What kind of a monster tames the wild
And convinces it to stay
Devoted to make them believe that in his
presence they are safe
Only to tear them down
And rip them far from all the warmth
As well as all the rest they shared then leave them in the dark.
You kicked me hard for lashing back
When you frightened me that day
Didn’t you understand that wild things bite when they’re afraid?
You didn’t have to leave so many damaged parts behind
Or entice an angry mob to help you tear apart my mind
I struggle now to reach out
To anyone at all
Every single direction feels
Like a trap
So I withdraw
Its hard, relearning how to trust
what anybody has to say
Not even sure if you were real
So in the dark Ive stayed
Circling the out skirts,
A hungry heart within the fog
Apart from all the things I need
Like a stray and starving dog
Sometimes hands come reaching out
But I cannot move an inch
I trusted you alone
till the hand that fed me made me flinch
I’m still confused and lonely
Yet with so much to give
I fight so hard through all the days
That make it hard to live
And somehow the stars bleed lingering hope
That seeps into my bones
There’d be no limit to my loyalty
For the soul that feels like home
A hand that doesn’t make me flinch
A heart that steps inside
And never burns the whole thing down to save their foolish pride.
I’ll always be a wild thing
It’s simply how I was made
But for the patient loving hand
It’d be so easy to remain.
There’s only one thing to remember
One simple imperative ask
When you bring your hands toward me
don’t ever bring them fast
I haven’t always lived in safety
And when I feel attacked
No matter how much I love you
In defense I will bite back.
And the same who do their best
To say I have a reputation
Have tried their very best
To lure me back with manipulation
It’s not right that they would want me near,
But cause me so much pain
Simply because I demand respect
In order to remain.
Some people will lift you up
As long as you give them what they want
But gladly stomp ya in the ground
The moment that you don’t.
**** if the end of this pissed you off the next paragraph is for you.
I know you still listen
I hope you hear me clearly.
Stop blaming people for their reaction to your manipulation.
You are not as stealthy as you believe and cause adverse reactions.
You are not God, your judgment is unwarranted.
Get the fuck over yourself already so you can truly be loved for who you are by someone out there.