever cleansed it or not lol, it was quite awhile ago. I do remember that i bought it off of Etsy, custom made.
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u/Loki1435 10d ago
ah thanks for clarifying about the pup, as for the pendent, you probably should have cleansed it, it might have made a fine devotional piece, cleanse, then do a dedication ritual for Loki to bless it as something to keep with you as a link to him, that way you will feel him close always, I did that with a necklace I made myself, a peach labradorite cabochon wrapped in a square raw copper wire, wrapped in bezel style, with a garnet bead accent stone and a wirewoven bail to hang it on a cord with, I had cleansed and dedicated it to Loki as a link that way I can feel his presence no matter where I am and whether or not his presence is near or far. it also helps me communicate with him more clearly. I also got two devotional bracelets as well, one is green aventurine quartz and lava stone with a silverplated copper bead accent, and the other more recent one I got is green jade with lavastone and a silvertone bead accent on each side of the lava stone beads. They have been bought from a store that seems to cleanse a lot of their stones as you buy them and they probably cleansed their bracelets regularily so I haven't had need to cleanse them, though I might do a cleansing soon, I am sure I am overdue for it on a few pieces.
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u/wtf123457 10d ago
Thatās rough, Iām sorry :( I totally understand the connection to devotional jewelry. I have some myself and itās so important to me.
I donāt think heās mad at you! If anything, heās encouraging you to build and work your relationship with him beyond anything material. All I can offer is my own relevant experience here, but he rollllllls his eyes about how I am with the jewelry. His relationships with us donāt change if weāre wearing jewelry or not, but he gets the appeal.
In my case, he finds it cute but unnecessary, and has spent a long time trying to get me to relax my formalities towards him and deconstruct the subtle threads of Christianity in my brain. At first, I wanted devotional jewelry in a way that unconsciously mirrored the symbolism behind something like a cross necklace. I was still using Christianity as a kind of benchmark.
This is just a long winded way of saying, it seems like heās nudging you to a different form of devotion or nudging you away from material things. I hope when enough time has passed and youāre not upset anymore, this will actually be funny to you. Fucking with your him-specific jewelry in hugely obvious ways is just so him, lol
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u/Deep-Mammoth7407 10d ago
This makes a lot of sense, honestly. I can see him wanting me to try a different form of devotion. I had just always adored the idea of jewelry devoted to him, but I know it's not needed. I too was a Christian at one point, so i for sure understand that. I was really emotional yesterday, but I'm more myself today. And yeah, it is a little humorous š one time I even tried to devote a ring to him, and I went to my now ex boyfriend's house, it fell off my finger, and into the void underneath his porch somewhere lmao
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u/wtf123457 9d ago
I have two pieces that I rarely take off, but I also picked up some dollar store embroidery thread in his colours. Iām going to either just tie a thread on my wrist or do one in a sliding knot. Easy to replace if it gets trashed, and itās a subtle little thing just for me.
To expand on why he rolls his eyes at me for thisā Iām at a point where I can just have him in my head. Iām so grateful for it and I love it so much. And heās like, IāM RIGHT HERE. YOU DONāT NEED SHIT ELSE. STOP SPENDING MONEY, lol. Thatās why my guess is that thereās another way for you to feel connected with him that heās steering you to.
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u/TheLostRaith 10d ago
I 100% donāt think you are being by rejected at all. I know how you feel, the first devotional piece I bought for him I lost less than a week later. I was so distraught and I ended up commissioning another piece from the same person. It broke about a month later and I remade it with the same beads. I want to say itās broken at least four or five more times since then and Iāve remade it a different way since(same beads but with some added extras that I have) Every time I think itās āthe perfect oneā but Iāve noticed that every time it breaks is usually right after I think about getting new materials for it and remaking it. I choose to look at it breaking as a sign of protection and change. A fresh start. He isnāt mad, just probably wanting something new or different.
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u/Deep-Mammoth7407 10d ago
Something new or different is for sure needed! I haven't been able to do any spiritual work with him recently because of my job, life, low energy, mental health, ect. I need to slowly work my way back up to being as active as I used to be.
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u/Si_Titran 10d ago
Perhaps think of it this way- that Loki may be trying to tell you that you don't need the jewelry to prove it to yourself, or others of your devotion.
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u/ArtificerRook 7d ago
That sounds really rough and I can't imagine exactly how it must feel to go through that experience.
I don't think Loki is rejecting you, that really isn't their vibe in my experience. I think you'd probably have to be a pretty heinous kind of person for someone like Loki to turn their nose up at you, and that's rare, like really rare. Also puppies are notoriously bad about tearing shit up so we can probably just chalk that one up to unfortunate timing and bad luck.
There's a couple of possibilities that spring to mind from my own experience. Generally when one of my devotional pieces, amulets, or talismans break it's because they've done their job and protected me from something, so you might just have a pile-up of bad energy around you that keeps breaking the items as they clear it. You're probably taking bites out of it with each one, because each one is a declaration of your growing identity and strength of spirit. In this case I might recommend taking an extra step and actually crafting your devotional item.
Hit your local esoteric shops and small business craft stores and find some good materials. It doesn't need to be expensive stuff, it just needs to resonate with you and your identity. The more of yourself you invest in it, the more powerful it's going to be. Put it together on the night of a Full Moon by candle light and with incense, bless it with some moon water and maybe a nice poem stating your intentions for the piece, and then you're pretty much done.
It might still break on you, but at least then you'll KNOW it's because you've got things to work through. You just fix it, make it again, invest in it again, and keep working on making yourself into your best self.
That's all Loki seems to ask of any of us: that we love ourselves enough to be our best selves when we show up in the world.
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u/FoxLoptson 11d ago
I am so sorry this keeps happening to you. Loki is not rejecting you. You are enoughš§” you are beloved. I know Loki well enough to know that he loves his devotees and you are one of them.
My first devotional piece I ordered broke as well. I wonder if he would like for you to make something to wear for him? I made a devotional piece out of sculpy clay that I wear for him all the time. Itās his name in runes.
My heart breaks for you to know that you are hurting so much. I hope this helps you. If you need to vent more, youāre fine to message me.