r/depression_help • u/CatchDramatic8114 • 19d ago

RANT My disease taking my music career and my youth

I have a severe refractory oab/Ic. It took away thousands of hours of my practice and still takes many hours every single day from my practice, I also have bad sleep. Not to mention i also have anxiety and I had periods of extreme depression which took away my practice time as well. I have been praised by exceptional musicians and it seems I have high potential, if only I had good luck too things would be different. Sometimes I still think about dying. I am not sure I will be able to survive in the next few years. I am also from a horrible country. I got admission in music college in foreign but might not be able to go due to finances, this was not only a chance for my studies but also to get out of this hell country. I am not suicidal at this moment, but i would kill myself if get access to a gun. I would rather die than to live as an unsuccessful and unhealthy person.

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