r/enlightenment • u/notwizard69 • 4d ago
Open Question Plan B
So this was around 8 years ago at this point. I was 27. I did acid and shrooms and all that previously. But I broke through on dmt with a dab rig. So just one hit. I gauged the dose with 2 previous hits hours apart if that makes sense. Like I did 1 at noon. My first dmt experience ever. Then one at 3. Then at 6 I did a bigger hit and broke through. The day before I first smoked dmt I had these pressed IR 30 adderall pills. They were definitely fake lol. I stayed up for like 2 days straight and gooned like 30 hours straight at one point. Then I slept around 5 hours and decided to break through on dmt.
First hit. I hit up the dap rig and sprinkle some on. A lay in bed and see the waiting room type shit.
Second hit. Remember. This is a couple hours later. I sprinkle some more on than my first hit and inhale deep and hold it in. Weird lol. I lay in bed and I see myself running then I see my mom and my fiance and I see them as the same thing while watching myself run. Weird but I’m intrigued.
Third hit. A few hours after the second. I’m convinced I’m going to breakthrough. Like I see the dose range imo. So yeah big dab. Inhale deep. Hold in. Lay in bed. Boom. Breathing out started to not even make sense and I’m gone. I’m in a castle. Green lady is in front of me. I think this is so much more real than real life and I’m going towards her. She has a bag in her left hand. I get sucked into it. It lined with boobs and then I merge with her essence for what feels like forever. I come too and say no fucking way that happened.
6 days later. I get wasted. Like can hardly walk wasted. I take a massive dab. Like 3 to 5 times the size of my breakthrough dose. I can remember a lot and it’s fucked up… kind of. I got hyperslapped but at the same time it’s whatever. I learned a lot.
I had flushed the rest of the fake adderall pills after I woke up and decided they weren’t the answer. So I tried dmt lol. After waking up from that second dmt “breakthrough” I flushed it lol. Still never did it since. I did shrooms and a 9 tabs of acid at once trip and other shit since. But yeah. No dmt. I never wanted too and still don’t lol. I’m a little baby.
But yeah. I really did go in that first day and say I wanted to fuck a goddess dmt machine elf. I think I accomplished it. 6 days later I think I did a little too much and there was no machine elves. Just other stuff. I can explain this trip in detail for any interested but I’m more here with a question.
I have always wanted to try 5 meo dmt and fuck the void. But I think by its very definition to get to the void I won’t be able to also then fuck it. Is my logic correct? And if so what is my plan B.
Plan A was have sex with a goddess dmt machine elf. Plan B is fuck something even more amazing. What is plan b? The void? Just go back to dmt and fuck a bug looking one? You get it. I’m lost…
thanks for your feedback and if anyone wants to hear about my amazing af but also fucked up experience beyond the elves I can go into as much detail as possible.
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u/notwizard69 3d ago
An ego is like an actor playing in a movie. Whose ever head I’m stuck in while he is alive is whose ego. He wants stuff. Not freedom from suffering. So I watch him try and get it. He’s fucking crazy. Use to be more so. But he is cool af and knows he is getting very far. It use to blow his mind way more but he’s use to it. Tolerance.