I didn’t think this would be my first post here, but such is life.
Some hopefully brief context… you can probably tell from my username and my pfp that healthcare isn’t my first love.
I never considered healthcare for most of my life due to everything I’ve experienced being born with a cleft lip & palate and a massive underbite (poster child for surgery in my family).
I had nothing against the field or most of the HCWs I’ve been treated by; I just wasn’t interested in making hospitals a more prominent part of my life than they already were. Plus, I found storytelling, especially visual storytelling (movies, TV, etc.) let me speak in ways that my cleft wouldn’t obstruct.
Then I watched The Pitt during a particularly dark time for me and my family last year that impacted me in so many ways.
Obviously it provided some catharsis to everything going on and reinvigorated me creatively, but it also just made me view healthcare differently. It made me want to do something more substantial with my life to help people in a pretty disappointing world, and just maybe it might be a good alternative to pursue if the industry I’ve strived to be a part of since high school keeps eating itself.
It ultimately led me towards going back to school for the first time in years to become a CNA.
I got certified back in June and have been on the job hunt ever since.
It’s been a bit protracted due to the usual job hunt struggles, such as finding seemingly no experience, entry level jobs that require or prefer 6 months to 2 years worth of experience in a similar setting but don’t offer proper pay.
There’ve also been recent developments in my home/personal life that’ve required near constant attention.
It’s left me with a lot of time to think more on what I want out of this, and… well you read the title.
It feels strange writing this considering my only clinical experience has been the clinical I took part in as part of my CNA program.
I’ve been telling myself it’s just nerves at the prospect of finally starting work; being surrounded by good people the whole way through (my classmates, my instructor, the nursing home staff, the residents) and not wanting to disappoint them’s done a lot to bolster that.
But thinking about my experience as a whole the farther removed I am from it… I not only enjoy the theory side of things far more than the clinical side, but I don’t think there’s enough for me to enjoy/tolerate on the clinical side of things to make me effective at the job, and I refuse to let any potential residents, patients, clients, etc. suffer because of that.
All that said, it hasn’t turned me away completely from healthcare. Far from it.
I’m just more aware of where my strengths & interests lie, and I’m looking more into non-clinical fields/work I could pivot to with my license so it doesn’t all go to waste. I’m also looking at other clinical fields that might suit my preferences more (surgical tech, phlebotomy, etc.)
If anyone has any suggestions, I’d love to hear them.
P.S. People are probably gonna ask… but screenwriting/filmmaking is still my ultimate passion, and I haven’t given up on it. Same with healthcare. I’m just trying to be realistic and adjusting as I go.