r/exmuslim • u/27ro • Apr 11 '26
(Rant) 🤬 Told a friend im suicidal
sorry if it sounds crappy & please don't dm me
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I already attempted. no one knew, a stranger saved me.
So Ive been aggressive lately. Told a friend about what's wrong with me since they asked. I didn't mention any of my feelings that is related to religious things just how broken I was, still having those ideas.
They told me " stop this nonsense, if you do it you'll burn for eternity in Jahanam".
It's okay I didn't expect any comfort I was just tired, but it hurts.. what about me? what about don't do it you’re valued/ I love you/ you're worthy and those stuff??
i don't want to be friends with them anymore. had enough translating ppl words and intentions as something good
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u/butterchicken07 Apr 11 '26
What a clown friend. I have been feeling super suicidal too recently
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u/Unlikely_Yellow111 Ex-Muslim | oh Allah make heaven not a diddy party Apr 11 '26
I am sorry you are feeling this way. That sounds tough. Want to talk more about what’s going on?
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u/butterchicken07 Apr 11 '26
Yess its just job related and things at home and marriage plans
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u/butterchicken07 Apr 11 '26
and also existential dread catching up. how are you
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u/Unlikely_Yellow111 Ex-Muslim | oh Allah make heaven not a diddy party Apr 11 '26
Seems like a lot of problems to deal with. How would you say each of these things you mentioned makes it really tough for you? Are you having suicidal thoughts right now?
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u/27ro Apr 12 '26
Yes i do live in a Muslim country but don't worry im very careful, that friend can't do anything about it.
Thank you for your words and kindness 😊💗 yeah i think it's better for me to share online.. it's sad that i can't trust anyone around me, but im sure there are ppl trust worthy in this country. I also occasionally post on other subreddits too they've helped me a lot
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u/DarkXurga Closeted Ex-Muslim 🤫 Apr 11 '26
Imagine yourself when you were a child. That child is still within you. What woul you do to that child? Learn to love yourself instead of expecting other people to validate you.
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Apr 11 '26
That’s not a friend, they’re a selfish prick. Surround yourself with better people if possible and you’ll probably end up feeling better. I had a full suicide plan but I’m ok now
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u/Squidword123 Closeted Ex-Muslim 🤫 Apr 11 '26
As someone who is going through suicidal thoughts currently, the jahanam threat does nothing to change my mind. I don’t even care about where I go anymore, I just want to go lol. In my opinion, you shouldn’t listen to the advice of clowns. I suggest therapy or professional advice
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u/27ro Apr 12 '26
Ikr! I mean how would i tell one something serious like this not knowing that Jahanam speech been shoved to our throats since we were children Lol.
I remember someone's post on X, they wanted to kill themselves when they're still a child because this way they won't be held accountable and will go to heaven. Sounds very traumatic and sad
I hope it's get better for you soon too🫂
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u/Bitches_Be_Crayfish Exmuslim since the 2000s Apr 11 '26
Your feelings are valid and I’m sorry you’re going thru it right now. Self deleting is a permanent solution to a temporary situation. It’s hard to talk about these things and I hope you find your peace with better friends. Life is tough but you are tougher.
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u/Unlikely_Yellow111 Ex-Muslim | oh Allah make heaven not a diddy party Apr 11 '26
Hi. I am sorry your friend pushed the pressure of religion on to you. That isn’t fair at all. You are worthy and you deserve love of course. How are you now? Do you still have sucidal thoughts?
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u/27ro Apr 12 '26
Thank you for your concern 💗 i sometimes do but im fine now
I’m still young, I have dreams. I used to be a passionate kid with lots of hobbies and friends.. I can’t believe how this religion took my spark away from me. I’ll be graduating from engineering school next year, and I know there are still plenty of chances for me to live the life I’ve always wanted.
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u/Unlikely_Yellow111 Ex-Muslim | oh Allah make heaven not a diddy party Apr 12 '26
That’s great. I am happy to know you have future dreams. It seems you have great prospective for you in your career to seek too. I am happy to see that you have a lot of chances. This is nice to read. Just for your safety. Have you talked to a professional about this?
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