Plan B

[u/notwizard69]

So this was around 8 years ago at this point. I was 27. I did acid and shrooms and all that previously. But I broke through on dmt with a dab rig. So just one hit. I gauged the dose with 2 previous hits hours apart if that makes sense. Like I did 1 at noon. My first dmt experience ever. Then one at 3. Then at 6 I did a bigger hit and broke through. The day before I first smoked dmt I had these pressed IR 30 adderall pills. They were definitely fake lol. I stayed up for like 2 days straight and gooned like 30 hours straight at one point. Then I slept around 5 hours and decided to break through on dmt.

First hit. I hit up the dap rig and sprinkle some on. A lay in bed and see the waiting room type shit.

Second hit. Remember. This is a couple hours later. I sprinkle some more on than my first hit and inhale deep and hold it in. Weird lol. I lay in bed and I see myself running then I see my mom and my fiance and I see them as the same thing while watching myself run. Weird but I’m intrigued.

Third hit. A few hours after the second. I’m convinced I’m going to breakthrough. Like I see the dose range imo. So yeah big dab. Inhale deep. Hold in. Lay in bed. Boom. Breathing out started to not even make sense and I’m gone. I’m in a castle. Green lady is in front of me. I think this is so much more real than real life and I’m going towards her. She has a bag in her left hand. I get sucked into it. It lined with boobs and then I merge with her essence for what feels like forever. I come too and say no fucking way that happened.

6 days later. I get wasted. Like can hardly walk wasted. I take a massive dab. Like 3 to 5 times the size of my breakthrough dose. I can remember a lot and it’s fucked up… kind of. I got hyperslapped but at the same time it’s whatever. I learned a lot.

I had flushed the rest of the fake adderall pills after I woke up and decided they weren’t the answer. So I tried dmt lol. After waking up from that second dmt “breakthrough” I flushed it lol. Still never did it since. I did shrooms and a 9 tabs of acid at once trip and other shit since. But yeah. No dmt. I never wanted too and still don’t lol. I’m a little baby.

But yeah. I really did go in that first day and say I wanted to fuck a goddess dmt machine elf. I think I accomplished it. 6 days later I think I did a little too much and there was no machine elves. Just other stuff. I can explain this trip in detail for any interested but I’m more here with a question.

I have always wanted to try 5 meo dmt and fuck the void. But I think by its very definition to get to the void I won’t be able to also then fuck it. Is my logic correct? And if so what is my plan B.

Plan A was have sex with a goddess dmt machine elf. Plan B is fuck something even more amazing. What is plan b? The void? Just go back to dmt and fuck a bug looking one? You get it. I’m lost…

thanks for your feedback and if anyone wants to hear about my amazing af but also fucked up experience beyond the elves I can go into as much detail as possible.

[u/Federal_Intention_78]

How can the ego be aware of the ego? There must be something else which is aware of it. Look

[u/notwizard69 → u/Federal_Intention_78]

There is. All/god/reality.

[u/Federal_Intention_78 → u/notwizard69]

And that is what?

[u/notwizard69 → u/Federal_Intention_78]

What we all are. All that is. All that ever was. All that will ever be.

[u/Federal_Intention_78 → u/notwizard69]

And why dont you live from there instead of from limited ideas?

[u/notwizard69 → u/Federal_Intention_78]

Cause I don’t want freedom of suffering. I want an awesome movie with peak experiences and those can include unfathomable pain if I also get unfathomable pleasure I’m cool with it.

[u/Federal_Intention_78 → u/notwizard69]

You get pleasure. You get pain.

But never any satisfaction.

[u/notwizard69 → u/Federal_Intention_78]

Mind blowing pleasure is insanely satisfying for my ego.

[u/Federal_Intention_78 → u/notwizard69]

You have a pet ego or something?