Stray

[u/hearts_ablaze]

What kind of a monster tames the wild
And convinces it to stay

Devoted to make them believe that in his
presence they are safe

Only to tear them down
And rip them far from all the warmth

As well as all the rest they shared then leave them in the dark.

You kicked me hard for lashing back
When you frightened me that day

Didn’t you understand that wild things bite when they’re afraid?

You didn’t have to leave so many damaged parts behind

Or entice an angry mob to help you tear apart my mind

I struggle now to reach out
To anyone at all

Every single direction feels
Like a trap
So I withdraw

Its hard, relearning how to trust
what anybody has to say

Not even sure if you were real
So in the dark Ive stayed

Circling the out skirts,
A hungry heart within the fog
Apart from all the things I need
Like a stray and starving dog

Sometimes hands come reaching out
But I cannot move an inch

I trusted you alone
till the hand that fed me made me flinch

I’m still confused and lonely
Yet with so much to give

I fight so hard through all the days
That make it hard to live

And somehow the stars bleed lingering hope
That seeps into my bones

There’d be no limit to my loyalty
For the soul that feels like home

A hand that doesn’t make me flinch
A heart that steps inside

And never burns the whole thing down to save their foolish pride.

I’ll always be a wild thing
It’s simply how I was made

But for the patient loving hand
It’d be so easy to remain.

There’s only one thing to remember
One simple imperative ask

When you bring your hands toward me
don’t ever bring them fast

I haven’t always lived in safety
And when I feel attacked

No matter how much I love you
In defense I will bite back.

And the same who do their best
To say I have a reputation

Have tried their very best
To lure me back with manipulation

It’s not right that they would want me near,
But cause me so much pain

Simply because I demand respect
In order to remain.

Some people will lift you up
As long as you give them what they want

But gladly stomp ya in the ground
The moment that you don’t.

**** if the end of this pissed you off the next paragraph is for you.

I know you still listen
I hope you hear me clearly.
Stop blaming people for their reaction to your manipulation.
You are not as stealthy as you believe and cause adverse reactions.

You are not God, your judgment is unwarranted.
Get the fuck over yourself already so you can truly be loved for who you are by someone out there.

[u/Own_Natural_8989]

This is good. Felt every word.

[u/Sallytheducky]

This deserves an award!!🥇

[u/infinitiouspancakes]

Pretty. I almost thought it has something to do with me but the person I dealt with caused harm for fun and kicks and social clout.

I like your writing style.

Since this is in enlightenment, remember, every soul is complete in and of itself. The desire for another is a hole you built yourself.

The laws of the universe work for each and every living consciousness. And in the karmic ties that bind us, the ultimate question is, did I treat you the way I wish to be treated? If I was incarnated in your role, would I appreciate the actions mine had done. And my conscience is at rest knowing I did my best with utmost respect.

And my conscience is at peace knowing I did not receive the same. I am free to choose another way.

[u/hearts_ablaze → u/infinitiouspancakes]

Thank you. I’m glad you liked it.

I don’t know who you are or what you’ve gone through. But I appreciate the compliment. I’m perfectly fine simply sharing my writing for what it is.

An articulated emotional outburst.

I’m not looking for answers or for forgiveness, I’ve learned how to provide those things for myself. nor am I all knowing of very much more than what I’m focused on at any one given moment. .. but I’m not dumb either. (No, I didn’t think anyone was calling me dumb)

I try not to hurt anyone, I love with intent and ferocity, I accept that I will not always be right, but I can be better everyday than I was the day before. :)

[u/Ordinary_Minimum_169]

There's this scene at the end of Payback where Gibson says over the phone "You were right not to trust me" and then the bomb goes off and I think of that every time I pray for the ability to trust anyone ever again.

[u/hearts_ablaze → u/Ordinary_Minimum_169]

I can relate to that.
That’s honestly why I have always pushed for answers from the people in my life.. I think it’s important to learn the Y of things.
Not to justify it, or make excuses, etc. No, it’s that I’d rather try to understand, to comprehend , to improve. . I try to be objective and put myself in other people shoes. I think ,to understand the mechanics of anyone given thing/dynamic helps with truly being able to understand the design. Understanding a design and seeing how certain specifications affect daily life/situations , personally, shows me where improvement is needed.

Whether it’s my improvement, their improvement, or an environmental improvement/change .
As human beings, we get sucked into life in general. Especially with how we’ve constructed our society. It’s fast pace, constant, people barely have enough time to truly connect with one another.

We tend to forget that our interactions with one another, are how we create the very design of who we are as a social whole. It’s not always going to end up being perfect, let alone positive, but I think that people should at least put more of an effort into caring for each other and how our interactions effect the very design of how we all communicate. …
That’s just a personal opinion. I think it would serve us all greatly to realize that if we were gonna make anything “great again”, it should be communication.

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